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In connection to a recent question I asked you, about what itās like to be you, hereās a somewhat similar one:
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If you could swap lives with someone for a day, living their reality, who would you choose and why?Ā
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My answer:Ā
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For the purpose of answering this question, Iām going to assume that, in the process of swapping lives, Iād still retain at least some part of being me, like my real identity or memories/perspectives from my actual life. You could say that in this case you arenāt really fully swapping lives and that itās illogical, but otherwise itās kind of pointless to think about being someone else I guess. You feel free to approach this question however you want though.Ā
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As much as, a lot of the time, being Bibiel couldnāt quite be called lots of fun for an average person, and as much as I love to imagine what itās like to be other people, I donāt often have those kind of thoughts like: āI wish I could swap lives with them.ā I think in large part itās because at least what Iām currently dealing with is something Iām familiar with, Iām used to it. It would suck having to get used to a different reality. I hate changes. And also, somehow a lot of people about whom Iāve thought at times that Iād like to swap with them because they seem to have a cool life, at the same time donāt seem to have a very interesting brainlife. Maybe you donāt need an interesting brainlife when your external one is okay, but still, Iād feel weird without one, I guess. That being said, there is one person about whom I regularly, if fleetingly, think that sometimes, Iād really like to live a life like hers, even if that means having no brainlife. Just to see what itās like being more or less normal. So living her life for a day is actually something Iād be theoretically interested in, because if it would turn out to be too normal and boring for me, I could just look forward to going back to being Bibiel again.Ā
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This person is Sofi! Sofiās always had a so-called āeasy lifeā. And I mean totally objectively. Lots of people notice that about her, itās immediately apparent from how she sees the world and just what sheās like in general. The only āuneasyā thing about her life is that she seriously seems to attract envious, jealous and toxic girls who scheme against her, itās been a case even since she was in preschool, and loser boyfriends who retaliate very painfully when she breaks up with them, itās a never-ending cycle. But because generally Sofi is fairly sensible, I think at some point sheāll just learn to avoid the wrong people and even this will no longer be a problem. Another potentially āuneasyā aspect of her life now when she is a teenager is that she hasnāt come to terms with her height, and sheās very tall for a girl. Which most people see as a positive thing, but everyone feels entitled to comment on whenever they see her for the first time, or even every time they see her: āWow, youāre so tall!ā Or even as ambiguous compliments as āYouāre huge!ā (Sheās not huge, sheās actually very thin and, as my Mum says, āreed-likeā)), so that doesnāt really help her self-esteem either but at the same time she knows that itās bullshit and that her height is a total advantage for her. Itās just not fun hearing everyone comment on it as if you were a total alien whoās landed on the planet of Little People. If you asked Sofi now, whether she considers herself to be happy, or even if she thinks sheās normal, she would say no, but then so would most teenagers probably. Itās really not much fun being a teenager, contrary to the popular belief (as if people who subscribe to this belief have never been teenagers themselves). Not to mention that itās very unpopular to be normal. But I think everyone who met Sofi, vs any random teenager who has some other issues not stemming basically solely from being a teenager, would agree that itās way easier being Sofi.
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So Iād want to be Sofi for a day and find out for myself what itās like being a spoilt kid who always gets what she wants from life and from people just because sheās nice and good-looking, and whom everyone likes, except those who envy her something. For the past year or so, Sofi has been through a rough patch for Sofiās standards, and while normally sheās very happy, now sheās been quite depressed or at least saying all the time that she is. So Iād like to be in her brain and see why actually she is so depressed, because so far, no one has solved this mystery, not even a therapist she saw last year for nearly half a year. Maybe then, after Iād go back to being Bibiel, Iād be able to understand her better and possibly help her somehow. And besides, Iād be interested to know what itās like having loads of friends, whether such people seriously donāt get drained from it or are they just good at faking it, what itās like always knowing how to behave and what to say, whether itās really such fun sitting all day doing your nails and watching one and the same soap opera over and over again, what itās like when your biggest problem of the month is that youāve got another bout of acne (Iām not saying that itās not a problem, obviously for everyone the biggest problem is the one theyāre dealing with, it just never really was something I had to deal with much and I wonder if it would be so soul-crushing for me as well). I could see first-hand what itās like liking school, and especially for social reasons. I would have no qualms about seeming ungrateful when people did something for me but it didnāt quite match my expectations, and would just tell them straight in the face something like: āMum, this cake isā¦ hm, kind of strange. Why didnāt you just buy one in a shop?