Post share – Blocking the Block – Cyranny.

So, have you guys already heard about this new WordPress block editor thingy? How do you feel aboutit?

If you feel similarly to me and much prefer the classic one, go over to

This post by Cyranny

and speak up about it, share the post with your readers so that we can have control over our blogs.

They say that we’ll be able to switch between the old and new editors, and if so, it’s great, but the message from their post on this seems to be a little contradictory imo, and I wonder for how long we will actually be given the choice.

As I already commented on the Cyranny’s post, I’ve just tried the new editor out to see what I should brace myself for and if it’ll be as bad for me as for many others, and found it really unfriendly and not really particularly cooperative. It took me about half an hour just to get out back to the classic editor, and it seems like the fact that I did it was only a sheer accident, haha.

I know that there were huge issues in the past with this block editor’s accessibility for screenreaders, and I have to say that, while it isn’t particularly user-friendly and intuitive, the accessibility with my screenreader (NVDA) isn’t bad, as much as I could tell from just testing and not writing an actual post and not being a huge tech savvy, which was a positive surprise, however I’ve heard that apparently there are some significant problems accessing it with another popular screenreader (Jaws). I can’t see for myself if that is the case and to what extend it is unusable as I don’t have Jaws (and even if I could, I’m not keen on the idea of voluntarily interacting with that thing again 😀 ) but if it really is, something seriously must change here.

 

Question of the day.

When did you join WordPress and when did you start blogging? How did it feel like at the beginning? How much has changed since then?

My answer:

I started blogging when I was 13 I guess, in a programme developed for the blind. It served as a way to get blind people together, or something like that, it was fully accessible of course, people could message each other, there were forums, groups, people could have their sound avatars, it could play a variety of multimedia, stream Internet radio, YouTube videos, had a very simple browser, some audiogames etc. etc. and also blogs. It was very easy to make a blog there, you didn’t have to do much except agree that you want to start a blog and write. No making up a URL, choosing a theme, playing around with widgets, SEO or plugins. It was both good and bad. Good because of course it was easy and fun, very quick and absolutely everyone could blog and pretty much everyone did blog, more or less consistently. You didn’t have to worry about how your blog looks or that something doesn’t work with a screenreader or whatever. Bad, because despite it was built somehow based on WordPress, there was a very slim chance that someone outside of the community, who didn’t have an account there, would find your blog, unless you’d give them the URL address. And you weren’t able to make it more personalised, like adjust things and make them more your own, which would annoy me right now but I didn’t care about that back thenn at all. I started blogging out of curiosity, it felt very interesting and cool to me, and people were telling me I’m good at writing so I thought I could do that well and enjoy it. I did. I wrote mainly about my daily life I guess, and some other silly stuff like logging my dreams, I don’t remember really… I had 3 different blogs there over the years, one after another. The programme was soon left by its developers and it was hanging in the Internet for some more years before they killed it completely, but slowly different features were dying, for example YouTube was gone when YouTube got an update, stuff like Google search and Wikipedia browser followed and so – very slowly – did the blogs since they were based on WordPress so people were migrating to different platforms, seeing that things are getting less and less stable, before their old blogs would disappear completely, or they just stopped blogging altogether.

And that was more or less when I started blogging on WordPress, no idea which year it was but I guess I could be about 17. I’m not sure. I had little to no technical idea how one sets up a blog properly, I don’t think I have it now but the second time round I guess I either had more luck, more help or more determination to do it right. That first time was a disaster and the blog wasn’t even very accessible for myself, let alone for my blind readers, and my readers were mostly blind, mostly people from that old community, because my blog wouldn’t even show up in Google, unless you’d search for its actual name, which wasn’t very generic at all so not many random people would think about that. 😀 It was called Drimolandia, so kind of like Dreamland (it doesn’t mean Dreamland in Polish but I’d say you could call it a polonisation of the English word Dreamland, drim is how you would phonetically spell dream in Polish, and -landia is like English suffix -land, in countries). So, my traffic was just absolutely, extremely, unbelievably low, how low I can fully comprehend only now that I have a (much) better performing blog, seriously, in the whole career of that blog my record daily amount of views was 35! 😀 I think I could also blame Polish WordPress, there is a lot of Polish blogs set up on pl.wordpress.com but, at least from my observations, people don’t get many comments usually, and forget about the kind of community that is in the English blogosphere, with stuff like writing prompts or blog awards (okay I’ve seen a blog award post once). I copy-pasted all my posts from the previous blog I had onto Drimolandia, hoping to expand that further and write new posts over time, but because working with WordPress editor was a really painful, slow process – I don’t know if WordPress was so inaccessible then or if I had such a rubbish theme or what – that I had less and less motivation and finally abandoned it altogether and just left it hanging in the Internet by itself.

