Question of the day.

Do you prefer Christmas or Easter (if you celebrate, if not pick your favourite holiday)?

My answer:

I feel like saying both and neither at the same time. 😀 Both because they’re both very important to me in a spiritual sense, and neither because I mostly dislike the very social aspect of both and they can be super stressful. Well, maybe not just plain dislike, I do think it’s important and an integral part of these festivities but I simply find it quite challenging and exhausting most of the time so I struggle with it on a personal level.

But I think I’ll choose Easter, because, at the end of the day, it is more important for us Christians and the real essence of our faith, and also because it has less of that kitschy, marketing coating that Christmas is wholly covered in, and which puts me off a bit more each year. It’s not quite so infantile. There’s no Easter music haunting you everywhere from the start of lent so that by the time the actual holiday comes it comes out your ears, as is the case with Christmas. The general craze with shopping, decorating etc. seems a bit lighter. Oh yeah and in recent years, I seem to have followed my Mum and started to really like Lent for all the specifically Lenten prayers and things like that. I used not to like it very much at all but these days I do. And then when it ends, somehow I also feel more joyful than at the end of Advent. Speaking of the ending of Lent, I love the Paschal Triduum and especially the rich, complex and loooong liturgy of the Paschal Vigil. The Midnight Mass on Christmas has a great feel too, but the Easter Vigil is kind of more mysterious, for lack of a better word.

But I do like Christmas food more than Easter food. Maybe it’s just my family and not a generally Polish thing but I feel like there’s a lot more diversity and generally a lot more traditions for Christmas dishes vs Easter dishes, and the Christmas ones are simply better in my opinion, and my siblings think so too. Generally, despite the greater importance of Easter, we always celebrate it more low-key in terms of external festivities like food, presents or what we do on these holidays in general. Like this year for example we didn’t even do presents at all, and that was okay with everyone, we just didn’t feel like doing it this year, especially my Mum. I only bought some candy for Sofi because I promised her a lot earlier that I’ll get her a specific type of candy for Easter that she likes.

How about you? 🙂

Question of the day.

Do you believe in karma? Why?

My answer:

No. The simple answer is because I am Christian, and karma is a strictly hinduist/buddhist concept so it just doesn’t go hand in hand with my beliefs. I don’t believe in reincarnation, and those two thiings are strongly connected, so I can’t believe in karma either. I believe in that good may attract good, and evil may attract evil, but I don’t see it as some sort of a cosmic law which occurs in every single situation, I don’t think it’s something that happens automatically as a rule. Here on Earth, I think this happens mostly due to the fact that our actions usually trigger reactions of others, so if we do something good to them, they may feel inclined to express their gratitude and do something good to us, and if we do a lot of good to a lot of people, naturally we may be experiencing a lot of good in our lives, same goes for evil. But it’s not some process that’s always bound to occur and that always whenever you do something good or bad, it’ll come back to you. People do get away with evil actions and have successful lives, or good people have miserable lives, at times. As for the afterlife, I believe it’s God who judges us after our death, our good deeds and our sins, our choices in life, so what our afterlife ends up being like is the result and consequence of our choices here in this life. God can also reward us during our lives on Earth, if we do a lot of good in our lives, or He can allow difficult things to happen to us which may end up making us better people than we were before. But again, that’s not a rule in this world and there are plenty of very good-natured people, even saints throughout history who had done a whole lot of good deeds yet have suffered incredibly their entire lives.

What about you? 🙂

Stoicism

This is a very powerful post, to which I can hugely relate as someone constantly trying to unlarn bottling up emotions and living with consequences of doing so all the time for years. If you struggle with similar issues, I highly recommend you reading this. 🙂

New Beginnings

We all have a different reaction to pain.

Some of us react externally, such as jump in shock, scream, cry, or become enraged.

Some of us react, but rather internally than externally. Such as concealing the pain deep within the mind, making it appear as though they feel nothing on the outside but truly suffer inside.

Instead, the outside reaction might just be a smile. Or even nothing at all. Almost appearing as though they are immune to the pain inflicted upon them.

Maybe they want nobody to see them in pain. They wouldn’t want people to show any care for them so they can endure their suffering alone. As if nobody would be able to heal them.

Or perhaps they think people would view them as weak. A pathetic human that could never stand a chance through life. They want to eliminate the possibility of being embarrassed by hiding…

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art Bandini – Heb Ffydd (Without Faith).

I don’t know actually anything about this Welsh band. I just heard them in the radio once, this particular song, and I liked it, but when I searched for them I didn’t get much info. They’re not even on Youtube, Spotify or SoundCloud, so the link to the song I’ll give you will be to my Dropbox and it will expire after 30 days.

https://www.dropbox.com/s/h4x3jw3gf9a6uyz/Heb%20Ffydd.mp3?dl=0

– Du Måste Finnas (You Must Exist=.

Hi Guys! 🙂

Time for another Helen Sjöholm’s song from my favourites by her. This one is my absolute favourite of these.

It comes from a musical called “Kristina Från Duvemåla (Kristina From Duvemåla”, which was written by Björn Ulveus and the music was written by Benny Andersson. The plot was based on the shortstories written by Wilhelm Moberg. It is about a Swedish family and their emigration to US. The main character, Kristina, has a lot to go through. She miscarries her baby, loses her husband, and also feels alienated in the new country. She was a very religious and faithful woman but now as she suffers from so many things, she wonders whether actually GOd exists. She clings in panic to her beliefs, but feels very abandoned and lonely and the more her skepticism arises. ANd this song is about it.

Helen Sjöholm did it so very expressively, it’s thrilling and affecting, so deep and emotional. I think it is so emotional that actually iF I wouldn’t know any Swedish, I could figure out very basically what it is about. Although I must also say that I don’t think there could be any better language to sing this song in than Swedish, it just sounds so great in Swedish.

Both the musical and song have their English versions though and the song is sung by Kerry Ellis, however I must admit that in comparison to Sjöholm’s version, Ellis’ seems almost flat, even though it isn’t bad at all.

As it is usual with musicals, the actual Swedish lyrics to the song are different than those in the ENglish version, so besides both language versions I will also post original Swedish lyrics translated to English exactly.

 

You Must Exist
You drove me out, God,
from my homeland torn away.
Here I’m a refugee and a stranger
and I do accept that as my fate
But You took my child
And You take me from my man.
I can no longer see any meaning.
What is it you want?
What should I think?
The thought is dizzying,
before me opens an abyss,
my whole being is in uproar and wants to say no,
my soul shivers
at the answer to the question I’ve raised;
that You do not exist
though I believed in You.
Who’d help me endure life all the way out here?
Who’d give me the skills and the strength I must show?
Who would comfort me? I am so little on the earth
If You did not exist,
yes, how would I cope?
No, You must exist,
You have to!
I live my life through You.
Without You I am a splinter on a dark and stormy sea.
You must exist,
You have to!
How could You just overlook me?
I would be nowhere,
I would be nothing if You did not exist.
Never before has that been on my tongue or in my mind,
that little word which is frightening and plaguing me so;
the word is “if “, if I have said all of my prayers in vain?
If You do not exist
what will I do?
Who would feel my repentance and then just forgive me?
Freedom in my soul, yes, who would give that to me?
Who’d be there at the end to accept me, after my death?
If You did not exist
who would take my hand then?
No, You must exist,
You have to!
I live my life through You.
Without You I am a splinter on a dark and stormy sea.
You must exist,
You have to!
How could You just overlook me?
I would be nowhere,
I would be nothing if You did not exist.
You must exist,
You have to!
How could You just overlook me?
I would be nowhere,
I would be nothing if You did not exist