Question of the day.

When was the last time you were moved to tears??

My answer:

Hard to say, as I told you a few times on this blog it’s not easy for me to be moved to tears, I may quite often feel at the verge or just be very moved but still not cry, first because still crying is an issue and second because I think that’s simply how I am. And even if I do cry, it’s rarely like fountains of tears, in opposite lots of people in my family on Mum’s side. πŸ˜€

So I guess the last time I was moved to tears was when I was reading “Battered, Broken, Healed” by Maggie Hartley – Maggie Hartley is a UK foster carer and in this book she describes the story of Jasmine who is an infant and as it turns out later on she was taken into care because her father was abusive. I cried when I was reading about her mum’s experiences, about her abusive relationship, and particularly about how her husband wouldn’t allow her to take care of Jasmine. It somehow moved me, I found it very weird because normally I don’t cry when hearing about people’s sad stories, or it has to be really really really tough or there has to be something that particularly speaks to me for any reason. I am not someone who particularly loves children in general, but I found that really sad, for whatever reason.

The last time I was moved and felt like I’m gonna cry and wanted to, but couldn’t, was when I was listening to my current crush Gwilym Bowen Rhys’s latest album a few days ago, and that’s not very weird, I often feel very moved listening to my crushes’ music, even if it’s not particularly sad, but just when it’s expressive and/or beautiful. I was listening to this album as a whole for third time, this time just to immerse in it, but it still speaks to me.

How about you? What was the thing that moved you so strongly? πŸ™‚


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Question of the day.

What was the last thing you doodled on a piece of paper?

My answer:

Doodling sounds like a fab activity, but since I am blind, in my case it’s rather pointless and not the easiest thing to do, I guess. So I don’t thik I’ve ever doodled anything in my entire life. πŸ˜€

How about you? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

Did you have coffee or tea, this morning? If so, how did you take it?

My answer:

I often have both, coffee before breakfast and then tea with breakfast, but today I just had tea. Raspberry tea. It’s my favourite one right now. Mum bought lump sugar recently, we don’t usually use it but she just said it’s more fun haha, so we’re now using it, so I’ve had raspberry tea with two sugars.

How about you? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

What was the last thing you texted (add context if you’d like)?

My answer:

The last thing I texted was last Saturday (now you get the idea how often I text with anyone πŸ˜€ ) and it was to Zofijka: “Sofi if you want to talk to Mum call me her phone is dead”. And that’s about it.

How about you? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

Thought we’d do some “lasts” questions again for a while, I’ve been recently focused on a lot of things, but not questions topics, and that’s pretty easy and uncomplicated, and there was a thread with them on BTN recently, so: What was the last thing you ate?
My answer:
A bread roll with a creamy cheese and some chilli flavoured kabanosy. DO you know what kabanosy are? As far as I know it’s only a Polish thing, though I may be wrong. A kabanos is a thin, usually dry sausage with a smoky flavour. I am not big on meat in general, but kabanosy are one of the types of meat I do like. They can really vary but the ones we eat most often are small, they are a perfect thing to take with yourself if you go on a trip, or picnic, or any sort of long travel, that’s what we usually take when going somewhere further, along with sandwiches, and I’ve heard many little kids really like them in particular, well maybe not chilli ones, but other small-sized. And as I said the ones we usually buy are chilli flavoured. In my opinion, the dryer, the better, well as far as you can actually eat it obviously. I’ve also had some cherry tomatoes from my Dad’s garden, they were scrummy. πŸ™‚ How about you? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

If you HAD to pick a favourite sport, what would it be? You can’t say “none” or “pass”.

My answer:

Horse riding, obviously! I haven’t been riding for more than half a year now myself because of my instructor not being available, my exams, skin infections and other adventures, but I like to learn more about it, even if I can’t ride. And I am very disciplined in this matter.

Which would you choose? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

Would you ever tell your hairstylist to do whatever they felt like doing to your hair?

My answer:

Nope. Never. Very many hairstylists don’t do what you ask them to do even if it’s very speciffic, so, in my opinion it’s way too risky.

Would you?

Question of the day.

