New year wishes, plus, you’ll just NEVER guess what happened today!

Hey guys! 🙂
So, first off, I’d like to wish you a very very happy new year! If you make any resolutions, I hope you can keep them for the whole year and achieve what you want, and in any cse, I hope this year will be better for you than all the previous years, and will be peaceful. I’m sorry I haven’t posted a new year post earlier but things are rather hectic, I spent all day yesterday with my extended family and it wasn’t bad but felt a bit overwhelming for my brain, so today I was sleeping lots in order to recharge. Here in Poland we have an old saying that says what the first day of new year is like for you, will show what the whole year will be like. So how’s it been so far for you?
On a bit different note, you guys will just NEVER, EVER guess what happened to me today… but maybe you fancy to try anyway? 😀 … I was just a bit sarcastic. It’s very predictable. Any ideas, anyone?…
I hope that if there’s truth in that saying, it doesn’t extend to the second day of the new year. The truth is, my dear Readers, that it is very sadly not the end of my irregular blogging, and of the troubles with my brand new computer which is supposed to last for 10 years even, but so far I don’t see any evidence of it being likely. 😀 As you perhaps remember, there were problems since the beginning – first it got damaged during the delivery and was not usable anymore, so the delivery company has covered the costs for me and I got the same but new one. Then when the new one arrived to the company that has been helping me out with this (they’re a distributor of specialised equipment for the visually impaired and while a computer is technically not a specialised device, they have also done some repairs for me in the past when there was something niche going on that “normal” technicians were too clueless about, and I’ve been buying various other things like Braille-Sense or Plextalk through them, so I asked them for help with this too) it turned out that the motherboard was faulty and the guy who was completing and setting it all up for me had to get a new one. It all took over half a year and caused me a lot of anxiety and after finally the computer arrived to me, there were plenty of issues with configuration many of which I absolutely wouldn’t be able to overcome and figure out without Olek’s help, and even Olek resolved most of them rather accidentally and after a lot of digging blindly.
Then more recently as you know, just a couple days ago, when I felt like things were finally settling down and I was slowly getting used to the new computer and new system, and all the novelty and changes in general, there was that major system issue over CHristmas which again rendered the computer unusable, about which I wrote in some earlier post. Olek took it to his friend who is apparently quite knowledgeable in those things and he managed to restore the system to some mrevious point, like before it crashed, and all was well. Until today. Because today it crashed in just the same way. At first, various programmes were going crazy, there were some strange errors popping up in both browsers I use and in my email client – well maybe not particularly strange, they just stopped working and needed to be restarted or had very random problems with opening websites but the amounts of those errors were rather suspicious and reminded me of what was happening right before my system crashed on Christmas. My screen-reader went crazy too, as every once in a while it kept crashing with no apparent reason, and then restarting, or just completely stopped working at random times, even when it wasn’t practically working, when it was just running but I wasn’t using it, so I had to reset it. Or icons on the taskbar were randomly disappearing etc. Finally, after an hour or so of all that random crashing of different things, which made doing anything on the computer a bit of a pain, it started to feel alarmingly similar to the situation from just before that last system error that happened over Christmas. I remembered that then, the last thing I did before it stopped working completely was opening a website in Google Chrome. I just experimentally opened Chrome and – here we go – everything froze in a very spectacular way, and after a couple seconds the damn thing switched off and then was trying to restart endlessly but failing at it. It felt so ironic that my first reaction was that I started laughing, and so did Olek when I announced the news of the day to him, but it’s not funny if you want to know my opinion. It’s freaking exhausting. I did not expect Olek to fix it and he didn’t, I think I’m going to send the thing to that company who got it for me, maybe they will do something, we don’t even have an idea what’s the root problem, what’s happening there. I suppose I could give it to any technician because it’s not something to do directly with screen-readers or any typically blind related things (I guess, but I’m clueless), and this way would be faster as that company is on the other end of the country, but I guess since they got it for me, they may know better what’s up, and I want to have it fixed once and for good, I don’t even care now about how much time it’ll take, I just want to have a clear situation. We could probably do the same thing again – restore the system to a previous point – but that is only a temporary resolution and not something I’d be keen on doing every week at all. The last time it happened, my Mum sent the guy from that specialised equipment company a screenshot of what’s showing up when you start up the computer and I described to him what was happening before, and he said it could be some programme not installed correctly causing system issues, but I have no idea what it could be, and especially not this time as I wasn’t installing anything since that last crash as all the apps were already set up, unless such weird things can start happening a week or more after the installation which would be rather odd.
So now that you know what’s up you can also figure out that I’m writing from my Braille-Sense, which doesn’t allow you to do much but at least is more reliable, and that it also means my blogging will still be very irregular if any, for an indefinite time. It’s just after 7 PM but my sleep/wake rhythm is in some hypersomniac phase lately, which is cool in a way especially at times like these, and I’m feeling quite knackered by all that chaos so I think the best thing I can do now is have a shower and go to sleep. Sleep is the best.

