Question of the day (21st September).

What frivolous thing do you really want, but couldn’t possibly have? My answer:
I understand frivolous as something you want, but don’t need at all, just a whim.
In my case, that would be a harp. I mean my own harp. Preferably a Celtic harp, though there are still lots of kinds of Celtic harps, but I don’t know which one I like the most. And if you don’t know me well enough, no, I don’t play harp. And even if I wouldn’t ever learn to play it, I would take great pleasure in just having it. I consider people who are privileged to have (not rent) their own harp very lucky in life. What would it be for you? πŸ™‚


Question of the day (20th September).

When was the last time you begun a new chapter?
My answer:
In a more literal way, today – I’ve been rereading “Jane Eyre” and have read at least two chapters today. – πŸ˜€ But what I’m asking you and myself is more about life in general, though feel free to answer this question how you’d like.
The last time I begun a new chapter… I think a proper, major, separate, key chapter in its own right, was when I’ve got Misha. It has changed so much in my life, and now I can’t even imagine easily not having him in my life. Then there was also starting my new, current blog, but since I’d done it multiple times in the past, it didn’t have that feel of a brand mew beginning. You? πŸ™‚
PS: Let me know if anything looks different/weird/worse about this post, I don’t think it should but just in case and out of curiosity. I’m writing this via email on my brand new Braille-Sense that arrived yesterday. I’ve also got a new PlexTalk, and yes, the computer, but turns out my scary adjustment process (and a lot of the stress) can be postponed for some more. Something in it got broken on the delivery so I need to send it back to the company who helped me get it so that they can fix it. Nothing major, so I don’t think it’ll be a problem, but bad enough that you can’t even turn the computer on.

Question of the day (17th September).

What was the last time you were in a bad mood?

My answer:

I’ve had a mostly good day today, but I’m in a bad mood right now. I’m angry and disappointed, and just don’t know what to do. You know that I’m going to get a new computer soon, and some other new equipment? It’s a matter of days now, and that makes me pretty anxious. The guy who had been helping me with all that tech stuff kindly offered to set up some of the programmes I use on a daily basis before they send it out to me. So, he set up my mail on there, and Dropbox and a couple other important things. My Mum also sent him registration keys and installers to some of my speech synths that could be installed in such a way, that she bought for me ages ago and that I’m using a lot. And today, when my Mum got back with Zofijka from her tennis in the evening, she just casually mentioned: “Oh, there are some mails from that computer guy, I didn’t read it all but he couldn’t install something, those synths I guess, I’ll read them to you later”. And she just did, and the news sound very bad to me. He was able to only install three out of the 7 voices. He said the Welsh language voice is no longer accessible for some reason. It makes some sense, because the company who produced all those synthesisers, called Ivona, doesn’t exist any longer. Amazon had bought them some years ago and then destroyed them I guess. This is a big deal to me that the Welsh language voice is no longer accessible. I need that synth to help me out with my Welsh learning, and, as you can imagine, there’s no alternative with such a small language. I just freaked out. The rest of the synths seemed to have not working keys for some reason, and one of them – my most beloved and treasured Jacek – has some more sophisticated error in the installer. As I said, the company is no longer there so I can’t even get another one, unless illegally I guess, which I don’t want to do as then it’d probably have some glitches. But what will I do without Jacek? My small glimmer of hope is that Mum has multiple emails from Ivona for some reason and maybe there are the right keys/installers for the rest of the voices in some of the emails that we didn’t send him, but I don’t think that coould be the case sadly. Other than that, I’ve had just a bit of a collection of synths, because it’s something that interests me, and it’s sad that most likely some of the best ones in my collection will be gone. I can’t get over it, it’s stupid, but I really liked Jacek so much. And there was Astrid, my Swedish synth. I could get another Swedish one from another company, but why should I pay for another one, if I already have Astrid. And I do need a Swedish voice very badly. And, linguistically, she was the best from all the Swedish language synths I know. There is a shop still selling Ivona speech synths in some a little different version, but they seem to be pricier there, and I had a chance to use them for some time and for some reason their quality isn’t as good in versions from that shop, and they like to crash a lot, which is hardly acceptable for me. Or maybe I just had such a bad luck with them. In any case, I’ve already had to pay a lot for the computer, and I’m not feeling enthusiastic about re-buying 5 voices I theoretically already have. I just don’t know what to do, I don’t want to believe it’s happening. My precious, precious Jacek! 😭

How about you? πŸ™‚

Question of the day (16th September).

What was the last book you read?

My answer:

The last that I finished? It was “Innocent”, the new book by Cathy Glass. I enjoyed it as I always do with her books but it also let me down a bit. If you are planning to read this book, I suggest you skip this paragraph, spoiler ahead.Cathy Glass is a foster carer who writes memoirs about the children she takes care of. In this particular book, she writes about two siblings – Molly and Kit – whose mother was very anxious about their health, and who both had a lot of mysterious ailments and non-accidental injuries and were visiting the hospital ultra frequently. No one knew what was up with them but there was a suspicion that they were abused and that’s why they were separated from their parents. Cathy wanted to make sure that the cause of children’s illnesses could be defined. I won’t be telling you the whole book but basically, while Cathy, and the kids’ social worker, and everyone involved were scratching their heads over what could be the issue here, I knew for sure at about the third chapter that the problem was that the mummy had Munschhausen syndrome by proxy/FDIA, and I’m not a professional. It really wasn’t hard to figure out so I wondered whether Cathy just wanted it to look like such a lengthy process so she could write a full length book or it really took them that long. Granted that I was just reading the book, not involved in the case, so perhaps how it actually looked like was different and less obvious than described in the book. It was more difficult for them because the children’s mother was giving them food to take to Cathy’s when she saw them at contact, it was already poisoned so they were often sick at Cathy’s as well. I was also surprised that even when they knew full well that the mother has FDIA, the judge decided that the children should live with their parents. As if a few weeks stay in the hospital could really fix such a serious disorder. I don’t know, maybe it can, but it felt really, really doubtful to me. I guess it’s not a rare situation when judges deciding on families make such rather questionable choices. What surprised me was that the parents of the kids – Filip and Aneta – had actually Polish names – or if not Polish then Czech, because both ANeta and Filip are Polish and Czech names. It wouldn’t be anything weird in the UK where a lot of Poles live, but it wasn’t mentioned anywhere in the book that they were Polish or Czech and their kids had English names. I understand that Cathy had to change their names from what they originallly were, but still, that was interesting. Though, as a linguophile and a name nerd, I felt slightly annoyed that the narrator read Aneta’s name like Anita with an “ee” all the time, while it is ah-NE-tah in both languages, and Anita is a different name. πŸ˜€ But of course that’s just a detail.