Is there anything you’re looking forward to?

My answer:

I’m looking forward to tomorrow. We’ll be going to Hel. No, not to hell. πŸ˜€ Actually we have a village nearby that is literally called something like Little Hell, but we’re going neither to big or little hell. We’re going to the Hel Peninsula with only one l. Mum, Zofijka, our cousin Dominika and me. We’re going there by train. We’ll have a walk at the beach, the girls will maybe go see the sealarium and we’ll have ice cream, or waffles. I think that’s nice. I’m looking forward to it and I feel like I really need to go out of the house but somewhere else than to our extended family or to do something that needs to be done, I’ll be glad to go.

Also I’m looking forward to my nameday and going with Mum to the Italian restaurant and doing other fun things together. And I’m looking forward to Zofijka’s swimming camp. Zofijka finishes the school year on Friday and we all know she’s always very bored when she doesn’t go to school. It’s not like she likes school, that stage is gone, but she finds it hard to play or find herself things to do on her own, she constantly needs the company, even to watch her playing and admire her, and sometimes it’s pretty annoying for all of us. So I’ll be happy when she’ll go if she’ll be enjoying it. And I think she will.

Anotehr thing I’m looking forward is finishing my current Welsh course level and starting the new one, as well as starting my new Swedish course to improve my skills in this language.

And I’m looking forward to tell you about my two new blogging ideas, particularly about my name game, and I’m terribly curious what you will think about it guys.

Oh, and I am looking forward to 27th June. Not like I’m gonna do anything special on that day, although maybe I’ll come up with something, but it will be the fourth year since I left the boarding school for good, and of course I’m very glad about it and I’m glad so much time has passed since then and that I’ve done so much in that time. In a way it feels very little, but I know that I was able to progress a lot in many fields and process lots of stuff. Maybe I’ll buy tons of junk food and just have a big big treat. πŸ˜€

And yes, I’m loking forward, more and more impatiently, for my finals results. It’s slowly driving me crazy you have to wait for them for so long. But I’m sure there are thousands of other graduates across the whole country who are far more stressed about their results, who know what they’d like to do with their lives but all depends on those stupid exams.

What are you looking forward to, if anything? πŸ™‚

Question of the day (10th June).

Is there a movie quote you use on a regular basis?

My answer:

Hmmm, there might be, but right now I can’t think of anything. However my Mum and Dad use a lot of movie quotes so I sometimes just pick them up unconsciously, perhaps not even knowing it’s a movie quote.

How about you? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

What’s the spiciest thing you’ve ever eaten?
My answer:
Hmmmm… the spiciest thing? That’s a tricky one… because I’ve eaten so many spicy things, I love spicy things, and sometimes people say they’re so spicy that they’re uneatable, but I like them. I really can’t recall something that would be so spicy that I just couldn’t eat it, would choke or have red eyes or something. And, if I’m honest, I’d like to eat something like this once to feel how it is. I don’t know what’s wrong, whether I am sorta too immune to spicy things or people around me are too sensitive, but it just needs to be very very spicy for others to affect me at all. I can’t say I like ANYTHING spicy, I think there should be more to a dish to like it then just that it’s spicy or salty or sweet, but I like the vast majority of spicy things. But… um… let’s think… recently we had tortilla and my mum got a very hot sauce to it, something starting with Z, it was just… heavenly, I just loved it so much, and yeah, it was spicy, my Mum couldn’t ieat it, Zofijka couldn’t, Olek didn’t even try, only me and my Dad could and it felt very hot, but I hope there are more spicy things in the world, if not, that’s a pity, because I believe it still could be more spicy and it could be even more heavenly, I believe there are spicier things haha. How about you? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

Share a link to a music video you think is great (not necessarily a great song but visual a very good video).