Jinxed it! Another blogging/Internet hiatus.

Hi people! 🙂
I’m really sorry to say that, but things are shitty again. Writing this from the Braille-Sense. I guess I was too quick in saying that my hiatus is over, it seems like it may take a while yet.
I really don’t know for sure what exactly happened or why but I must be some genius in destroying hard drives in no time I guess, maybe I could make some money with this unique ability, I suppose it’s the drive not working, well, Olek does, I have no freaking idea. Won’t be getting into details since that doesn’t matter here anyway and I’m fed up with tech stuff but my computer was perfectly fine in the morning, to completely stop working in like two hours time. Things started crashing big time and finally it just switched off and there’s no way you can get it going again for longer than 30 seconds. Olek was trying to help but couldn’t figure it out and I suppose it requires someone more knowledgeable. I’ve been really stressed out by all that computer chaos going on for over half a year and now I feel massively frustrated and like there is some major emotional overload pending, it’s extremely mentally exhausting.

I’m back! Merry Christmas! 😄

Hiya people, and pets, and everyone in between! 🙂

Just a short note to let you know that my new computer has arrived on Friday and since then I was very busy setting it up (with tremendous help from Olek without which I’d be completely lost), and I’m still very slowly catching up on everything and even slower getting used to all the novelty and change, which is not always only positive, although it’s definitely much better to have a new computer than not to have any. It’s been causing me a lot of distress and anxiety, resulting in excessive nail biting thanks to which I’ve apparently got something called paronychia – an annoingly sore, swollen and throbbing finger – but it’s slowly and gradually getting better, I mean the anxiety. It will probably take some time before I’ll write some more concrete posts.

But most of all, me and Misha would like to wish all of you a very happy happy Christmas. I hope it will be a very wonderful and joyful time for you during which you can do lots of cool things, spend quality time with your family, or perhaps recharge and have time just for yourselves. I hope Christmas will fill your hearts with joy and hope and make you feel that your life is meaningful. 🙂 Misha says he wishes you lots of delicious food and relaxation time and hopes it will be the cosiest Christmas ever for you. 🙂

I also want to thank all those of you who read my blog and who were emailing me when I was away from the blogosphere, I appreciate it so very much and it’s been a huge help for me to get through that, you’re all really great friends! 🙂 If I didn’t get back to someone it’s either because my Braille-Sense was freezing or didn’t display it.

A li’l announcement.