Then I joined another blind app which is still alive and being developed, based on that first one in terms of the general idea, created by one of the former users of that old app who is also a programmer. It had blogs too and I was blogging there for virtually a couple months. That was about the time when I started having my wild ideas about having an English blog, and not necessarily, preferably not, in the blind community. I really enjoyed being there and I liked a lot of people, I know many of them in real life from school or other places. And that was fun in a way, and in a way it wasn’t. I’d been thinking for a long time that I actually don’t like the fact that a lot of people there knew me in real life, or knew someone who knew me, that they had their own idea about me and had every right to it of course, and I felt like that was holding me back from making all those blogs what I really wanted them to be and I felt that I had to hold myself back and wasn’t really writing for myself and was censoring myself all the time or I felt very exposed otherwise. Maybe freaky for some, but that’s how I felt about it. Also, I was interested in things, or involved in things, that I wanted to write about, but even when I did, I didn’t really feel it was interesting for my readers and that they got it, because they didn’t feel it. I felt weird, I mean, I know I’m weird and I like being weird and if someone tells me I’m weird I take it as a compliment, but it wasn’t that kind of weird. I wanted to have a wider group of readers and for it to be more likely that someone who can really relate and/or will be interested can read it, whether they will let me know about that and comment or not, so that I could seriously feel that my opening up is useful and pays off somehow. Otherwise I could write in my diary, which I’ve had for years and write freely in it about everything that comes to my brain. Then also all the mental health stuff started to come up to the surface for me and I couldn’t ignore it any longer, some time later I started diving deeper into the English Internet, writing with people, learning more about myself and people in general, finally it felt necessary for me to have an outlet, for all that was going on in my brain, especially the mental health struggles as I had little support then, and that community wasn’t an option for me to write about such private things , and I also felt for other reasons that I needed to leave it.

And that’s how My Inner MishMash started out, in 2018! I’m so glad that I actually did it, and made this idea come true, it was beneficial to me in so many ways. I wonder now if I have written a post on that, if not, one would definitely be necessary at some point. My Inner MishMash was born on January 24th, but more officially on January 26th, as I was setting it up for 2 days, I was so scared not to screw it up! 😀 I don’t think it has changed very significantly over those two years (though maybe it’s different from a reader’s perspective?), other than when I sometimes look back at my older posts I can see that my English has improved a bit more and I have developed a bit more of an individual writing style, though it’s still very far from my very characteristic Polish writing style and sometimes I feel like that sucks, but I guess such things take time. On the other hand, as I’ve said many times, I feel much more emotionally expressive in English so everything has its good and bad aspects.

How about your blogging? 🙂

The Birthday Weekend Share #70

It’s weekend share at Trina’s, and a very special one. Her birthday is tomorrow! If you feel like mingling a bit, pop over to her and don’t forget about a present. 😉

Its good to be crazy Sometimes

It has pleased me that this weekend share has landed on the 70th anniversary. For those of you who have forgotten its my 21st birthday (again, I have forgotten how many times I have celebrated 21 now) on Saturday. There is still time to send all your cards and presents 😉 I have very little planned, but thats the way I like my birthdays.

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If you have never done this before, give it a go, you lose maybe 30 seconds of your life adding a link and you never know who might see it, I will, my mum probably will, so its well worth it.

As everything is life there are rules, if you are new or just need reminding here they are

Rules are very simple,

  1. You can share up to five links
  2. They can be a post, your blog, someone elses post or blog
  3. You can comment on…

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Friendly Fill-ins.

Here are this week’s Friendly Fill-ins, hosted by 15 And Meowing and Four-Legged Furballs.