And the last book I’ read but never finished was “Camilla” by Fanny Burney. I was excited to read it, I thought I will love it, I like this type of English classics, and I liked that it was an influence for Jane Austen, but, uh, I just couldn’t get through it. I’m not someone who is very thirsty for quick-paced action in books, it may be slow as long as it’s interesting and well written, but that book was just too much for me. I really tried to read it, I read it for a very long time, tried to get into it, but just couldn’t. It just felt overly lengthy and boring. And the consciousness that the whole book is about 1000 pages long made me feel like yawning, so I just left it. Maybe another time. I managed to like the character of Eugenia though. I wonder if I should read “Evelina” by Burney which I also thought could be interesting. Now I’m not so sure.

And I’m still reading “Forever Twelve” by Meg Kimball, which are the first four books in her “Advice Avengers” series. Meg is my fantastic blog friend who blogs at (I’m sorry this link looks like this but I’m writing via email) and I was also really excited to read her series. I’m reading the third book which is called “Andi Has The Answers”, and I’m enjoying it a lot. I like how positive and unrealistic these books are, I mean, the two main characters are 12-year-old girls. I have a 12-year-old girl called Zofijka at home and the Advice Avengers and their friends differ so vastly from Zofijka and her friends whom I know. Corey and Andi are so nicely childish but at the same time, especially Corey, is very mature and wise for her age in my opinion. And the whole series just feels so nice that I’d like to jump into that world right away. πŸ˜€ In this respect, Meg’s writing reminds me of my favourite Polish writer called MaΕ‚gorzata Musierowicz, who has written a series called JeΕΌycjada, I will always regret that it’s not translated into English, it’s a big loss for non Polish speakers in my view. Ms. Musierowicz’s writing style and the setting of her books hugely differs from Meg’s, but the slightly utopian, warm atmosphere is very much the same.

Oh well, when I created this blog I told myself I won’t be doing reviews, did I just write one big review of 3 books, or doesn’t it count as a review yet? πŸ˜€ Well anyway, I’ve been making a lot of interesting literary discoveries lately so I guess that’s justified, even if it is a review of sorts. And, people, I’ve read all those books in English. It no longer feels like a deal at all for me.

How about you? πŸ™‚

Question of the day (15th September).

When was the last time you did something you didn’t want to do?

My answer:

As far as I remember, it was when I had to go out last week with my Mum in search for a bra that would work for me for horse riding. Oh, okay, I haven’t told you I’ve restarted my horse riding last week! It was really great, and thank God for my anti-anxiety med, I figured out that, at least until I won’t settle with it a bit, I think it will be a good idea if I’ll help myself with it, because the anxiety I feel before that can be sometimes overpowering, and really badly affect my riding, not to mention my satisfaction of it. I thought I would need to remind myself a lot of things but once I was on horseback, everything felt very natural and automatic despite I hadn’t ridden for almost a whole year. But I needed a good bra, which, because of my not very typical figure –
as I am skinny and have relatively big breasts – I didn’t have anything that would be suitable for trotting or such. On the same day I also had to finally go to the hairdresser’s. I was glad to be done with all that, but I hate clothes shopping, and I hate when people are playing around with my hair for ages, so that cost me a lot of determination and patience. And it was such a gloomy day weatherwise. But yeah, I’m glad it’s all done and I don’t have to worry about the bra thing anymore.

How about you? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

Okay, we’ve had quite a lot of more or less family focused questions. For now, let’s focus on our hair.

If you had to choose a hair colour other than your natural colour, what would it be?

My answer:

Definitely black. Dyed black hair don’t look as good as natural but oh well… Or if not raven black, then very dark brown. Otherwise, red. Yes, yes, I hate red, but as a hair colour it’s quite cool, the kind of orange red at least. In fact, I used to dye my hair all these colours, but I no longer do as it’s quite a hassle and I lack the patience for such things, plus I can’t do that independently, and with black/dark brown, it’s hard to find a dye that doesn’t have a shade of red, and then I dislike it, and it doesn’t look good on me either.

You. πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

Hi guys. πŸ™‚

My question for you today is:

What are your family traditions, if any?

My answer:

I don’t know if we have any very unusual traditions that would be specific for us, if so, I can’t think of them right now. We are Polish, so naturally we have a lot of typically Polish traditions, as well as Catholic so Christian traditions are also present. We are a rather traditional family but I don’t think we have many traditions just of our own. The only thing I can think of is giving a child their parent’s first name as a middle, but, first, that’s more of a regional tradition of Kashubia, and second, not everyone in my extended family follows that, so I don’t really think it counts.

Yours? πŸ™‚