The Versatile Blogger Award.

Thanks again to Carol Anne from Therapy Bits

for nominating me, this time for The Versatile Blogger Award. ๐Ÿ™‚ It means a lot to me.

The rules are as follows:

Thank the person who gave you this award and include a link to their blog.

Nominate blogs that you’ve recently discovered or follow regularly.

Share 7 things about yourself that people may not know.

My nominees:

Astrid from Blogging Astrid

, Realities from

Journey With DID

and Michelle from

Musings Of Meandering Spirits

. The 7 facts about me:

I love olives.

I had a cat before Misha named Kiki. He wasn’t officially mine as Misha is because my parents bought him, I don’t remember him very well as I was at the boarding school most of the time then, but I wasn’t very emotionally close to him.

3. I don’t like cosmetics smelling like food.

4. I have about 15 km to the seaside.

5. When I was born, there was a massive storm or other weather phenomenon, anyway our house was out of electricity, hence my Dad says I got used to the darkness and hence I can’t see. ๐Ÿ˜€

6. I don’t want to have children, but because I love names I like naming or helping with naming other people’s kids or playing baby name games.

7. I am a night owl.

 

The TMI tag.

Today I was tagged by absolutely great Carol Anne who blogs at Therapy Bits

to do the TMI tag. Here goes:

What are you currently wearing?

I got out of the shower a few minutes ago and now I’m in my pj’s and dressing gown.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE?

Yes, multiple times.

DID YOU EVER HAD A TERRIBLE BREAKUP?

No.

HOW OLD ARE YOU?

21.

HOW TALL ARE YOU?

168 cm, or 5 feet 6 inches.

HOW MUCH DO YOU WEIGH?

45 kg, 7,09 stone.

DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS?

NoNe.

DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS?

None, I’d like to have one, but don’t have any creative ideas as for now.

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK?

Mm, I like many things, but let’s pick kefir. I love kefir.

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE SONG?

Again, very many, but currently I’ve listened a lot to “Olivia” by Canyon City and it has somehow stuck in my head.

WHATS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?

Aquarius.

HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE YOU TO SHOWER?

Now, as I know I have skin issues and they get worse when I take longer showers, it is very quickly, like three minutes, max five, but I used to take pretty long showers before, even like 20 minutes. Although I’ve never measured the time precisely. ๐Ÿ˜€

whats favorite show?

I don’t watch a lot of TV so don’t really have any very favourite shows.

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE BAND?

As for now, Plu, I think, is my most favourite, but I have many bands I love.

SOMETHING YOU REALLY MISS?

My best friend, well now I don’t know if he still is my best friend as he suddenly stopped writing back to me or contacting me and it lasts this way for quite a long time but I still miss him, but stopped trying to contact him as whatever is the reason, he certainly doesn’t want to talk to me anymore and being optrusive is what I dislike the most in people and wouldn’t like in myself as I know how pissing off it can be.

WHERE DO YOU GO WHEN YOURE SAD?

To my room.

HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE YOU TO GET READY IN THE MORNING?

Depends on my mood and what I have to do. When I’m going somewhere or someone is coming to me, it’s no more than 20 minutes I think, but if I don’t have any plans, it can be even half an hour or if I’m very depressed then even more.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A PHYSICAL FIGHT?

Many times with my siblings. ๐Ÿ˜€ But nothing too serious.

WHAT TURNS YOU ON?

Sense of humour, intelligence, people named Jack or Jacek, people speaking my favourite languages, many things, too many maybe. ๐Ÿ˜€

WHAT TURNS YOU OFF?

Thoughtlessness, shallowness, optrusiveness, ignorance.

QUALITY YOU LOOK FOR IN A PARtner?

Caring, with similar values, intelligent, with a good sense of humour, passionate, versatile, emotional, enthusiastic, introverted.

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?

Black, white, grey, blue, green. And silver.

LOUD MUSIC OR SOFT?

When I’m low, I usually listen to loud music, some rock or metal or Gothic stuff sometimes, I also like to listen to loud music when I’m very happy. But when I’m not toolow I mostly listen to soft music, or when I’m anxious.

FAVOURITE QUOTE?

“If you can sit in silence with a person for half an hour and yet be entirely comfortable, you and that person can be friends. If you cannot, friends you’ll never be and you need not waste time in trying” L. M. Montgomery “Blue Castle”.

