Question of the day.

Do you like being outdoors?

My answer: It really depends on what I am supposed to do outdoors or where to go. Generally I am kind of a homebody and often feel pretty much insecure when I’m outdoors on my own, especially if there are many people or if it is a very large, open space, but it doesn’t happen often nowadays, as generally my spacial orientation is rubbish and I have trouble orientating even on my own backyard. Also if going outdoors means challenging any of my anxieties, obviously it’s nothing I could enjoy. But I like being out in nature or playing with Zofijka on our backyard or taking long walks with my Mum.

How about you?

Question of the day.

Can you whistle?

My answer:

Short answer – no, I can’t. A bit longer – I always wondered how people do it when I was a little child, I think it started from my grandad with whom I’ve had a very close relationship and we had a bit of a whistling code, well he had, but I understood it and was the only recipient of his communicates lol, like he whistled differently when he wanted to catch my attention or called me or if I did something well or surprised him or if he was very involved in conversation with me, even when he just listened to me, while some people say things like “mhm” to let you know they are listening and getting what you tell them, he has a speciffic whistling sequence lol. So it always wondered me how he does it as it seemed very simple, but I’ve never learnt it. I’ve never really wanted to, like it wasn’t something very important to me, but I had a time when I was very curious about that and tried to repeat him, but never really succeeded.

So how is it about you? 🙂

Question of the day.

What colour is your bedroom? Do you have wallpaper anywhere in your house? What architectural style is your house/apartment? Do you have any interior decor theme?

My answer:

Lol my Mum’s favourite topic. 😀 Well, maybe just a bit less favourite than lifestyle/wellness/health.

As for my room, I think I mentioned before that it is dominated by green and generally in rather calm colours. I’d say it’s pretty girly and dreamy. 😀

As for the wallpaper, yes, we do have wallpaper in our house, it’s actually covered almost entirely in wallpapers. My Mum loves wallpapers and no one here has anything against, so why not, I think. I have a green wallpaper with English flowers on it. My brother has some photowallpaper if that is how such thing should be called properly in English. Zofijka’s room is in her own style, which doesn’t mean her style is so unique, but is glaringly different from Mum’s. And she doesn’t have any wallpaper. Other than that, some wallpapers are all around the house, excluding the bathroom, both toilets and laundry.

I’d say my house is kind of retro. It is a very big house and when we bought it, it seemed very cold and… I’d say unfriendly. But my Mum changed it completely and now it is very cosy. There are lots of old-fashioned furniture and other retro or rustical stuff. There are some elements made of brick. Everything is in rather dark, but warm colours. It isn’t all old-fashioned, there are some modern items and I think it all makes an interesting combination. Usually people, even if they have their houses made in a totally different style, like our house and admire it and say it’s very unique. Every room is a bit different as we are different, but it goes rather harmoniously together, excepts for Zofijka’s room. But it was really important for her to make it all as she wants so her room is kind of Ikea style. Very modern and different from the rest, but typical in comparison to many other rooms in many other houses I think.

How about your houses? 🙂

Question of the day.

Today, my question for you guys is:

How often do you read? Where do you get your books? How do you decide what to read, next?

My answer:

I read ALL THE TIME. Well whenever it’s physically possible while doing other things. As I’m blind, I read (or some of you would probably prefer to say listen to) books usually on a specialised device called Plextalk Linio Pocket (I may post a picture of it just for fun sometime later as although it’s nothing very unusual, I’m sure not many of you could ever see it before 😀 ). It’s small and portable and I can either have audiobooks or talking books in a special format called Daisy on it or I can read ebooks or any other text files with speech synthesis and that’s how I do it most often. I also can read on another device called Braille-Sense which is basically a Braille notetaker with a Braille display, you can read and write in it and it has some APPS and if you write in it you can save it to a text file so it’s not like you have it only written in Braille. I like to read on my own, I don’t do it as often as I listen to books, but I like it even more ’cause I just simply prefer to read than listen usualy, especially if I read in another language, other than Polish I mean.

So when I have time, I read in bed in the morning before I get up, then I read from time to time throughout the day, I read when I’m waiting for something or someone or am bored and have PlexTalk with me and can do it. I always read before falling asleep in bed, very often in the car, and almost always when I can’t sleep at night. So there are lots of opportunities to read, I think.

