Six months.

The time flies so fast… Today is six months since the first post on My Inner Mishmash. I can’t quite believe it! It definitely doesn’t feel like this!

I’m very happy I’m here, and that my safe space is here, and that finally, there is a place online I can really call mine, and safe. The idea that I could start a blog in another language seemed crazy to me, even for a while after I’ve already created this blog. But now I know it was the step in a definitely right direction. It feels so anyway. I also feel like it’s the most successful of my blogs in terms of reaching the audience. I don’t know how many readers, followers or commenters a typical six-month-blog gets and whether I am one of those or get more or less views, I do know though that none of my previous blogs had gotten as many people reading as this one, for various reasons, but mainly because I was blogging in quite niche places – our Polish blind communities online – where there was a slight chance anyone else could find me, other than the members of the community, unless I told them the URL, which really sucked, but a huge advantage of it was that everything was completely accessible. And with my previous WordPress blog, I failed completely at setting it up properly so that neither people could find me, nor I could actually write a single post without hours of torment, hassle, rage and frustration preceeding its publishing, because it was so unaccessible for me. If not the fact that a part of me is phlegmatic after my Dad, so I can be pretty determined and patient if I really want something, I’d surely not exist there for THREE years! 😀 I think that even if I paid someone to set up things for me and make it all polished technicaly, I wouldn’t get very many people to read my posts and certainly not 195 followers. ANd after all, I write partly for others here, because if I want to do it just for myself, I can do it in my diary. SO, yeah, I’m so very happy that my efforts aren’t pointless and that I seem to finally have settled somewhere.

I also hope that if you read my posts, you find something that can affect you in any positive way – I’d love to hear from you about how they affect you – and that you enjoy being a part of My Inner MishMash, regardless of how long you’re here.

I want to thank each one of you – those who follow my blog, read, like or comment my posts. I’m so happy you are here, and I hope you’re glad too. Particularly, I want to thank my regulars – thanks so so much to all of you for sticking with me and supporting me, it means A LOT to me, and it is hugely appreciated.

And, of course, Misha is very very grateful too for all his peep friends and pet friends, and for all his silent audience. He is so happy that some other beings finally treat him and his problems seriously.

Question of the day.

Is there anything you’d like to tell me, or any question you want to ask me?

I’m gonna tell you guys things that I want to tell you at the moment.

My answer:

Hmmm, there could be a lot of things I could tell you, my lovely readers. First of all I’d like to thank you once again for the fact you are here, reading all of my scribbles and for all your likes and comments. I am thankful for all of you – those already 103 followers (yippeee!!!! thanks) and those of you who don’t follow me but still read my blog more or less often. And I am thankful for each one of you separately, all of your reading, likes, comments and follows, that means so much to me. You probably already know that I had a few other blogs before this one, they were much more humble, I even had one Polish blog on WordPress, but I’ve never got so many followers and I could only dream about so many comments and likes, it was in a big part due to my very poor idea as for how to promote myself and that although there are many blogs on Polish blogs, interactions on them are, usually, fairly poor. SO when I came here to the English language WordPress community, I felt shocked immediately, since I was getting likes actually immediately after I published my first post, and it was something I absolutely wouldn’t expect after my experiences with Drimolandia (that was how my previous blog was called). So yeah I’m so thankful for all of you.