ā. Iād tell people things like: āIf you have a problem, you have a problem!ā Or if someone asked me to do them some kind of favour, Iād happily reply: āIn your dreams!ā (These are actual things that Sofi says hahahaha, I used to have a whole file of āSofiās Selfish Quotesā) and people would think itās just me being cute, and I wouldnāt cringe the slightest bit about it, just think Iām really smart and witty. Iād have the most infectious laugh in the world and everyone would laugh just because Iām in the same room as them. Or, well, at least thatās often the effect Sofi has on me, maybe not so much on other people. Itās enough for her to laugh and it makes me laugh too. Iād be able to cry over a moving film or song. Everyone at school would be my copycat and want to dress just like me. I would have no problems discussing my ever-changing love life with my own mother. I guess most teenagers would envy Sofi her Mum and that she has such good relationship with her and can tell her most things. Even my Mum is surprised sometimes at how open Sofi is. I wouldnāt be ashamed of using big, emotional, dramatic words for small, everyday things. If someone would tell me something I wouldnāt like hearing, Iād have no problem telling them half-playfully: āOh no, donāt say that, it hurts me!ā Iād have fairly limited introspection, and while I think on one hand thatās kind of boring, on the other maybe it makes you focus more on the external world or something. I could find out why itās so fun to play Brawl Stars, or what life is like when you love roller-skating. I would love adrenaline and want lots of stuff to happen to me every day, especially if it includes people making surprises for me or buying me things, as long as theyāre actually cool, ācause if theyāre not, well, I wonāt be impressed and theyāll have a problem.Ā
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But Iād probably struggle with some aspects of Sofiās brain. Sofi sometimes says that sheād like to have my brain for thinking, because hers is too slow. Sofi was a premature baby and our math tutor said it might be because of that. She is quite a slow learner, in the sense that she actually has to spend time on studying, like outside of her homework and being at school, she just has to sit down and study for an exam or else sheās going to fail it. Which I think seriously sucks, I hated studying like that and very rarely did it, I never knew how people do it. And I was lucky enough that my brain appears to have sponge-like qualities in that it absorbs a lot of stuff without me having to actively try to absorb it. It can have its downsides too, but at school it was certainly useful. And it makes me feel sad for Sofi that the way she has to learn is basically memorise the whole lesson, it seems quite inflexible, because if a question is phrased differently on the test than it was in her textbook, itās already going to disorient her, or if the teacher wants her to answer with her own words. Or she has real trouble learning new words or names or things like that. Sheās also not very good at math and has very similar math issues to mine though there are some differences between our respective math difficulties too. I suppose that if something went wrong in the swapping process and I werenāt able to go back to being Bibiel, what Iād utilise a lot is how Sofiās brain is good at all things crafty and manually creative, or āplast plastā, as we call them between each other (there once was a Polish childrenās TV show called Plastelinek and Friends, about one creature called Plastelinek who was made of plasticine and he visited schools and taught kids art or something like thatā¦ I donāt remember it very well anymore. But in any case, whenever he was happy or satisfied with something, heād characteristically exclaim āPlast plast!ā In a funny way) She draws really well and can make really detailed figurines out of plasticine, she also used to do water colour painting before she went to high school, all kinds of things like that. Now she hardly ever does anything creative because on one hand she indeed has very little time with all the schoolwork and endless studying, and on the other, when she does have time, she loves to just procrastinate. So she talks a lot about how sheād like to draw more again, or even just do something basic like read a book, but instead she lies on the couch playing Brawl Stars. So I think, if I got stuck in Sofiland, I would at least try to go back into those plast plast things and develop them as much as I could and get something actually interesting out of life this way.Ā
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In practice though, if I were to swap lives with Sofi for a day, I probably wouldnāt be able to learn or understand much about what itās like to be Sofi, because, assuming like I do that I would go into it with my Bibiel identity and Bibiel experiences, I would spend all that day adjusting to having functional vision and freaking out about it, lolololol! It would be interesting to be sighted for a day, but probably also really scary and Iām not sure it would be enough for me to get used to it and learn to use the sense of sight properly.Ā
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Also, another practical reason why I wouldnāt be so happy with that swap is, well, itās supposed to be a swap, right? So not just me being Sofi, but also Sofi being me? Iām not sure either of us would be willing for that to happen. Sure, Sofi wants my thinking brain, but not anything else. š And Iām not keen on the idea of letting her into Bibielland. I donāt see why I could ever want such a thing, itās scary. So if I were to be Sofi for a day, Iād much rather someone made Bibiel dissolve or something for the time when Iād be Sofi.Ā
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How about you? Would you want to be anyone else at all? šĀ
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