As for where I get books, it can be problematic at times. Usually, the first place where I go to if I want to read a speciffic book is the website of the library for the blind that we have here, the main library, they have an option that you can simply download any book that is in their collection if you have sent them the proof of disability, speciffically blindness, and if you live in Poland. These are accessible books, but of course not all books are there, and books in other languages aren’t there, well only a few, and certainly not in Swedish or Welsh. 😀 So if something isn’t there and it is in Polish, I usually will need to either just buy it as an ebook if it is available in such form and if it’s in an accessible format, or would have to get a physical book and then scan it, which I just genuinely hate as it’s a bit of a sisyphean task, especially if you’re totally blind like I am, ’cause apparently people with some sight have it a bit easier. So I only scan books that I really really want to read. With English books, I use Audible and Bookshare and have just started with both this year. With Swedish books, an immense help was my Swedish teacher, who borrowed me a lot of books when he was teaching me and I have scanned them, but as I don’t know any blind Swedish people I don’t know how they really get books, well I know they have some organisation like NFB is in US or RNIB in the UK or PZN in Poland and they can have books from their library, but not people from outside the country, so, it sucks a bit. With Welsh books it’s just a pure luck if I get one and I always appreciate it even if it’s not my level yet. There’s so few Welsh books overall so I’m always extremely happy if I succeed to get something or if someone is so nice to help me. I recently got Mabinogion in Welsh, but I’m far behind with the vocabulary yet, so it’s waiting for me.

The way I decide what to read next, is very simple. I have quite a lot of books on SD cards, which I use with my devices, and usually I just read them in alphabetical order, unless I need or really want to read something speciffic at a certain time. And as I still get new books, I never run out of them. As for how I choose books I want to read, I use either our Polish site called BiblioNetka, which is basically like your GoodReads, or I use GoodReads and then check the original title in BiblioNetka whether it’s translated into Polish and if the book is available anywhere for me, then I get it. Also I regularly check new books in our library and get what sounds like I might like it or what I’ve been waiting for, and sometimes I’ll read what my friends or other people I know read if we have similar tastes.

How about you? 🙂

Question of the day.

So the actual question for today I have for you is:

What type of music do you listen to? What are some bands/artists you have liked for a long time? What are some bands/artists you would like to listen to? Who have you seen in concert?

My answer:

I think my music taste is quite wide. Most often I listen to either folk or rock or just folkrock, but I also like a lot of pop stuff, recently a lot of electro, Gothic music, metal, but as for Gothic music and all kinds of metal I will listen to it as long as it isn’t against my faith in any way as I am a practicing Christian. I listen to quite a lot of indie recently. Sometimes, when I’m in a special mood for it, I might listen to trance, like armin van Buuren, but rather his older tracks, or when I’m rather high I’ll listen to Polish reggae. I listen to a lot of alternative stuff. I love music in various languages which some may think is weird, it also happens that I listen to songs that have a bit odd topics. We have a radio programme in Polish public radio where there is a lot of weird music in all the languages you can imagine other than English and Polish, most often it’s rock, but really not only. I have lots of my favourite music from there. My favourite languages though occupy a special place in my music collection.

The band I’ve liked for a really long time, about 11 years I think, is Vavamuffin. It is a Polish reggae band. I’ll surely show it to you sometime later on. I had quite a weird music taste as for a kid, I started to listen to them when I was 10 and it was rather sad period in my life and their music kinda boosted my mood and this discovery led to finding many other Polish reggae bands. As I grew older I lost a lot of my enthusiasm for reggae, now I think this positive energy you can find in this kind of music is a bit too optimistic, it’s just superficial for me, but sometimes I still like to come back to Vavamuffin. But I don’t rather listen to any other reggae than Polish. My long time fascination is also Enya. I’ve loved her for years and she was my first musical crush. My other crushes I’ve had for some time are Declan Galbraith and Cornelis Vreeswijk. Ooh and Emilie Autumn, not my actual crush, but I really loved her as a teen when I loved everything Gothic, now not as much as I find lots of things in her music that are completely opposite to my views, but she still has some charm to me. And I have a lot of Celtic music which I discovered years ago and still love, so bands like Clannad, Celtic Woman, this kind of stuff.

Despite my love to music of various kinds, I haven’t been to that many concerts. I’ve never seen any of my really favourite musicians live. I’ve seen some Polish musicians when I was at boarding school and we had some outings as a group, but it wasn’t anything really exciting, I don’t even remember who they were now. 😀

How about your music taste? 🙂 Would love to hear about it!

Question of the day (1st March).

