Hey people! 🙂
If you’ve been reading my blog for a while with some involvement (thanks for that btw) and now saw the name Jack in the title, you may be wondering whether the Jack I’m talking about here is my next faza. I can already tell you that the answer is: no. Moreover, sadly, I still haven’t come across my next faza object (or maybe I have but it just haven’t kicked in?… I somehow doubt it but who am I to know, it’s my brain who’s in charge of it, not me, which kind of sucks but at the same time is kind of a blessing, if that makes any sense, but if it doesn’t, I guess it doesn’t really have to, from my point of view, so you don’t need to worry if you don’t really get where I’m coming from, fazas are generally rather illogical and not many people seem to have them). I had been looking, as you might recall, rather frantically and unsuccessfully, for a good few months for a faza object, even though I know it never works like this that I choose who I want to have a faza on, it’s totally random and sometimes even a bit ironical/paradoxical/illogical like with Vreeswijk, and happens on its own, at the right time. But this time round the time is more than right and there has been a huge delay because my faza on Gwil has faded a fair bit (which does not mean I no longer have a faza on Gwil, it’s always a case, or at least has always been, with my major fazas that I have a faza for 2-4 years and then it’s dominant, and after that, after I develop a new faza, the previous one just goes into the background but is still incredibly important for me, just not on the centre stage sort of and I don’t get such strong faza peaks in relation to that particular person) and I’m left with nothing really. Considering that my fazas, as a huge source of fascination and inspiration are also a large part of what my drive in life consists of, my life has felt much more pointless since then and I’ve had an episode of feeling really quite anhedonic and blah about everything. Now I’m no longer as extremely anhedonic and have sort of accepted the situation, also the good thing is that still, with enough focus and effort, I can make myself feel like I had a little faza peak on either Gwilym or Cornelis, which is always something. There’s also that literary faza I’m having – Ravi Reinsen from Daughters of Life by May Grethe Lerum – but literary fazas are always so much less strong, because with a living person there’s a lot of ways in which you can cultivate and grow your faza, while with a literary character, even the most multidimensional one, you just have the book, or a series as in this case, and how many times can you read a single series? Moreover, how substantial will that single source be for the continuous development and exploration of your faza? So while Ravi has a very important place in my Brainworld, not much can be done with it and it sucks. If the series were more popular, perhaps that would be easier, but as unheard of as it is, there’s no way for me to feed the faza so I’m actually surprised that it still lives on after such a long time (about half a year if not more) anyway. But generally, I think I gave up on my frantic search. I know anyway that it’s probably not going to do anything,it has to come on its own. Whether it will is another thing. Perhaps I’ll just no longer have fazas. That would be really super shitty but I’m sure one can get used to it and live on, though the quality of one’s inner life is rather questionable then but there’s not much I can do.
Anyway, as you also might recall, I am a huge Jackophile and because none of my previous faza objects was called Jack or anything similar, I thought it would be so cool having a faza on a Jack, so I was particularly looking for people named Jack, or anything related whose music I could like, also for Hamishes because I’ve recently fallen in love with the name Hamish (my Mum made me realise that it almost sounds like “Hey, Mish! 😀 😀 😀 “, but with Hamishes it was a total failure. I mostly used Spotify for that.
And if not that I am fairly sure that Spotify doesn’t have any such algorithm, cuz in what way would it even work, I’d probably think that it must have picked up somewhat on my looking for Jacks, because while in the past it would be a really rare thing that Spotify would recommend me any Jacks, now I get at least one, or one band featuring a Jack, per month (or thereabouts, I guess) in my Discover Weekly playlist. Never mind that I’ve known and listened to many of them previously, but to some I haven’t or hadn’t had a clue about their existence.
And today, I want to share with you a song by one of these new to me Jacks – Jack Curley! – In fact, he’s super new to me because Spotify only recommended him to me this week. I haven’t even had time yet to sit down and listen more carefully to his other music except this one song.
He’s most likely not a material for my next faza because while I liked this song of his and I think he’s very good vocally and all he’s just a little bit too normal. Yeah, that’s almost always, with a few exceptions, a problem with my Jack candidates for a faza. Actually Jack is such a normal and simple name so perhaps it’s always the case with Jacks, that they’re cool, likeable, but, uh, too normal! Like I said though, I haven’t had a listen to more of his music. Maybe if I will, something will click. Also, one of my major fazas that I’ve had so far – Declan – is also quite normal, I’d say about the same degree as this Jack, and still I developed a faza on him. My criteria are quite narrow anyway so perhaps that’s one reason I can’t find a faza. Maybe people who say I’m snobbish when it comes to music are actually right? Maybe I shouldn’t hold my brain back and get rid of any criteria? But I have to say I’d be kind of afraid then what my brain would pick, seriously you never know with brains. 😀
As far as I understand, he’s relatively new to the music world at least when it comes to releasing his own music. He’s also a Mancunian (I did think at one point it would be so cool if my potential new faza object, apart from being a Jack, was from the north of England, because that’s where Jack Rutter was from and that was what prompted me to think I’d like that at this point, oh and Jack Rutter was one of the few less normal Jacks that I’ve found who appealed to me). So here is Jack Curley’s debut single – Alice. – It’s very normal for my standards but it’s great nevertheless.