 

 

  1.   Black Friday _________________________________ is a bit weird holiday in my opinion, but I don’t really care about it much and it amazes me a little that some people seem to be so excited about it, I was never particularly into shopping though. I think the weird thing about it is that it actually seems to last a week, if not more. 😀 But if people like it so much, why not?
  2. A pet peeve of mine at this time of year is ___________________________ Christmas music being already played so very often on the radio. People, it’s not even December yet! 😀 I mean, if they like it so much, OK, their business, I do have my own Christmas favourites that I sometimes can’t resist to not listen on other times of the year too, even if it’s the middle of the summer, that can be fun, but hearing about Christmas everywhere when it’s still a little less than a month until it arrives makes me feel a little sick, even though I do like Christmas, I just think too much can be very unhealthy.
  3. ‘Tis the season for _________ writing a lot for me. I’m writing a lot in my book about “Jack Hamilton” lately, after neglecting him for some time.

I never jumped on the fantasy books _________ bandwagon. They seem to be so popular lately. I like some stuff like for example our Polish “The Witcher”, or other stuff that has a bit of a fairy tale feel, as well as proper legends and fairytales and stuff, but I’ve never liked stuff like “Harry Potter”, or books that are very focused on paranormal/supernatural stuff, all the books about vampires, werewolves, alternative worlds, superpowers, it never, or very rarely spoke to me very much, I guess only when the topic iss somewhat close to me I can enjoy such book a bit. I did read some of them out of curiosity, but yeah, not my cup of tea definitely.

Back to the big world. :D

Hi people! 🙂

So now as my blog is public again, I’d like to say it once again to those who didn’t read my blog while it was private. Although I am now public, I decided that I am going to protect some more personal posts with a password.

If you’d like to access them, feel free to Contact me. and then I will decide whether I will give it to you or not. That’s it for now. 🙂

A little heads up.

I’d just like to tell you I’m most probably going to make my blog public again soon. I will protect some more personal posts with a password though. It’s going to be the same for all posts, and if you’d like me to send it to you, just let me know in the comments of this or any other post on here and give me your email address, or email me at jackie . ysbiwr @ gmail . com. I might send it to some of you whose emails I already have later on, but if you won’t get it from me, feel free to contact me. I am also hoping to finally make a contact form on my blog so you can reach me via it too.

Probably going private soon.

Hey guys. 🙂

Wanted to quickly notify you about one thing.

I am most probably going to make this blog private. It is just what I feel I need to do, to have some more control, over who is able to see my scribbles. I’ll do this tomorrow, and when I’ll figure it out, I’ll be sending invitations to you my readers so that you can access my blog, although you can also request an invite when the site is already private, or email me at jackie . ysbiwr @ gmail . com (without spaces of course 😀 ), or in the comments, if you want to be included. I’m going to give the access only to those whom I already know either because they’ve been commenting or from their own blogs, and only those whom I feel I can trust.

Hope you’ll understand and stick with me. 🙂

Share Your World.

Cee’s Share Your World.

 

Which tastes better: black or green olives?
I love olives in general, olives are one of my favourite foods. It doesn’t matter whether black or green.

What’s your favorite room in your home?
My own.

What fictional family would you be a member of?
There’s such a Polish series I’ve talked about probably more than I can count on this blog, it’s called “Jeżycjada”, and it’s written by Małgorzata Musierowicz. It is generally perceived as a series for teens, or for girls, or women, but my personal opinion is that it is suitable just for everyone, unless you really crave for a very fast and changeable plot in a book. It’s full of warmth and humour, yummy food, very fascinating characters that at the same time are also just nice to be around. All that with the witty style and erudition of Musierowicz’s on top which make these books way too good to just classify them as your typical books for teens, in fact I don’t thik many of the typical Polish teens would actually read themwith pleasure because of a bit difficult vocabulary at times, for example my Zofijka says they’re boring because she doesn’t understand a lot of words, which in my opinion is weird, but that’s how many teens seem to be nowadays, though Zofijka is maybe just a bit too young because she’s actually 11. And what’s very characteristic to this series is that there is a lot of focus on family life. In the central place we have the Borejko family, living in Poznań, and then all their friends and further relatives, so quite a lot of families we can come across. Each book in the series is particularly dedicated to one of the characters (preferably a teenage girl or a young woman, though not always), so we can have a deeper insight into a particular heroine’s family. That being said, I have lots of interesting, loving and cool families to choose from in my favourite series. But I’ll go with the Borejko family, I’d love to be the fifth of the Borejko daughters (there are four), or I could replace Natalia, with whom I strongly identify. This is such a great family and I already feel like a part of it. And OMG I’d love for Mila Borejko to be my Mum, or even just anyone whom I’d know in real life, she has very many traits that I have, so I can understand her and identify with her, but she also has a lot of ones that I don’t have and which I always admire in people and respect them for.And boy wouldn’t it be cool to  have four sisters? Or even just three, if I’d be Natalia? 😀 One of my other favourite families is the Żak family, they’re so funny and witty and always make me laugh when I read the book that is particularly about them, but I am not sure whether I’d actually fit in there, I feel like the Borejko family are a bit more of my kind of people.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Misha, a lot of progress in my languages, particularly Welsh, but also English, writing, blogging. Starting therapy with the new therapist, whatever will come out of it, our first session was pretty good. Getting rid of the anxiety after the nightmares I had a few weeks ago and the anxiety afterwards was hard to overcome fully, it would come back happily in the evenings and at night and I hated it, and now it seems to be gone, I hope I’m not jinxing it.