Favorite actor?

My previous musical crush Cornelis Vreeswijk played also in a few films, so I choose him, or a Swedish actress Catrine Lundell whom I really admire because she’s an actress despite suffering from chronic and rare disease and in my opinion she plays really well.

DO YOUย  HAVE ANY FEARS? WHAT THEY ARE?

I could make a whole list of fears, and I might, just to see how many pages it will have. ๐Ÿ˜€ To mention a few: anything related to vomiting, interactions with people, heights, wasps, crowds, very large, open spaces, some speciffic sounds and (in some circumstances) silence.

WHATS THE LAST THING THAT MADE YOU CRY?

Being simply overloaded by difficult emotions on my birthday, so a month ago.

MEANING BEHIND YOUR BLOG NAME?

My Inner MishMash relates to my cat’s name Misha and also to the fact that I always have a total mishmash of thoughts, ideas and emotions in my head, but this mishmash is my inner so usually you can feel more or less awarded if you get access to it ๐Ÿ˜€ and I like the word mishmash. As for “what plays in my brain” it’s a paraphrase of a Polish idiom which literally goes like “what plays in ones soul”. If someone asks you to tell them what plays in your soul, they encourage you to confide in them. I am very interested in human brain and all about it, hence “brain”, plus this blog is a place for me where I can write down my thoughts and feelings, and also share with you my favourite music, as music “plays in my brain” almost constantly.

LAST TIME YOU SAID YOU LOVED SOMEONE?

To Misha, about ten minutes ago.

LAST BOOK YOU READ?

“War Of Love” by Aleksander Fredro, my obligatory reading for school.

THE BOOK YOURE CURRENTLY READING?

“Treasures Of The Snow” by Patricia St. John.

LAST SHOW YOU WATCHED?

Mmm too long ago to remember. ๐Ÿ˜€

LAST PLACE YOU WERE?

Zofijka’s room.

LAST SPORT YOU PLAYED?

Horse riding two months ago.

WHOS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO?

Zofijka.

LAST SONG YOU SANG?

Agnes Obel’s “River Side”.

aFAVORITE CHAT UP LINE?

Don’t have one. ๐Ÿ˜€

DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH.

I’ve had lots of very intensive crushes and so called musical crushes, as for now I don’t have any crush that I know in real life, but I have a musical crush called Gwilym Bowen Rhys and it is also a very intensive crush.

THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN YOU AND THE PERSON YOU LAST TEXTED?

My Mum.

FAVORITE FOOD?

Anything spicy.

PLACE YOU WANT TO VISIT?

Sweden once again, UK, Ireland, Finland, Netherlands, Faroe Islands.

WHATS THE LAST TIME YOU KISSED SOMEONe?

Misha about 15 minutes ago.

LAST TIME YOU WERE INSULTED?

Can’t remember really. ๐Ÿ˜€

FAVORITE FLAVOR OF SWEET?

Chocolate I think. But it really depends what kind of sweet stuff it is.

WHAT INSTRUMENT DO YOU PLAY?

I’ve played piano at school and learned guitar for a while but didn’t play for ages and don’t think I remember anything from that. I feel much better as a listener than creator of music and I didn’t like the pressure on music we had at school but now I think it wasn’t that bad because I know something more about music than an average person can know which helps me in understanding and valuing it. I don’t know as much as fully musically educated person as I didn’t finish music school, but was attending to it for a couple years which gave me some understanding of things.

FAVORITE PIECE OF JEWELRY?

My ring made of agate.

LAST TIME YOU HUNG OUT WITH ANYONE?

IRL it had to be very long ago, as I can’t remember. ๐Ÿ˜€

I tag just anyone who’d like to participate. :

 

Question of the day.

OK so here is my question for you. I thought I will add my answers too, so even if you’re not answering a question, you can always read something more, plus I think I will enjoy it.

So my question for you guys is: What are your best and worst purchases?

As for mine, the best is surely Misha. I’ve never, just never regret I have him. Surely, there are moments when I’m just mad at him or he annoys me or vice versa, but we are happy together and I wish everyone had such a friendly and loving companion as Misha is for me.

