Question of the day.

What was the last thing you got angry about?

My answer:

Seriously angry I was on 3rd July, I feel always a lot of anger when I feel overwhelmed with lots of feelings and so it was on that day, but I feel like I wasn’t angry about anything speciffic, just a lot of things together plus maybe some bottled up stuff from God knows when in the past.

Less angry I was yesterday, at my computer, or more exactly at my screen reader, which suddenly refused to work and then it turned out that my SAPI5 crashed, which led to pretty weird things happening and me not being able to use most of my speech synthesisers, which, if you use multiple languages regularly and alternately, also such that aren’t very popular, can be an issue.

How about you? πŸ™‚

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Hidden Citizens – Somebody’s Watching Me.

Hi. πŸ™‚

I thought I’d share another really cool cover with you, though in a COMPLETELY different style than the last one.

Do you ever feel like somebody’s watching you?

I do, very often. Not always, luckily, but very, very often. It has to do with my “silence anxiety”, as I call it, which means that, among other things, when I am alone and there is complete silence around me, I have often this horrifying impression just as if somebody was watching me. Also I am obsessed about my privacy i some cases, even if I’m not doing anything that very private, and I also think I might be somewhat “traumatised” by Zofijka, who loves to make me surprises like that I come into my room, do things and after 15 minutes I realise she’s hiding under the curtain or something. πŸ˜€ Can be funny, but also often pissing off and unsettling, however despite me telling her how it’s often annoying and just not OK if she does it, I guess she doesn’t fully get it. Also I guess I’m just similar to my Dad who is kinda paranoid. So yeah, I do often feel this way.

If you do too, I think you’re gonna like this song.

It is a cover of that famous 80’s hit by Rockwell, made by Hidden Citizens. As much as the original version doesn’t have the climate at all, the Hidden Citizens version is really powerful and graphic. You can really feel what’s it about, in opposite to the original in my opinion. I really could use the Hidden Citizens version as a sort of soundtrack to some parts of my life. πŸ˜€ It’s impressive!

High15 – Whole Again.

Hi guys. πŸ™‚

Today I want to share a cover with you. High15 are a young girlsband from Sweden and they mainly make covers of pop songs. They became famous through Talang (so like Swedish version of Britain’s Got Talent). They are all born in 2002 or 2003. Currently there are for girls in the band. They are all close friends and they met on the camp for young artists, they’re from different parts of Sweden, plus one of them – Lleucu – is from Finland, but they meet regularly to write and record new music.

The song I want to show you was originally performed by Atomic Kitten, and is called “Whole Again”. I must say I like how they cover various songs, they do it with such passion and it’s really nice to listen to them.

My peeps are back.

Hhrrru?

It’s Misha. My human parents were out on the trip for a few days. And Zofijka went to grandparents’. I of course stayed home with Mila and Olek, my peeps never take me anywhere with them. I slept most of those three days. But I also had lots of fun with Mila. We played with beans. We snuggled for hours, we started to like each other even more. And I had so many yummy snacks. Mila said that even I deserve to have holidays and so should get more yummy food. I was really happy. Zofijka popped in for a while yesterday and I was a bit frightened she came back, I don’t like to be with Zofijka when Mum isn’t around, but she just stroked me and said I am a very lovely baby.

I like to be alone when I can choose it and when I can always come back to others when I want but I don’t like being lonely, so I was sticking to Mila all the time and she kept saying it’s so much not like me. It is, but I reeally don’t like being forced to be lonely. And I am just nosy so wanted to see all what she was doing. Mila said I was behaving very well.

And a few hours ago I heard them coming back. We both actually thought it’s Olek but it turned out they came back. We were very surprised.

Everyone wanted to hug me, and they were so nice to me. I hoped they’ll have something for me, maybe a toy or a treat or something, but they didn’t have anything. But Mum went to the kitchen and gave me my favourite sauce. I love it so so so much. I am not sleepy at all, I slept all day through and now I want to play, but Zofijka seems tired and hungry and eats and eats all the time and is kinda grumpy.

I liked it when we were alone but now it’s really cool when we are all together.

Question of the day.

What is the last thing you cried about?

My answer:

Cried like cried or just felt like crying? I have issues with crying and with expressing emotions generally, so, although I’ve learned to cry, it’s still really hard to do for me and I am rarely able to really let my emotions out through crying. I can feel like crying, or like I would really really like to cry very often, but I don’t cry often at all. I guess the last time I cried was in May, after one of my finals, and then I literally cried all the way back home and even afterwards and couldn’t stop, it was all scary! But the last time I felt like crying was last week on Tuesday, and it was also in some part related to my finals. But generally I felt like crying because I was just overwhelmed by lots of emotions and triggered, but just couldn’t let it out in any way, or figure out what’s actually ging on inn my brain, I was also extremely angry at that time and when I feel angry I often feel on the verge of tears, just like my Mum. In most situations I am glad I am not an easy cryer, like many women in my family are, but sometimes I would really like to be able to relieve myself through tears but it just seems impossible nowadays after all those years of bottling things up.

How about you? πŸ™‚