My answer:

Well I’m certainly not an expert at music videos (he he he), but I’ve been told this one is good. This singer – Kayah – was for a long time my Mum’s favourite female vocalist – my Mum likes kinda androgynous female singers, or black singers, like Sade for example, other than that she only listens to male vocalists, maybe because she herself is kinda tomboy. This woman is a very popular Polish celebrity, but sometime ago she started to come out with her views which were glaringly contrasting to my Mum’s, and so she doesn’t like her so much now anymore. But she watched this video and she says it’s beautiful and from what she told me it really seems so. When she showed it to me yesterday I got an impression it has a sorta pagan feel, on which my Mum agreed with me, today I realised it was purposeful to make it feel pagan, but it’s not too pagan as for my standards, like there’s nothing literally refering to any culture/religion or anything. It’s just about the relationship of the human with the nature, unity of a woman and a man, which are natural, beautiful and obvious things. You can also feel some old Slavic influences, I guess they were inspired by Slavic mythology or something. The guy who directed this is one of the directors of The Witcher, the composer of the song is atanas Valkov who is a Polish music producer, multiinstrumentalist and composer of Bulgarian descent. The song is called Czarna Polana (Black Glade). I think it sounds fantastic and the overall effect must be indeed beautiful.

I thought I’d translate the lyrics as they’re fairly easy so you’d get some idea what it’s about, although I’m sorry if it’s not quite the best stylistically:

Β Β  I am close

You do not have to be afraid anymore

You will find everything in me.

Because that is how much I can give.

When you are close

The world does not scare me

And when you give me your hand

It will become a whole.

I am nowhere without you

You are nowhere without me

I am nowhere without you, no

I am nowhere without you

You are nowhere without me

I am nowhere without you, no.

Always close

no need to be afraid anymore

You and me are one

As long as the life is lasting.

Coexistence.

I am nowhere without you

You are nowhere without me

I am nowhere without you, no

I am nowhere without you

You are nowhere without me

I am nowhere without you, no

I am nowhere without you

You are nowhere without me

I am nowhere without you, no

I am nowhere without you

You are nowhere without me

I am nowhere without you, no.

I am close

You do not have to be afraid anymore

You will find everything in me

Because that is how much I can give.

When you are close

The world does not scare me

And when you give me your hand

It will become a whole.

Yours? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

Do you wear makeup every day.

My answer:

Absolutely not. Moreover, I hardly ever wear makeup. There are four reasons for it. First – being blind and having other issues I can’t do it really well, so I have to rely on usually my Mum to do it for me. My Mum doesn’t like doing it even for herself, and I must say I am not a fan of people palpating my face and doing all those girly stuff just to look good for people for an hour or two, so why bother. πŸ˜€ There is always so much hassle around it, I just don’t need it on a daily or even weekly basis, it’s such a waste of time.

The second reason is that I don’t feel like I have enough rich social life to need to wear makeup often. And I don’t see much sense in wearing makeup staying at home just for yourself. Well some people say you should look good for yourself too to feel good with yourself and I agree, but I think makeup doesn’t change me that much plus I generally don’t like myself so can’t feel completely good with myself either way.

Third is that a whole lot of the cosmetics mess up with my skin and I am allergic to many of them.

And fourth is that usually I feel much better with myself being natural, sometimes it just embarrasses me when I have a lot of stuff on my face and feel a bit not like me.

So actually I don’t even remember when was the last time I had makeup on. I guess it could be sometime before Christmas, we were playing with Zofijka, we had an idea for a kinda crazy roleplay, and we both had tons of strong glaring makeup, high-heels, lots of jewellery and we looked very trashy and glittery on purpose and it was funny and ridiculous.

Sometimes I do darken and underline my eyebrows, even when I don’t go out anywhere, because I don’t like how thin and light they are naturally.

How about you? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

You would be really surprised to hear I like…

My answer:

…Sia, Ellie Goulding, and alike. Well I don’t know whether it’s so very surprising, but some people whom I told I do listen to some music that is high in the charts or that is somehow mainstream, were very surprised like it was something completely unbelievable. In fact, although I listen mostly to rather unusual stuff, I like to listen to some more popular music, or sometimes even to very easy, catchy stuff. Well quite a lot of music I listen to can be described as catchy, but I mean stuff that is light, likeable and recognisable by people around me. I don’t really care whether something is popular or not, well if it is it may bother me if I like it, but I don’t avoid mainstream music or favour more niche stuff, I just listen to what I like, but most often it just happens that things I like aren’t known in my surroundings at all. I like ELlie Goulding, who is very popular right now, as well as Sia, I even occassionally like such guys like Jason Derulo or Sean Kingston, they remind me of some happy moments in my childhood, I even like Basshunter, whose music definitely isn’t something very deep, hm, who else… Groove Coverage, Armin van Buuren, Amy Diamond, and some other light pop like her… nothing else comes to my mind right now, but tere are some others. Is it really so surprising? πŸ˜€