 

Share Your World.

Share Your World At Cee’s.

 

Again, this week, after a bit of a break, I’m participating in Share Your World.

 

A class you wish you would have taken?

I wish I could take classes from all my languages. I don’t mean at college or anything, just some sort of good courses, that could be relevant to me and accessible to me as a blind person, whether online or somewhere in my area, I don’t care if individual or in a group. I am mentioning this because as much as it isn’t particularly difficult to find an accesible course online in such languages like English, Swedish, Dutch, or even Finnish if you’ll try a bit more, with the rest of my favourites you have to really try hard, be patient and inquiring, and very determined, to actually find something. I find it an absolute miracle that I’ve found that Welsh course I’m doing right now, that it is so accessible, simple and effective and with such a supportive community, and moreover, that the same people also created courses in Cornish, Manx and Dutch, so that I don’t have to look for another place, also I’ve had great friends from Wales outside from that community who helped me a lot particularly at the very beginnings. But if you think of another favourite languages of mine, like Faroese, Sami, or Frisian, or Scottish Gaelic, or Scots or Shetlandic, or Irish… uhhhh things get tougher. The consolation may be that many of the languages I love are more or less related, so maybe it won’t all be that scary, I wouldn’t like to give up just because something isn’t accessible online. So yeah, I just try to not think about that right now, maybe until I’ll start to learn them I’ll find some good place for myself, or someone eager to help with those extremely rare, extincting languages. But other than languages, I’d love to learn about Celtic and Nordic cultures, and I’d love to take classes in playing Celtic harp. And if I were sighted, I’d want to be a neurosurgeon, so anything on that topic too.

Are you scared of heights?

Yes. I used to be very very very like VERY scared of heights, now it lessened kinda on its own so it’s easier, but I still am.

Are you a good cook? If so, do you consider yourself a chef?

Absolutely not. My cooking always ends up with a catastrophe. You rather don’t trust me with it. Last time I tried to magnanimously help my Mum make a big family dinner earlier this year, I ended up with two fingers bleeding quite massively, I mean maybe not really bad, but bad enough that you wouldn’t think I’ve just grated them accidentally instead of vegs. I have a rich history of similar and worse cases from the times when I was at the boarding school.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Misha, writing, blogging, progress in my languages. Good session with the therapist, and that we got along and have similar opinions on me changing therapists. That I translated my previous music crush’s another poem, I’m still over the moon about that. That I had a beautiful dream the other night involving my current music crush. (God, my crushes, what I’d be without them) That we had a cool day on the beach with Mum and Zofijka. And that I’m doing fairly well emotionally and that my anxiety has lessened a bit more since that dreadful nightmare I had.

 

Friendly Fill-ins.

I’m participating in Friendly Fill-ins, hosted by

15 And Meowing

and

Four-Legged Furballs.

Here are the fill-ins:

1. I have faith in ________________ God.
2. Yesterday, I ____________________ had a long, warm bath with jasmine oil. I haven’t had one in ages, I try to avoid baths because of my skin which decided to suddenly become hypersensitive to almost everything last winter and is always very dry and itchy after too much water. But this time everything is OK and that’s great.
3. My favorite place to be is _________ my room.
4. If I was granted one wish, it would be _________ for Misha to be happy every second in his entire life.

 

Friendly Fill-ins.

Again, I am taking part in Friendly Fill-ins, hosted by

15 And Meowing

and

Four-Legged Furballs.