Hi people!
You haven’t seen any posts from me in a few days, and I just wanted to let you know that it might be the case for a couple more (or possibly weeks) and the reason for it.
My laptop has finally stopped cooperating with me completely, doesn’t even want to talk to me now, for whatever reason. As you may remember, I’m still waiting for my new computer to arrive, since August, and for now have no idea when that will happen, but there’s no point in fixing my laptop because of that. I do have my new-old Braille-Sense that I’m writing this post from, but what I can do on it online is severely limited and much slower, both because of the way it simply is, and because the browser on it is outdated so not all websites work or are fully functional, and it requires quite a bit of time and determination from me, because a lot of things that you can pretty easily do on the computer are much more roundabout on the Braille-Sense, or I have to do manually a lot of stuff that you normally don’t need to. That’s why you probably won’t hear much from me, I may post something once in a while especially if it all takes longer but only via email and without links and such, I can read most blogs as it seems and I do, but can’t comment, so I’ll be much less active in the blogosphere. It’s Friday so Misha’s day on my blog, and I’ve been wondering if I’ll let him write something, but since his posts are usually long, I think he’ll have a hiatus for now ’cause Braille-Senses like to freeze when you’re typing a lot and we don’t want to lose his scribbles mid-sentence and start over possibly a few times. 😀 I just hope this forced hiatus won’t be as long as last year in September when it took over a month, and that it won’t make my brain feel as understimulated as it was last year, keep your fingers crossed guys. 😀

Question of the day.

Do you have a favourite zodiac sign?

My answer:

I’m not sure, I guess not really, but I do tend to get along with Pisces very well as well as Cancers, and I know very many cool Tauruses. I don’t associate with people based on their sign but it is strange how many people in my surroundings and my friends that I get on well with are Pisces haha.

Do you have a favourite? 🙂

Question of the day (27th November).

Hi people. 🙂

Let’s stay with the astrology related questions for a while.

Have you ever done your natal chart? If so, what is your sun sign, moon sign and ascendant?

My answer:

Yes, I did years ago although I don’t remember much from that. I’ve always thought I’m not a very typical Aquarius in many respects, but there were things I could relate to in it. If I remember correctly my moon sign is Scorpio, and my ascendant is Libra. What do I relate to in that? Let’s see, I’ll do it quickly again for the purpose of this post.

Aquarian people are said to think outside the box and don’t like to follow the crowd which I think can be definitely said about me. I also think it’s true that I’m curious and observant, as well as intellectual and can be aloof. And I am also quirky and different which is most certainly true. But all the other things they tend to often say about Aquarians, like that they for example like change and like to reform their surroundings, is not really true of me either at all or barely.

Aquarians with Libra as the rising sign are bright and like to live in their mind, are unusual and can be impractical or easily distracted. That’s all mostly true I think, apart from being easily bored that they also say. I hate boredom but am not easily bored if I am able to do what I want.

And as for my moon sign, now that’s eerily in line with me in some respects. Lunar Scorpio eople are said to be emotionally intense and driven by their emotions but often are quite obsessed with controlling and mastering their emotions which, hmmmmm… is really true. I guess it’s even more true what they say that a person with Scorpio in the moon can dig deep into someone’s personality, I definitely love to observe and analyse people and often do it very automatically, and thus my grandad likes to call me X-ray. 😀 I guess it sounds creepy but I do love figuring out people. It’s strange what they say that lunar Scorpios test people whom they love or feel attached to and can be suspicious, and that that testing is not always conscious, I’ve written a couple times that I do that. They also say when a lunar Scorpio commits to a relationship, they’re very loyal and protective I do suppose I’m very protective of people I love and especially of the felines I love. People with Scorpio in the moon have lots of dramatic emotional ups and downs throughout their lives, I’m not sure what’s dramatic and what’s not but I guess I could say that about myself at least to some degree, but then I also suppose so could everyone. Lunar Scorpios are also very intuitive. I’m not sure if my intuition really works that well but I do have gut feelings a lot of the time and I tend to follow them which usually turns out good for me, but it’s not without consulting it with my brain. Lunar Scorpios are also apparently very strong so that people often feel like leaning on them which I do not agree with. Some people are scared away by people like me, huh that’s good to know and sounds rather contradictory with the previous statement but actually different people react to you differently. 😀 Lunar Scorpios are said not to be fearful but rather brave and courageous which I absolutely don’t feel like it describes me since, having loads of anxieties, I’m quite naturally fearful and have always been.

So, yeah, a lot of it is true, but a fair bit is not, especially about my sun sign.