Where do you buy groceries? What do you like to eat/drink? Do you collect coupons? Do you look for things on sale?

My answer:

I don’t rather buy groceries for myself, I live with my family and usually my Dad does groceries for us all, sometimes when I need or want something special I just give him money so he gets it for me. Most often we get our groceries in the Polish shop called Biedronka (literally “Ladybug” in English) it’s a network of supermarkets, or in Lidl, sometimes in other nearby shops or supermarkets.

as for what I eat and drink regularly, I eat a lot of vegetables, I mostly like them raw, I generally love Mediterranean, Mexican and Asian food, I love spicy things. I eat a lot of dairy, my favourite drink, or almost favourite is kefir, but I rarely drink milk on its own, there are many views as for whether milk is good or not for people older than toddlers and I am one of those who think it isn’t. I love fruits as well. Meat, with some exceptions, might as well not exist for me, I eat it just because my Dad and brother are very carnivorous so the rest has to adjust at least for dinners. But I like some white meat from time to time. Sometimes I’ll eat bacon too, and my favourite way of preparing meat is baked meat. And I like some of my Dad’s smoked meat, and our Polish kabanosy, and sometimes Polish sausage, but only when it’s well drained, if drained is actually a proper word in this context. I am not a big fan of fish or eggs but it’s not like I don’t like them at all, just not an enthusiast. And I love salty things, and sweet things too. And all kinds of nuts I know of. Oh, and all kinds of pasta, and all kinds of our Polish dumplings and pierogi, but especially Silesian dumplings. And some junk food is great as well, especially chips and spicy chicken wings from KFC. I am not so addicted to potatoes as so many people here are so that they must have them every time for dinner, I rather prefer pasta or rice or groats. Other than kefir, I drink quite a lot of water nowadays and can’t imagine it otherwise, I love black coffee, without any sugar, and recently I’ve discovered raspberry tea, Pepsi is great as well, and Pepsi with some whisky. And recently me and my Mum are in love in almond milk, it tastes just heavenly. And there are much more things I love to eat and drink.

I don’t really care about coupons, mostly just because as for now I don’t have much experience with doing lots of groceries completely on my own, I personally don’t collect any. My Mum does sometimes.

As for sales, we don’t look for things on sale speciffically, but my Mum has an app for Biedronka so she always knows when there’s anything on sale and if it’s something we really like or need currently, we can even go on purpose just there to get that speciffic thing, but it rarely happens. We don’t buy things just because they’re on sale, as so many people over here do, like they are fighting for a piece of carp before Christmas Eve just because it’s cheap lol.

Now it’s your turn. I’m curious what are your preferences and habits as for these things.

Question of the day.

What is the most important goal every person should have?

My answer:

I think such goal could be to love ourselves. ‘Cause when we love ourselves, we automatically become better and more loving and caring to all the other beings in the world, thus making the life easier for all of us.

What do you think? What should such goal be in your opinion?

Question of the day.

What do a lot of parents do that screws up their kid?

My answer:

The thing I hate that quite a lot of parents do to their kids is diminishing their problems. Like, a kid comes to them, trusts them and wants to share with them whatever is on their mind, something more or less difficult they feel like they need some support with coming through. And the parent’s reaction is like: “These aren’t problems. You’re just a child, you don’t have serious problems. You’ll start real life and you’ll see what problems really are”. That discourages most kids from confiding in their parents and makes them feel like their struggles aren’t important to their parents and don’t really deserve any attention. Plus, another thing is, so when does “the real life” start? When you get married? Divorced? After you’re 50? 😀 I’m really curious.

Another thing that pisses me off a bit every time I see it is when a child tells the parent about whatever is happening in their life and the parent doesn’t really listen but only wants to give advice, no matter if the child wants it or not.

What are your answers and what do you think about it?

Question of the day.

What is the most important thing a person can do to improve themselves?

My answer:

Another hard one… Umm, a person? Every person? I think it’s hard to find a thing which all the people could do to improve themselves as we all have so different qualities… and so different values so what’s important to me doesn’t necessarily have to be important to you.

But the first thing I thought about was to become more empathetic. Most of us, unless severely hurt in childhood or having some conditions like brain damages, are empathetic to a varying degree, but I think also most of us could make more use of it or improve our empathy. I think it’s often that when we do something we know is good for us it sometimes happens that we tend to think so much about advantages which we will have of it, that we might not see other people who may be also influenced by our decisions and won’t benefit from them or may even feel hurt. Sometimes we feel emotional, arguing with someone or something like this and our emotions change our view on things. We see our feelings first and then other people’s and we often say things that may be hurtful for them just because we feel hurt. We know they will feel pain and it isn’t necessary to hurt them, but we don’t try to feel how it would be to be in their situation.