 

  1. I would like tickets to _____________________. any of my crushes gigs or concerts. Or to the theatre maybe, I haven’t been in theatre for ages.

2 Please don’t ask me to _______________________. take care of you, keep you company or clean up ifyou’re sick with a norovirus, stomach flu, or anything like this, or even if you’d eaten something poisonous, to watch weird movies with you while people vomit, and don’t ask me to eat something I don’t want to eat because it’s likely then that it will trigger my emetophobia, and don’t do ask me to do anything else that can be potentially associated with vomiting.

  1. I’d rather _________ be mute, than _________. blind, if I had to choose between these things before birth, though both would be rather frustrating. That’s what my Dad asked me recently. 😀 I’d rather be blind than deaf though.

By this time next year, _________. I will be able to read at least books for children in Welsh without feeling like my brain is drained, and will be learning Cornish.

Friendly Fill-ins.

I am participating in this week’s Friendly Fill-ins, hosted by

15 And Meowing

and

Four-Legged Furballs.

 

 

  1. I deserve a gold star for _________________ doing my Welsh course despite the heat today.
  2. Right now, I am loving _____________. the fact that my anxiety is lessening noticeably.
  3. The best advice I’ve ever been given is _________. don’t adjust to others because you’re different from them and don’t fit in their box. DO them the favour and let them adjust to you, it will test their creativity and let them think more. That’s what my Swedish teacher said to me. It’s not always that easy as there are people in this world who don’t even know what creativity is and how to think and always want others to fit in their limited frameworks, just can’t realise there can be anything else outside of them, but it’s funny and I like this approach and use it when I can, however not in every case yet, I’m working on it. 😀
    1. If I had to choose a new first name, it would be _________. hm, I guess Eliza… Actually, I am lucky because I already could choose a new first name for myself and I am happy with it and it fits me, so I don’t have any other dream choice that I’d love, that would fit me and be realistic and not troublesome, but when I wanted to change my name legally, along with Emilia I was considering Eliza. The reason why I didn’t choose it finally is that as much as I love it, I don’t feel it really fits my personality, there is a lot that fits but also a lot that doesn’t. and also my confirmation name already is Luiza, so even though you don’t use your confirmation name, I would feel rather weird as an Eliza Anna Luiza. 😀 Or maybe I could be Helena. In opposite to Eliza it could be a bit wishy-washy on me, I think, but I love the name itself. In an English-speaking country I would be a Jacqueline. Or maybe not. Maybe not a Jacqueline. I should be a Jill, so that when I finally meet my Jack, we’d be Jack and Jill. 😀 No I’m just kidding though, Jill is OK< but I wouldn’t like to be called Jill, I think.

 

Liebster Award.

I’ve been nominated for the Liebster Award by Carol Anne at

Therapy Bits.

Thank you so much, Carol Anne, it means really a lot to me and it is hugely appreciated. 🙂

The rules are to answer 11 questions from the blogger who nominated you, post on your blog, nominate seven more and make up 11 new questions for them to answer.

Questions from Carol Anne:

1 who made you smile lately?
Zofijka, we always laugh from the silliest things. Even just her laugh makes me laugh.

2 what types of videos do you like to watch on youtube?
I watch a lot of videos about languages and language learning, Youtube is an important resource for me in learning languages. Also I watch Youtube channels about names, above all Tulip By Any Name, but also others. Sometimes I watch some Youtubers vlogging about their mental illness, I try to regularly watch bloggers I follow if they have their channels, also I listen to a lot of music on Youtube. And lots of videos in my target languages, about anything. Sometimes I may also watch good quality ASMR videos if I feel like it, but it’s rather rarely nowadays, I know my ASMR triggers myself well enough to be able to surround myself with the pleasant and relaxing sounds that just work for me, and ASMR videos most often don’t work, even though I definitely do have ASMR.

3 Do you like quotes?

I do. Particularly from my favourite books. I also like learning about proverbs in other languages or remember quotes to make my vocabulary wider.

4 Spring or summer and why?
Nowadays, rather spring. I hate too much heat and don’t tolerate it too well. For years I loved summer because it meant holidays so that I’d be at home, but now I don’t have to care about it.

5 What were you hoping for when you started your blog?
To find like-minded people, maybe some friends, get an outlet for my feelings and thoughts, have some support network, share my passions with others and maybe infect someone with any, challenge my English skills and develop them, and maybe other languages in future.