The worst… hard to pick, I usually don’t think much about the worst things I buy, I just get rid of them and continue living, and it’s the more hard that it is not a long time since I can buy things for my own money. So yeah, I’ll pick a thing that actually my Mum bought for me and it is my Braille embosser. I really wanted to have it, thought it would help me in life, in having access to some rare books, or at least parts of them. But it turned out to be a complete failure, it took me ages to find someone who would be good at setting up Braille embossers and could do it for me, and then it turned out something is wrong with it and there was a lot of fuss about it, as far as I remember me and this person who helped me with it didn’t fully resolve the problem and it still wasn’t working exactly as it should. I couldn’t figure out many things in it. Then finally it was (somehow) set up, I was very happy, but we soon moved houses and I had to set it up again and… ugh, I just thought it’s too much effort compared to the advantages I had of it. Plus I’d have to pay that guy to help me once again, which also cost quite a bit. So although it still is in my house, it’s not usable and I don’t think I will use it anymore. It’s a pity though that such things cost so much money and then seem actually useless.

How about your purchases?

Some random survey for you and me.

I’ve found some random get to know me kind of questions on the web and thought it wouldn’t be a bad idea to share them with all of you, my readers, so that we could answer them and you could get to know me more and I could get to know you.
So if you like this idea, please give me your answers in the comments, or if you prefer you can pingback. Keep your answers as short or long as you want, as there’s nothing that could be too long in terms of writing and I myself always like to hear about other people, their likes, dislikes etc. 1. If you didn’t have to sleep, what would you do with the extra time?
I often feel like I am much more creative at night if I don’t sleep, and beautiful things seem to move me more, so I think it be something creative, like writing. I am sure I would read loads of books and other interesting things and would dedicate this time for discovering as many beautiful things in the world as possible. 2. What would your perfect bedroom look like?
Mm, my current one is great, very cosy and pleasant and very much like me. What’s sure, I would ask my Mum to make it beautiful, I find my Mum an expert in interior design and everything house related. I would like my bedroom to be classy, cosy, rather not too modern, I would like to keep my current bed which is definitely too big for one person, but very comfy and I am very happy I don’t need to share it with anyone. I would like to have a place for all my gem stones and stone figurines, have some flowers and I would like it to be in harmony with my personality. as for colours I wouldn’t like to have anything red and I’d prefer colours like black, white, grey, blue and green. My current bedroom is dominated by green and I like that. 3. What fictional place would you most like to go?
Avalon, Valhalla or Asgard.
4. When was the last time you went for a walk?
On Wednesday, we went with my Mum for a long walk almost across our whole town. Now I don’t think it will be very soon I’ll go out for a longer walk because of my current issues with the leg. 5. What songs have you completely memorised?
When I get a musical crush, and I am always having some musical crush since 2009, I tend to listen to his/her music over and over and over and over again, with some breaks, but still very frequently, so I can memorise a lot of their music. I know Enya’s “Evacuee” and “Exile” by heart, some songs by Cornelis Vreeswijk, especially those that i’ve translated or tried to translate into Polish, I knew a lot of Declan Galbraith’s songs quite well, but now I forgot a lot of it. It’s different with Gwilym now, my current crush, because I am still not very efficient in Welsh language so it’s hard for me to memorise songs if I don’t put a conscious effort into it. However before I started my Welsh course, I tried different methods of learning vocab and my Swedish teacher recommended me to memorise a lot of songs, poems and everything rhyming or that is easy to remember. So I know quite a few traditional Welsh songs like “Calon Lรขn”, “Gwydr Glas”, “Lisa Lรขn” or “Arhyd Y Nos” etc. Oh and some Zofijka’s stupid songs she plays over and over so everyone at home knows them and there are things ranging from One Direction to kids songs to disco polo. 6. What are some small things that make your day better?
Misha (oops, I think he wouldn’t be happy if he saw I called him a “small thing”, but oh well, he’s not here, anyway, Misha’s affection and all he does for me, just his presence), beautiful things, like if I hear some beautiful words in any of my languages that I’ve never heard before, great music, an interesting book, a good laugh with Zofijka, delicious food, and so on and so on. A lot of things really. 7. How often do you people watch?
Honestly? All the time. You may think it’s hard or impossible if you’re blind, but I love to observe people’s behaviours, personalities, reactions, emotions, what they do and how they talk and about what. Just of curiosity. I like to imagine different things about them. My Mum and Zofijka are the same, just total, compulsive people watchers, but about looks. They will tell you all the details about a person they’ve seen even if it was just for a while – how she was dressed, how she walked, how she looked at people, etc. etc. It’s a bit like addiction. Sometimes it annoys me I pay so much attention to other people especially if things they do are in any way annoying for me. 8. What have you only recently formed an opinion about?
Hm, not sure. I like to have opinions about many things, but once I form them, I always internalise them and think about them a lot, so I get used to having them quickly, but although I don’t remember now any of my recent opinions, I’m sure I formed at least one new recently. 9. What is the most annoying question people ask you?