I think if we tried to imagine possibly exactly how a person may feel when we do something, or how would we feel being in their shoes, we would do much less hurtful things to people and maybe even start to do more nice things to them. Of course too extreme empathy isn’t good either, but I feel like most of us would benefit if we tried to improve this quality in us. And it would be definitely a big self improvement.

What is such thing in your opinion?

Question of the day.

What’s something that people think makes them look impressive/attractive but actually has the opposite effect?

My answer:

In my opinion, it is very hard to answer this question, if not impossible. Everyone has different taste as for fashion, different views and opinions. Some people like tattoos and think they’re a great expression of their style, thoughts, feelings, personality or whatever else, others think tattoos are only for prisoners or other socially condemned, marginalised people. Some people may think a plus size girl in tight clothes looks beautiful and feminine and she shouldn’t be ashamed of her body any less than conventional, slim models if she feels OK with her weight and looks, others will say she looks yucky.

So, although fashion styles, stereotypes and majority opinions are changing, I think people’s opinion always were, are and will always be very diverse and, at least if you won’t to answer this objectively, you actually can’t.

How do you think? Is it possible to answer this question objectively in your opinion? How about your own likes and dislikes? What do you find not attractive or impressive, but feel like others think it makes them attractive? I was focusing only on appearance, but since attractiveness isn’t absolutely only about that, how about your thoughts about other things that can be attractive or not attractive in a person.

Question of the day.

What easy thing do you most often screw up?

My answer:

Oh, really many things. Lots of objectively fairly easy things to do around the house seem practically not doaable for me at least on my own, or take me lots of time and the effects aren’t really impressive. Same with some other things requiring good fine skills for example. My spacial orientation is rubbish too, also due to issues I have with my labyrinthum, I hope I spell it right. Ah, but something I screw up most often are casual talks with people or smalltalk. It either bores me to death or scares me and I VERy RARELY can do a good job of it.

How about you?

Question of the day.

Where is the worst smelling place you’ve been?
My answer:
Some public loos definitely. I hate to go to them. Of course not all are so very smelly, but in my area, very many. Especially when we talk about portable lavs on the streets. They are so smelly, that in my opinion, if you want to survive, you should take a deep breath in before you go in and not breathe out before you go out. Most of them look like they’re not cleaned at all. My Mum, who has much stronger abomination to such objects than me, was recently forced to visit a portable public loo and it looked like someone didn’t make it to the toilet on time as she saw someone’s poo all over the floor. Eww! So, unless it’s an urgent case, I much prefer to wait with it until I will be at my own home.
Another place I’ve been to is somewhere in Kuyavian-Pomeranian voivodeship where they have a cellulose factory and it is pretty smelly there for quite a bit of the way. Which are the most smelly places in your opinion? 😀

Question of the day.

If you could know the absolute and total truth to one question, what question would you ask?

My answer:

First thought I had – is there really any afterlife after we die? This may seem strange since I’m a practicing Christian so should be sure that there is, and I believe in it, but I suppose everyone of us, no matter what we believe in or if we don’t believe in the existence of any God, ask it sometimes, ’cause many of us would like to be sure. Is it all true or is it just a bullshit and we will just die and nothing will happen afterwards? That’s interesting. DO you guys ask yourselves this question sometimes too? But then I had another thought and I think I would prefer to get answer for this one, as I wonder really often about that and sometimes get quite frustrated about it:

Why actually was it so hard for me to go through that long period of time when I was at the boarding school? Or maybe not why it was so hard, but why did it affect me, my emotions and my mental health so much? Why I felt like it was so challenging if I wasn’t abused there, besides one year when I was emotionally abused by some of the staff, but then it finished. Why did I have such big issues with adapting there and why was it so overwhelming in so many different ways, for so many different reasons? Did other kids feel it too, but they were such great actors that I didn’t notice anything? They had to be really great, because I think I’m pretty good at “feeling” other people and I always thought they are happy there, well as happy as kids may be when they aren’t with their families. I know only one girl who I know that reacted to being there like me and ended up with generaised anxiety. Luckily she was much younger than me when people started to see what’s going on and it was my Mum who told her mum that she should take her home. Her issues looked very familiar for me. Is it the matter of high sensitivity? Coincidence of too many hard things put together? Emotional weakness? My Mum thinks so, but then why do a few other people said they think I’m strong? Is actually such thing like emotional strength a thing that can be objectively measured? Or maybe I was already freaky when I got there? Would I struggle less nowadays with my mental health if I wouldn’t go there? Or maybe I wouldn’t struggle at all? Why I am so afraid of processing my emotions and reacting so weirdly, emotionally and physically, to different, apparently normal stuff that all the other people are indifferent about and don’t think much about?