6 Hot or cold drinks and why?
Depends on the weather, I guess. Right now only cold. Icy!

7 Bath or shower and why?
I prefer taking baths, but my skin definitely prefers quick showers.

8 If you had a wish any wish what would it be?
Uh, very very tricky. Hm, maybe for my best friend to get back in touch with me? Maybe sounds a bit selfish, so at least I’d like to know why is he so silent for months now, no matter how serious or ridiculous the reason is, I much prefer to know it even if it’s terrible than to not know anything and not hear from him at all for months. and I wish I could do something about it and change things, whatever went wrong.

9 Kids or animals? Who are your favourite?
Misha. 😀

10 What are the qualities you like in a friend?
Similar sense of humour, intelligence, some similar interests, rather introversion than extraversion, creativity, good listening skills, sensitivity, loyalty.

11 What is the worst thing about your depression?

I guess the worst is when my energy is so low I can’t do just anything and it’s hard to even pretend you’re OK. I also hate it when I get overwhelmed by feelings and that expressing them is always so tricky for me.

My nominees:

Alice at That Girl Called Alice

Jess at RubiksCat

Kat at From The Wings

Sunshine For Your Sorrow

Depressed Mermaids

Take A Ride On My Mood Swing

Michelle at

Bella’s Babbles

Rosie at

Rosie Blogs

Samantha at

My Bipolar Mind

Lauren at

A Gentlewoman And A Scholar

Lydia at

On The Borderline

Questions for my nominees:

1. What is one quirk about you that you particularly like?

2. Were you popular at school?

3. Do you have any tattoos?

4. What would be the title of your autobiography?

5. How would you describe your childhood in three adjectives?

6. What is your favourite vegetable and what dish do you like with it the most?

7. What one thing would you change about your past if you could?

8. What is your all time favourite book?

9. What/who is your biggest inspiration?

10. Do you think you’re likeable? Why, or why not?

11. What is your favourite post on your blog?

Remember you’re not obliged to do an award post yourself, it’s just to let you know I appreciate you and your writing.

Thanks once again, Carol Anne. 🙂

 

Share Your World.

Here are Cee’s questions for this week’sShare Your World

and my answers.

 

In regards to puzzle what’s your choice: jigsaw, crossword, word search, mazes, logic or numeric puzzles, something else, or nothing?

I have never been a big fan of puzzles, maybe because of my blindness, but I do like word games so sometimes I used to play word search, and I still sometimes happen to play jigsaw puzzles with Zofijka.

List at least five favorite treats and it doesn’t necessarily have to be food.

Chocolate, anything spicy – particularly crisps, listening to my favourite music, buying new gem stones to my collection, Misha, anything to do with Misha.

What is your favorite type of dog? (can be anything from a specific breed, a stuffed animal or character in a movie)

Hm, I have some fondness for Jack Russell terriers just because we were supposed to have one and they seem cute and just because they’re JACK Russell terriers and I love all Jacks unconditionally hahaha. And I like the dog that now lives with my Mum’s family at the place where we lived before, his name is Polar, he is so clever, he just gets humans and what they want from him better than they do themselves.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Getting my crush – Gwilym Bowen Rhys’s – new album and listening to it, it’s awesome. Getting in touch with one of the name experts from Nameberry and writing an article about Polish names for Nameberry, that was exciting for me and I enjoyed doing it, I hope something good will come out of it, it’s thrilling. Misha, writing other things and blogging.

 

Share Your World.

A little late this week, I’m catching up on Cee’s

Share Your World.

Since we are approaching the hottest part of our summer in the northern hemisphere, what’s your favorite ice-cream, frozen yogurt or sorbet flavor?  (Those of you who live down under I’m sure you remember what it is like in the hot summer months).

As for ice cream, I love chocolate with mint. I also like berry flavour, chocolate, toffi, many more. I don’t have frozen yoghurt or a classic sorbet very often.

How often do you people watch?

As often as I am around other people. I love people watching, I like to learn more about people, observe their behaviours and personalities, analyse them, etc. so much so that as I often mentioned before my grandad often calls me x-ray, for that I apparently scan people hahaha. Sometimes I’m better at it, sometimes worse, depending on a person, but I like doing it. You just have to always remember there is always an option you may be wrong in what you expect a person to be like, so that you don’t judge them too quickly, as it’s hard to change your mind about them afterwards. So I try to be an open-minded people watcher. I also like to people watch simply when I’m bored and have nothing more interesting to do, funny things you can see sometimes.