What else can I tell you, I think I can tell you a bit about my day. So again, unfortunately, it is a Zombie day. Ughhhh. For those of you who may not know, Zombie day is how I call every day after a night of no sleep. ‘Cause well you literally feel and perceive the world a bit like a Zombie then, don’t you? I hate it so much, but not much I can do about it. It’s after 9 AM now and as for now I feel pretty decent and not sleepy at all, but I know that if I want to keep it this way or at least similarly I’d soon have to help myself with a coffee or two. In my case catching up on sleep during the day isn’t a good option and I do it only when I’m so exhausted that my brain falls into pieces and can’t function anymore because it doesn’t help my sleep cycle to settle and most probably I’d have another night of poor sleep ahead. So I’ll just have to get through it and then go to sleep possibly early hoping my sleep cycle will set up properly at least for a while. Shit I wonder what I’ll do if one of the days when I’ll have my finals will be a Zombie day. That would be a nightmare, but I guess that since I can’t do much about it, I shouldn’t think too much about it as it won’t help. So during that sleepless night I was reading a very interesting book, in Swedish. Almost half a year has passed since the last time I read a book in Swedish, so decided it is definitely a time to change it, and this book seemed so cool. It’s called “Konsten Att Vara Ela” (The art of being Ela) and it’s written by Johanna Nilsson. It’s kinda psychological novel about a girl, or actually a woman, who is very lost in her life, her family has fall apart and she can’t accept it, she isn’t really a grown up and she doesn’t want to be, she wants to be crazy, wild and free and so she’s criticised by her family. She generally feels very lonely, but then she finds a little, neglected girl called Klara whose mum is a druggie and homeless and can’t take care of Klara So Ela takes care of her. And she generally starts to change. Don’t know where it all is going yet, as I’m still in the middle, but it’s very interesting. My Mum woke up very early so I gave up on trying to get at least some little bit sleep in the morning and got up to, it was like 6. We talked about Zofijka’s school. Mum always talks to me about all her issues, that’s nice, well I mean I appreciate it because I guess it has to mean she trusts me, but she also almost always asks me for advice, and this time it was so too. Zofijka’s having lots of trouble at school, with her friends, and Mum doesn’t know what to do about it and how to be objective. The problem is I don’t know either, as I am not a children specialist and don’t plan to be one ever, so I just told her to go with her instinct and she was like oh wow yes you’re right I’ll do so thank you! like I said something extremely original and completely new, which made me kinda confused. 😀 But maybe that’s how it feels for her and if so, I’m glad I could help her. Then also Zofijka came and we all talked about it. She’s so poor, I really feel for her for all these stupid school affairs she’d been thrown in. That’s very complicated plus it’s her thing so I won’t go in the details here, I’ll simply tell you that it is a classic school issue. Because she’s different, has a different view on lots of things, because we as a family are different so she has a slightly different upbringing or way of life or call it what you want and a little different outlook on some things than all of those so very typical kids in her class, she’s now not liked in her class apparently by anyone. And she’s actually alone. It is a big deal for such a social butterfly who is made for and get used to be always in the limelight. And it’s hard to be wise in such situation, you know. Because she also isn’t a docile angel, and can be very moody, bossy, egocentric and stuff, so as we suppose, part of the guilt for why they don’t like her is on her side too. Zofijka was so stressed out that she didn’t even go to school yesterday, Mum actually drove her, but as she got out of the car she started to cry desperately and keep saying she doesn’t want to go to school, so Mum let her stay, if things are so very stressful, one day shouldn’t make much of a change. Today she did go to school though and on her own and I really hope things will be improving. There are always some kind of affairs in Zofijka’s class and somehow she s always involved in them, don’t really know if by her own choice or accidentally and don’t know what to think about it. Now there are only Mum and me and Misha inand I think I’ll soon have that coffee.

And the question I want to ask you, other than the main one is, what do you like the most on my blog?

So yeah, very curious as for your answers for both these questions.

A thank you post.

It’s been over two months since I started blogging here on My Inner MishMash and loving it. But I’m more than sure I would quit it already if you, my readers, wouldn’t encourage me with your comments, likes and follows, ’cause writing just for myself is what I’ve been already doing in my diary so wouldn’t be appealing at all online. I’m so glad you like my writing and would like to thank all of you for visiting my mish-mashy world, everyone of you my readers and (71 now already) followers. And most of all, all those of you who leave me all those interesting, constructive, encouraging and supportive comments, because of your time and engagement you put in. Thanks so much to all of you.

Also, if you have any feedback, ideas, questions… I don’t know, anything about this blog you’d like to share and you think it could contribute to its development, of course I’ll be more than happy to hear your suggestions.

Other than that, I know it’s pretty normal on blogs, whether beginning or established, that the amount of followers is bigger than commenters, but still… I’m always very curious of people as individuals. So I’d really really like to hear from you and about you, if you’ve never commented on here before. I’d love to hear your story and learn a little bit about you, as well as to hear your opinion about my humble blogging attempts, what do you like here the most and what made your decision to follow me? You’re more than welcome to share your thoughts, no matter if many or just a few words.

So yeah, thanks again to all of you, my lovely readers, I hope you feel well in My Inner MishMash and like it here. 🙂