As much as I like to educate people about my blindness and answer their constructive questions about it, it always annoys me when people ask about things that are completely unrelated to my blindness, but people think that because I am blind, I can’t do them. For instance people ask me horribly often how can I have dreams if I can’t see. Where do you have a connection between dreams and sight? I don’t believe sighted people’s dreams are only visual and all the other senses are completely not involved. The absolute hit was when I was on a pilgrimage with my family and one elderly lady asked my gramma with total amazement: “How does she walk if she can’t see?”. ๐Ÿ˜€ Also, some members of my Dad’s family annoy me greatly asking me every time they see me (so once a month or more often) how many languages do I speak already. ๐Ÿ˜€ I don’t know if they really think I am such a genius that I can learn a language in a month or if it is ironic or something. But most probably they just feel obliged to talk to me and confused about what to talk about, as we don’t have much in common. 10. What is the best thing that happened to you this week?
That I finally got a confirmation that I can pass my final exam in a school for the blind, not in the school I’m at right now. It will be much easier, because my school isn’t really adjusted for the blind and it would be very hard for me (and for them) technically to take the exams here. The exam stress alone is definitely enough. 11. What are some things you’ve had to unlearn?
Ooooh quite a few. Most of them I’m still unlearning. Bitting my nails and lips, suppressing emotions, self harming when I’m very emotional, panicky avoiding anxiety provoking situations or things, thinking in Polish while speaking/writing in another language, judging people too quickly sometimes just because I have a good instinct and can “feel” them easily. 12. What takes up too much of your time?
Overthinking.
13. What kind of art do you enjoy the most?
Literature and music. I’ve had a friend who was a great sculpturer and he introduced the world of sculpture a little bit to me and I like to look at some beautiful sculptures, but I don’t feel like I know much about that and like I can really appreciate it. 14. What dumb accomplishment are you most proud of?
Dumb accomplishment? I assume it is the kind of accomplishment that isn’t very big and seems easy, but still is an accomplishment? If so… hm, let’s think. Managing Misha’s food, so that I can feed him on my own even if no one else is around. 15. What stereotype do you completely live up to?
I guess there can be many of such stereotypes. It’s hard to think about one in particular though… Well I am half Kashubian (it is an ethnic minority living here in the north of Poland in case you didn’t know) and although I don’t feel very much of a Kashubian myself and am not close to their culture, they say Kashubians are phlegmatic and at least a half of me is surely phlegmatic too. I think I may fit some stereotypes about the blind people too, but not that many. 16. What’s something horrible that everyone should try, at least once?
Fall from the horse. Definitely unforgettable experience. And not that scary after all, at least if you have someone to catch you or you are in the forest or anywhere where the ground is possibly soft and safe, brain concussion is definitely not worthy experiencing. 17. Do you have any scars, or birthmarks?
Unfortunately birthmarks are common thing in my family and as I have a very white complexion I have them quite a few, luckily they are rather small, but I would remove all of them most willingly. I have some scars after self harming mainly in boarding school, but since I didn’t want anyone to see, you wouldn’t see them at a first or even third glance, I think, or at least most of them. I had achilles tendons surgery and I have little scars after it and two scars on my calves after skin infections I had that were very hard to heal. 18. What is the last thing you created that you are proud of?
I am working on translating another Vreeswijk’s poem into Polish. If I’ll succeed and if it will really be a good translation, not a parody, I’ll be extremely proud. I am always so hyper every time I translate something by Vreeswijk. I’d love to translate his poems into Polish and show them to people. I don’t know if this makes sense because some people say only Swedes can get him fully as he wrote in Sweden and in Swedish, but I feel like I need to try for some reason, after all he was Dutch, not Swedish, so I am sure his poetry can be more accessible. 19. What is the most immature thing that you do?
The same as I’ve always had a tendency to act more mature that I was, I’ve always had some pretty immature habits or behaviours, so it’s hard to pick something that’s “the most”. I can laugh at very silly things with Zofijka, like toilet humour or very primitive word games or what other people do or say that we find funny, we play very silly games, everyday when we play with Zofijka we pretend Misha can talk and I talk for him, I still bit my nails sometimes, it’s often hard for me to be responsible for many things, I definitely hate changes, which many kids also do I think, especially that my hatred for changes can be really big sometimes, I can make laugh of pretty much anything, of course there are things I am serious about because they matter a lot to me or things like values etc. but it is never hard for me to find something funny about things or be sarcastic about serious things, sometimes it happens a bit involuntarily, that I have quite odd, sarcastic thoughts about things that I think I definitely should stay serious about.
20. What incredibly strong opinion or belief do you have that is completely unimportant in the grand scheme of things?
Nothing comes to mind right now, but I am more than sure I might have a few such opinions.
OK, that’s all from me. I can’t wait to see your answers. ๐Ÿ™‚ Hope you enjoy it.