If you had a choice which would be your preference salt water beaches, fresh water lakes, ocean cruise, hot tub, ski resort or desert?

Hm, I think salt water beaches. Ocean cruise and hot tub sound very interesting as well, but because of all my motion issues and others alike I don’t think I’d decide on an ocean cruise, and hot tub may be a nice option from time to time, but isn’t very healthy for me on a more regular basis, as my skin gets dry and itchy with too much contact with water, and it couldn’t be too hot ’cause I often get freakin’ dizzy and faint after long hot baths, such a pity.But I really love the sea, so salt water beaches would be just right for me.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

It was an almost all alone week for me. My parents had gone to Szczecin for a few days trip last week, and I stayed home with Misha and Olek, but Olek was mainly out at work or with friends. Zofijka was at grandparents’. It was a cool and very productive week for me. Also I got to know that my music crush, Gwilym Bowen Rhys, will be releasing his new album in September which makes me so excited.

 

G2K.

Time for G2K

which is a weekly series at Revenge Of Eve.

Here are this week’s questions and my answers.

 

Do you have a secret crush? Famous or not

I do, I’ve had many crushes for most of my life, famous, less famous or completely not famous. They were usually pretty intensive, I’d actually say it’s often more than a crush, not fully love, but yet not just crush. As for the famous ones, they have always been music crushes. My current music crush is Gwilym Bowen Rhys, who, actually, doesn’t seem to be very famous besides his home country, which is Wales, because his music is entirely in Welsh. When it comes to a not famous crush that I know in real life, at the moment, it’s Misha – my Russian blue cat.

What is their code name? (pet name)

I often refer to Gwilym as Gwil, since it’s his diminutive, or when I think about him or write about him in Polish and am in a particularly crushy mood I call him Gwiluś (-uś is a common masculine diminutive suffix in Polish). 😀 Sometimes he’s Gwillie. 😀 As for Misha, he has tones of pet names – Mishka, Mishunia, Teddy Bear, Miszmasz, Miska, Misa, The Grey Brother, Michelle, Saakashvili, Putin, Misha Pisha…

Are they aware of your crush or existence?

Existence – yes, in fact we’d been corresponding for quite a while in the past soon after my crush has started, that was I guess one of the craziest  and spontaneous things I’ve ever done in my life and don’t regret, I may write more about it in the future, but that’s a little complicated. Crush – don’t think so, and hope not, but he knows I like his music and admire him for his versatility. Misha, oh, sometimes, it feels like even if he is aware of my existence, he doesn’t care a bugger, or barely notices anyone’s existence. My crush on him, he either does see and is so cruel he doesn’t care about it either, or is completely unaware. 😦 ( 😀 )

How do you act or feel when they are around?

Well I haven’t ever been physically around Gwil, but at the time we were writing, I had experienced a severe episode of pseudo-OCD, checking my email every five minutes (at least). 😀 When I got the first email from him I could’ve swore I forgot how to actually breathe for a while. When I hear any of my music crushes’ – current or past – music, I feel just absolutely heavenly, I often call it that my brain is melting because it feels quite exact haha. I like to hear my crushes talking, or even more laughing, it works better for me than any ASMR triggers. Actually I am very sensitive to music and sounds, no matter if they’re crush related or not, which can be both good and bad to experience, I think I sometimes get that weird but fantastic feeling that people call eargasm. I am an incurable and most deviated of all the linguophiles on the Earth, or so I like to think, so the same that applies to Gwilym’s music, also applies to his accent in both languages, I am always obsessed about my crushes’ accents. As for Misha, I love his purrs, and all the humming, hhrrruing and gurgling sounds inside of him. I like to lie close beside him and listen to all his inner sounds. I like all his meows, even those most annoying, I like to immerse in his fur, feel his baby-like smell, even though I’m not that good at feeling smells as I am with sounds. I feel always at least a little bit more relaxed than when I’m without him.

Would you pursue a relationship if it were possible?  What holds you back?

