Welcome to My Inner MishMash! 😍
First of all, thanks for visiting. It’s a pure pleasure for me to see you here, whoever you are, because if you are here, it surely is for a reason and if so, it’s highly likely that we have at least one thing in common. Who doesn’t like to meet like-minded people, right? 😉 Also I appreciate that you are so inquiring and decided to get to know me a bit.
My name is Emilia, but you can also call me Bibiel or Bibielle, I like all of these, Bibiel is like my nickname. Sometimes on this blog, you will see me referring to myself this way, in third person, as in: “Bibielle thinks…” or something like that. Consider it a quirky form of expressing myself, a sick or childish thing, or something cute – it’s up to you, that’s just what feels right to me at times, especially when I feel particularly excited about something. –
I am a Polish girl in my early twenties, with a whole lot of quirks, fascinations, ideas, fears, dreams and thoughts. I am an introvert and an (overly) proud and doting cat mummy. My sweet baby is called Misha, comes from the breed of the Russian Blue which originates in Arkhangelsk, that’s why his family is called “Archangelic cats” and Misha is undoubtedly my personal guardian archangel. He’ll be 5 on 30th January, but I am in total denial of his adulthood which he seems to be OK with, most of the time. So Misha is my best friend and my everything, depending on the occasion and situation.
I am also a Christian (Roman Catholic more exactly) and my faith is an important part of my life. Some people say that me and my family are quite orthodox, because we like to attend Tridentine (Latin) Mass and have a very traditional approach to our faith, but I wouldn’t call myself orthodox because I don’t think my faith is developed well enough for me to be able to call myself that.
In terms of general worldview I like to call myself an open-minded traditionalist and identify as conservative. I am also a daughter, sister, happily single, escapist, defensive pessimist, hedonist, linguophile, Celtic harp lover, synaesthete, maniacal kefir drinker, a bit of a hermit, part-time office worker, something between melancholic and phlegmatic, people watcher, apparently a good listener who likes to listen to people, and a more than keen daydreamer.
My interests are quite diverse. I’m very much into linguistics in general, but also some languages in particular (mainly Celtic and Scandinavian. Currently I can only speak Polish, and am learning English, Swedish and Welsh, and I love all of them, but I would also like to learn all the other languages I love which are: Finnish, Sami, Dutch, Frisian, Faroese, Scots, and all the Celtic languages, at least all that are still alive (Irish, Scottish Gaelic, Manx and Cornish). I have, as you can see, a huge interest in minority languages and contributing to preserve them, even with languages I don’t love as passionately as the ones I listed above, I’m always saddened to hear about them dying or being endangered. I hope that with time I’ll be able to publish posts in other of “my” languages. I love playing with words and use them sometimes not in very obvious ways. I like to think about myself, that, at least in Polish, I have quite a characteristic and quirky writing style. IN other languages I think I’m still not that very experienced a writer, and therefore not as much expressive, but in Polish I love to for example mix colloquialisms, words from dialects or even swearwords at times with very beautiful or even a bit archaic language. Just love mixing styles. I really really love to develop in this area and always jump on any chance to do so, so hope that I’m going to develop my ENglish through blogging. Feel free to let me know if you’ll see any mistakes on here or will have any linguistic suggestions. I won’t be offended if you’ll correct me and won’t bite, I promise, quite the opposite, will be very grateful for any linguistic suggestions as I love to develop in this field! 😀 I’m always happy to chat about linguistic stuff.
Also I am into given names, their meanings, origins, popularity across the world, baby name trends, I love baby name games or helping other people name their babies and come up with ideas that they might not come up with on their own but might like. I am also into such a controversial thing as how our names can potentially shape our personalities…
My other interests include human brain, medicine, psychology, mental health and disability-related stuff, Celtic and Scandinavian folklore… well, actually everything Celtic and Nordic, as well as folklore in general, so I love myths, legends and fairytales. I am a keen rider and try to horse ride once a week but right now have been having a loooong hiatus which is not because of the pandemic.
I have quite a big collection of gem stones, both precious and semi-precious, they’re also my big big passion.
If I’m not busy with helping my sis with her school work or working or not on a family gathering or not in bed with a migraine, then most probably you can catch me reading or writing (something as lengthy as it is only possible), being online, talking to Misha in whatever language I feel is right at the moment because he seems to be able to understand all the languages of the world (or just to myself, cuz why not), listening to music (mainly folk and rock, but definitely not only, I believe my music taste is actually quite eclectic but picky at the same time if that makes sense), doing something with my languages or out in the forest horse riding.
I am blind since birth and also struggle with some other things like balance and coordination difficulties, which are not very severe but do affect my daily life, along with mental illnesses, which I’m going to write a little more about because I would like to be open about it on my blog and I often write about things in my life in the context of my mental health, because expressing my emotions is much easier for me through writing than any other way, and I want this blog to be a therapeutic outlet for me in a way. I’ve had recurrent major depressive episodes since I was 9, I was depressed already some time before, but that’s when I got diagnosed with depression for the first time, then with reactive depression when I was 17 and out of the boarding school for the blind, where I was since the age of 5 and while I learned there a lot, emotionally it definitely wasn’t a good experience for me. I was quite neurotic as a kid. I struggle with anxiety – generalised anxiety, social anxiety and some more speciffic phobias, – and three years ago have been diagnosed with AVPD (stands for avoidant personality disorder) and persistent depressive disorder which is more commonly known as dysthymia and which, for the uninitiated, is like a milder form of depression but one that clings on to your brain with a lot more determination than major depression usually does so it’s more difficult to get rid of. I’d been in therapy for years, but I quit seeing my last therapist in December three years ago and now am no longer in therapy, mostly because it didn’t really help me all that much and it’s tricky when you aren’t independent when it comes to transportation and I don’t want to be a burden on my Mum with that.
OK, that’s all about me for now.
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I wish you a really nice time in my Mishmashy world.
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