Well it is certainly more than one question. 😀 But it’s all swirling around one thing, so I look at it as one, big question. It all really makes me wonder.

What would be your questions. 🙂

Question of the day.

What quote or saying do people spout but is complete BS?

In my opinion, such saying, or maybe proverb, or whatever it is, is that there are no irreplaceable people. I don’t actually know if there’s something like this or any equivalent of this in English, but we use it in Polish. And that’s simply not true, I think. Because in my opinion everyone is different, so everyone is irreplaceable. I can’t think of a person who would replace my Mum for me and for my whole family. Misha is not a human, but seems like pets are irreplaceable either, because I don’t think any cat could replace Misha for me. Sure, I could have another cat or whichever pet if I wanted after him, but it wouldn’t replace him. It wouldn’t be like him. I could accept that my Mum passed away or that Misha passed away, I could find other beings to love and care about and who will love and care about me, but I’d still feel lack of that one who passed away. What do you think? And what saying or quote would you choose? 🙂

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Question of the day.

Today my question for you is:

What’s your biggest screw up in the kitchen?

My Answer:

I am not very experienced in cooking, in fact, I’ve never prepared any meals completely on my own. I had some cooking lessons at the boarding school or we were doing some food for ourselves with other students, sometimes I help my Mum with most basic things, but generally I was never good at cooking, maybe because my fine skills are a mess, and I often felt kinda discouraged because I never succeeded in it and felt like it’s something impossible for me to learn. But although sometime ago it was a bit frustrating for me, now I don’t care that much about it, I don’t need to cook for myself, I live with my family, and there still are caterings, restaurants etc, lots of able-bodied people can’t cook as well.

So that being said, I suppose almost every activity I would try to undertake in the kitchen without assistance, would likely end with a massive screw up. The one I can recall at the moment was when I wanted to help my Mum to cut the carrot for the salad and almost ended up cutting my finger out, luckily it didn’t happen, but I hurt it pretty bad and there was a whole lot of blood allover afterwards and my right hand was non functional for quite a while. 😀

How about your screw ups? 🙂

Question of the day.

OK so here is my question for you. I thought I will add my answers too, so even if you’re not answering a question, you can always read something more, plus I think I will enjoy it.

So my question for you guys is: What are your best and worst purchases?

As for mine, the best is surely Misha. I’ve never, just never regret I have him. Surely, there are moments when I’m just mad at him or he annoys me or vice versa, but we are happy together and I wish everyone had such a friendly and loving companion as Misha is for me.

The worst… hard to pick, I usually don’t think much about the worst things I buy, I just get rid of them and continue living, and it’s the more hard that it is not a long time since I can buy things for my own money. So yeah, I’ll pick a thing that actually my Mum bought for me and it is my Braille embosser. I really wanted to have it, thought it would help me in life, in having access to some rare books, or at least parts of them. But it turned out to be a complete failure, it took me ages to find someone who would be good at setting up Braille embossers and could do it for me, and then it turned out something is wrong with it and there was a lot of fuss about it, as far as I remember me and this person who helped me with it didn’t fully resolve the problem and it still wasn’t working exactly as it should. I couldn’t figure out many things in it. Then finally it was (somehow) set up, I was very happy, but we soon moved houses and I had to set it up again and… ugh, I just thought it’s too much effort compared to the advantages I had of it. Plus I’d have to pay that guy to help me once again, which also cost quite a bit. So although it still is in my house, it’s not usable and I don’t think I will use it anymore. It’s a pity though that such things cost so much money and then seem actually useless.

How about your purchases?

Question of the day.

Don’t know if it’ll be a regular series on my blog, depends on whether you guys will like it and whether I will be able to come up with or find online any questions for every day, but decided to give it a try. Here’s my question for you, this one I found on the Behind The Name message board:
What have you gotten away with? How sneaky were you when you were younger? Or was it something recent that you messed up and got away with?