Hmm, that’s interesting. Hard to say. With Gwil, if it were possible, I think I’d try, because then I’d feel like I missed out and even when my crush would become less intense, I would probably more or less regret. That could be a very interesting experience since he’s very interesting and, at least intellectually and as for our likes, we seem to have quite a lot in common, although we’re completely different characterologically. Yeah that could surely be interesting, even if it wouldn’t work out long term. As for Misha, we often joke with Zofijka that we three – Misha, her and me – are in a triangle relationship, lol, however silly and sick it sounds in reference to a cat. But seriously, no, I think our current level of the relationship is perfectly enough, although he could be a bit more emotional at times, but hey we’re both lacking in this sphere. But other than being more emotional I think our relationship should rather stay as it is, it’s fine, and I am not a zoophile. 😀 But, if Misha was a guy… gawd, I’d love to be with him!But Zofijka says he’d be an awful egoist, and would only need a girl to be his housewife and care for his food and clean socks, so, if so, no, thanks. 😀

 

Currently – July.

Inspired by Astrid at Blogging Astrid, I’m taking part in Currently – hosted by Anne of

In Residence

and Shelly of

The Queen In Between.

Celebrating: a lot of things this month. My grandparents’ 50th wedding anniversary is on Saturday and they’re having a big party with dancing. My aunt has her 40th birthday on 23rd and knowing her I think she’ll also like to make a huge celebration. My Mum is having her nameday on 26th. Ah, and I am celebrating my exam results, particularly English.

Visiting: my grandparents on Saturday as I said. Well actually not them, they’re making it in a restaurant, but still.

Baking: nothing. Most days are pretty warm/hot here now so I don’t think it’s really time for a lot of baking. We have a lot of gooseberry in our garden and Mum has recently made a gooseberry pie, but that’s all. Usually though, my Mum bakes something pretty regularly. Oh, of course she’ll make some cake for her nameday, but it’s still some time until that.

Wearing: lots of airy dresses and skirts.

Loving: Misha. He shows me his attachment all the time lately, and it’s so sweet. I am just so happy I have him.

 

Share Your World.

A bit late this week, I’m joining Cee’s

Share Your World

Tell us about your first bicycle or car?
For obvious reasons I don’t own a car, but I had a tandem bicycle which my Dad bought me and sometimes when it was warm weather and I was at home for longer we were riding. I was never a particular fan of cycling, but it could be fun at times.

What fictional world or place would you like to visit?
Avalon, or Valhalla, or Asgard, or any of the fictional places in L. M. Montgomery’s books. There could be more possibilities if I thought more about it, I’m sure there are tons of fictional places I’d like to visit.

If you could have someone follow you around all the time, like a personal assistant, what would you have them do?
Doing all the smalltalk with people on my behalf, 😀 making my favourite meals for me, keeping me company when I need it or am bored or can’t sleep, read books for me, those that I myself can’t, clearing Misha’s litterbox, driving me places, helping me do stuff around the house, helping me with not accessible language courses or books  – I think there would be always something they could do. But first and foremost, leaving me alone when I need it, I think it would drive me crazy sooner or later if someone literally followed me everywhere. It could be cool having such an assistant, but it should be a really good person knowing their job and I would have to really trust them, which’s often not that easy process for me nowadays.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week?  Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Misha, progress in my languages, writing, reading, blogging. The fourth anniversary since I got out of the boarding school, I’m so happy and grateful about it, it was 27th June. On 26th six months have passed since I’ve created my blog and I am also happy because of it. It was my nameday on Saturday and I spent a very nice day doing lots of stuff I liked. Zofijka has gone for swimmig camp on Saturday which gave all of us some relief ’cause as I mentioned multiple times she’s a very absorbing kid and we all needed a bit of a break, she’s having fun as far as I know. Misha seems to more outgoing now when Zofijka’s not here and he spends a lot of time with me and seems in a very sociable mood. I even have made a little, but for me very big success with him, namely I was able to convince him that nothing bad will happen if he’ll try to sleep throughout the night with me. And we slept together for the whole Sunday night, he lied beside me on the pillow and was very calm and purring quite loudly as for him when awake, and seemed content. I am proud of Misha that he did it, he never slept with no one for the whole night before, only in his basket on my bed or with a big big distance, or just for a while and then ran away, despite being two years with us. and now he slept through the entire night beside me. And I am proud of myself that I was able to show him it’s not that scary and convince him it can be very nice for both of us. On Sunday I spent a lot of time with my parents and it was very nice.