So, how about you? Have you ever done that and did it make any sense to you? Have you made any use of it in your life? 🙂

Question of the day.

Hi guys! 🙂

How do you feel about astrology in general?

My answer:

I used to be very skeptical about it and didn’t believe in it at all, I thought it was evil. Then, as a teenager, I started to take a great interest in all things esoteric and related, and astrology was especially interesting to me. I was really immersed in it and thought about it as really fascinating but the way I see it now was that it was more one of the ways in which I was rebelling, mostly against my boarding school which was Catholic, and I wanted to have nothing to do with it, I didn’t want it to have any influence on me. My family is also Christian and practicing, but at that time I desperately wanted to think I was an atheist, just to be different, it was all very complex I think. Interestingly, around the same time my Mum started to be slightly interested in astrology as well. She never was before and thought it was bullshit. But she got some books, I believe they were called Astrologus, it was a series of twelve small books about each sign in-depth. And she started to think it makes some sense, some parts of it at least. – After some years of my fascination with esoteric stuff, lucid dreaming, Doses aka sound drugs, and after I left that school I re-converted to Christianity in a way, and started my life all over again. I’m no longer as very passionate about astrology but I do find it interesting. I think it’s really silly to make stuff like a horoscope for all people of one star sign and expect it to work for them. I suppose there can be astrologists who do horoscopes in a more intelligent way, for an individual, taking into consideration their whole birth chart and other things, but I’m not sure that can really work as well. But I suppose it can make sense that people – their behaviours, impulses, health – as well as nature overall, can be influenced by moon phases. My Dad has a gardening lunar calendar and has made some experiments with his plants to see if the Moon could really have any influence and from them it appears it could. People have trouble sleeping when the moon is full and women used to get period according to moon phases when the world was less industrialised, or that’s at least what I’ve read. There is also an online lunar calendar that I sometimes look at and I’ve started to see some pattern between the way my anxiety changes and the changes in moon phases, but I’m not sure it really has much influence, it’s more like a theory, not something I strongly believe in.

I’ve also read in a couple books about that, even if your star sign doesn’t affect your personality, the quarter of year in which you were born could, to a minor extent, and that it could affect your health, like, children born in summer are susceptible to other things than those born in winter. As for star signs having an impact on people’s personalities, I think it could also be true to an extent but not as huge as many astrologists or astrology afficionados claim. If you do your natal chart, you can see surprisingly often a whole lot of similarities between your personality and the signs in your chart. I’m not sure it’s really as infallible as people claim because I know loads of people who really badly stick out from what they should be like according to their star sign, and I don’t feel like a real Aquarius either, and sometimes not even a natal chart can explain it. But I think a lot of the time, with describing people’s personalities, perhaps some predispositions, it’s right. It won’t predict your fate in my opinion, well perhaps if you believe in it strongly and will just make it happen, or if you go to a really good astrologist who also knows a fair bit about psychology and human nature, and I wouldn’t put too much significance to it, defiinitely not as much as I used to, you need to keep thinking critically when playing astrology. I suppose it could be a good complementary tool for people who are on some sort of a self-discovery journey, wanting to figure out themselves, their relationships or families, but I wouldn’t base solely on astrology. While fortune telling or putting all your trust in such things as stars feels wrong to me as a Christian, I no longer consider astrology evil as I used to, not if you approach it with the right mindset. After all, some monks used to also be astrologists in the past, and back then there was nothing wrong with it I guess, and if so, why should it now? If you use astrology for example as I said to study lunar influences, I don’t see anything wrong with it. I don’t play around much with astrology these days just because I don’t find it as very interesting as I used to, and I don’t need it nor don’t feel like it, but I have no problem with using it in the right place. It’s certainly more logical than numerology which doesn’t make any sense whatsoever to me now and which I used to sit very deeply in as a teen as well. I guess it was rather that I wanted to believe in it and that it could tell me something, rather than I seriously did believe it works.

So, what’s your view on astrology? 🙂

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