Share Your World – February 5, 2018.

What would be your ideal fantasy way to spend Monday?
There could be a few ways, I think. But what first came to my mind is, I’d love to go for a second time to Stockholm with my family, even just for a Monday. I’ve been there once and I had absolutely fabulous time.

What one person that you are out of contact with would you like to say thank you to?
That’s gonna be a little bit lengthy story, but I want it to make sense for you guys. My aunt. Well, she isn’t my actual biological aunt, but I’ve always called her so. When I was at the boarding school, in the first few years my Mum was desperately seeking a place nearby the school to live, just temporarily, so that we could live together and this lady, who later became my aunt, was running properties agency (or however it’s called in English, she was selling properties anyway), so my Mum called her and talked to her about the situation. She was very compassionate and incredibly empathetic and said that although it doesn’t seem possible as for now to find my Mum somewhere close to live, maybe she could help in other way. And she literally offered me to be my aunt. She lived just opposite the boarding school and she said we could visit each other and when my Mum would like to visit me, we can stay at hers, so we would have somewhere else to live than at the boarding school while she stays with me. And of course I agreed, although it seemed a bit strange to me at first, but very nice. And she was my aunt for about four years and whenever we were meeting, I remember I was feeling extremely happy and we were always doing something fun, which all was so different from my everyday existence. But then she moved to her daughter to the nearby city and we’ve lost contact gradually, as some other circumstances also appeared. So yeah, I would love to be able to thank her, but now I don’t know if she is even still living, as even then when we were in regular contact she was already an elderly person and had a whole lot of health issues.

List your favorite toys or games as a kid?
I had strange preferences as a kid. I liked to play with glass balls, or iron balls (you know, from wheel bearings), different things in my Dad’s garrage or other things like that, that you wouldn’t actually think a kid might find interesting to play with, seashells, stones, my Mum’s jewellery, figurines, so on… I still have a big box of my childhood toys, which literally are just all sorts of things you wouldn’t expect to be toys. ๐Ÿ˜€ As for games, as a little kid I didn’t play that much with other kids or when I played it usually wasn’t really something I genuinely enjoyed, but when my sis was born and grew a little bit, we started to invent a lot of our own games, of which we have a lot now, but I think I won’t go into details, because I’d have to describe them to you entirely as they’re just our own and it would took quite a long time. ๐Ÿ˜€

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

A lot of things. It was the first week of winter break, which I really appreciated. Traditionally, my little Misha brought me a lot of joy and happiness, along with things like music, books I’ve read etc. I am also very happy about the gifts I got from my closest family members for my birthday, I got a cat made of onyx, a pillow which looks like a cat, a salt lamp and of course, Toffifee! ๐Ÿ˜€ It felt so nice that my parents and siblings know so well what I like and enjoy. And I am extremely happy with how my Welsh language skills have developed last week. Writing and blogging were also huge pleasures for me.

Share Your World – February 5, 2018