And how about you? What surprising thing(s) do you like? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

I have a terrible habit of…
My answer:
…biting/nibbling my nails. I’ve been struggling with it as long as I can remember and nothing seems to make me unlearn it. When I have something stressful ahead, or something stressful that just passed, and I’m alone and don’t have anything constructive to do, I usually end up devastating my nails. It’s something that I usually do while overthinking and overanalysing stuff, it can really help you to quickly fall deeper and deeper in the abysses of your brain. SOmetimes I also do it when I have to focus on something or make up something. Therefore I very rarely have manicure, because well bitten nails with manicure look gross. I thought it might help me to stay motivated and not bite and nibble them, but it doesn’t really help. Therefore I only tend to have pedicure. What terrible habit do you have?

Question of the day.

Pick one:

a) I often read/watch the news and keep up with politics.

b) I sometimes bother with that stuff.

c) I very rarely bother with that stuff.

d) Ugh! Get it away from me.

e) Other – pls expand.

My answer:

I’d say something between A and B, because although I am not crazy about the news and watching them or reading them isn’t a part of my daily routine or anything, but still we talk a lot of politics at my home and I try to keep up with politics and don’t think about it as “bothering myself” with it, because I think that it’s something that regards all of us and we are responsible for how our countries/the world is ruled and who does it on our behalf and should be at least minimally involved in it.

I may not be up to date with everything or have a formed opinion on every political affair, but I don’t avoid this topic like hell as some people do, and I sometimes like having conversations with people on that, as long as they can express their views politely and as long as I can do it not being driven crazy by them only repeating what others say or being actually ignorant. πŸ˜›

I usually read the news online as I think that the Internet is very often most objective as it’s not owned by anyone with speciffic views who would impose them to those who write there. There might be of course news that are not authentic or not verified, therefore, especially if something interests me more, I usually try to verify the information on other websites.

I also listen to the news in our public radio, which is pretty objective too in most cases, and I like to compare them sometimes with what they say in Sveriges Radio or BBC, or anywhere else I can understand, my Mum, who is much more interested in politics, is always jealous that I can do it, as she is a monoglot. πŸ˜€

Sometimes I also watch or read the news somewhere that I know they have completely different opinions than me, just to know what they’re thinking, to make laugh of it and sometimes to simply feel pissed off. πŸ˜€ I usually do it with my Mum. πŸ˜€

How about your habits in this field? πŸ™‚

Question of the day.

Do you like picnics? If yes, what would you take on your picnic?

My answer:

Picnics… hmm, in theory, yeah, it sounds nice. But in practice… is it really so cool to have to keep all the possible bugs and insects off your food all the time? Plus I don’t have the best associations with picnics, because all of those in which I’ve taken part took place when I was at the boarding school and I never liked them. Either my group was going with the staff somewhere to have a picnic or a full bivouac and simply have fun, and as I’ve never felt truly like a part of them I never knew what to actually do with myself on such occasions, just didn’t feel well at all at those picnics and I felt like the atmosphere at them is so artificially joyful that it really bothered me and made me literally nauseous. Don’t know whether it really was artificial or not, anyway that was how I felt about it back then. Or there were large events organised for the whole school and called picnics, where lots of people, even famous people were coming and there were lots of things happening. I felt even more like not in the right place at the latter. I think if I could go on a picnic with the company I would really like and felt comfortable around, it could be real fun, but not the first activity I would think about when thinking how to spend time with someone I like. I think I have too much bad experience with picnics to be able to say I like them, and too little experience overall to say I don’t like them at all and that I would never take part in one again if I got a chance.