Question of the day.

Hi guys. 🙂

Here’s my question for you for today:

What’s the best thing that happened to you this week?

My answer:

I guess the best thing would be that I didn’t catch the stomach flu from my Dad, nor did anyone else so far. I’m sticking to my apple cider vinegar though. Other than that, since today I finally have my Spotify back! I had to call my IT specialist to have a look at it, and he was actually very surprised and said he’d never see such a thing, we tried various ways and workarounds to deal with it, and finally he tried creating another user account on my computer and installing Spotify there. Surprisingly, it worked out, so he moved the Spotify folder into my user catalogue and the shortcut to open the app on to the desktop, and this way it’s working now. He said he never had to install something in such a roundabout way. I’m relieved it’s working finally so I can have all my music back, although I’m sort of suspicious how it will act when there will be another update, whether it won’t be the same story from the beginning, since we didn’t find the exact cause why it couldn’t be installed the right way, I really really hope it won’t be like this ’cause then I really don’t have any idea what I could do.

I consider it both a good and a bad thing that finally this week I quit therapy with my last therapist. Recently I’d been feeling like there is something really wrong with our relationship, that we don’t get each other even in some fairly basic things, and that in a way I actually felt like it’s causing me more bad than good and felt more low and confused after each session than before I came to her. I know sometimes you just do feel that way after therapy since you process really hard stuff and it’s painful but we were nowhere near that stage and, as I said, I just didn’t feel any progress. Don’t know what I’d do now, honestly I feel pretty discouraged and wonder whether there’s actually a point in looking for another therapist and how long it is going to take me to find the one with whom I can really get along and achieve something, and I wonder whether it’s really so that therapy is what I necessarily need or maybe I should look for some alternatives only that I don’t really have an idea what it could be. But yeah in a way I am relieved that I finally did this and quit with this therapist, something was hanging in the air for weeks, and I could hear some alarms beeping in my brain already a few months ago, only that I preferred to just ignore them and carry on and didn’t want to believe something could be wrong, ’cause, why? Again? This time it has to be right. ANd our start was actually pretty good, apart from some small things that were kind of jarring, like that often times she seemed like she was actually expecting some specific kind of answer from me and if the thing I said was different, she would show me in one way or another that what I said is kind of wrong, even though it’s quite obvious that no one can know better some things about me or my life than me, it felt as if she wasn’t very flexible, so I didn’t even know how to react to such things, but, she’s a therapist, so I assumed she knew what she was doing, maybe she was right? Well now I don’t think so, and I also talked with my Mum before going to therapy this week, and my Mum of course didn’t suggest me to do anything, but she said she also had an impression that it didn’t really influence me that well as therapy apparently should ’cause she could see I always felt very down afterwards.

So I guess it’s a good thing that it’s over and now I have to somehow figure out what to do next.

How about you? 🙂

Question of the day.

What do you hope for in the next few months?

My answer:

The first thing that comes to my mind is for Misha to settle down, I mean I’d like him to feel comfortable now that Sasha is with us. He is getting better and better, but I can still feel he’s very insecure at times.

I also hope that I’ll be able to catch up quickly on all that time I was not able to ride. By the way, haven’t updated you guys on that, I’m going to the stud tomorrow and ride for half an hour. Usually it’s a full hour, but this time, because I’m still having this yucky skin infection, it’s gonna be half an hour, I don’t want to irritate it more, but I also don’t want to wait God knows how much longer until it heals. Oh yes and I hope my leg heals quickly, not for months as always.

I hope for doing some more visible progress in therapy. I can see that at this point there is something going on but so far it’s very small progress and I hope that with time I’ll go a bit further. And I hope I’ll get funding for all the tech stuff I need, or at least for a new Braille-Sense, my old one, as you may remember, is Zofijka’s age, so quite a senior as for a tech device, and is driving me crazy more and more with each day. So I also hope that in case I won’t get the funding, I’ll have the patience to get me through it all.

What are your hopes? 🙂