Cornelis Vreeswijk – “Felicia Adjö” (Goodbye, Felicia) & Marie Fredriksson – “Felicia Adjö”.

Hi guys! 🙂

I’m feeling a bit in a crush limbo right now. I have a gut feeling that my crush on Gwilym is fading slightly and it’s worrying me that there’s no one on the horizon that could become my dominant crush. Is this the end of crushes for me? Was my aunt seriously right that this is something all people grow out of, or am I getting more depressed or something? I can’t imagine not having a crush, it’s like driving a car that has no fuel, I’m getting a bit panicky. It’s either that I need to save my crush on Gwilym or I need someone new very very soon.

In the meantime, I’ve been looking back on all my delightful crushes lately. Reading all my elaborate diary entries about them and laughing my brain out – not that it was so funny but for some reason reading all that made me laugh, despite they’re still all my crushes, just faded more or less. – And I thought I’d share something from one of my crushes on my blog as well. So why not Cornelis? Also, because I find it really interesting to listen to people’s covers and interpretations of his songs, whether good or bad, just out of curiosity, it will be both the original version of a song by Cornelis Vreeswijk, and a cover by Marie Fredriksson. Yes, Marie Fredriksson from Roxette. She’s had a rich solo career as well, I guess mostly in Swedish. I am not a big fan of her at all, but she did this song in an interesting way, in her own style, and I used to like Roxette as a very, very little child. This was one of the first symptoms of my developing Swedish obsession, I just didn’t know many things Swedish apart from Roxette and Astrid Lindgren and I liked one song by them very very much, but generally Roxette and Marie Fredriksson are not my style, not anymore.

The song I want to share with you is called “Felicia Adjö”, and I guess is one of more popular songs of Vreeswijk. Felicia is a recurring character in his songs and poems, there is one whole album “Felicias Svenska Suite” in which Felicia is present in pretty much every song I guess. I wonder if she was based on someone in real life, like some of his other characters were but we’ll probably never know. The title translates as “Goodbye, Felicia”, but it has nothing to do with the “bye, Felicia” expression haha. The song is some 30 years older than the movie. Though I know that Vreeswijk’s Felicia was an inspiration for some Swedish writers, I guess there is a crime novel called “Felicia Försvann” (Felicia Disappeared) which is the beginning of this song.

And the song is about the fact that Felicia disappeared “As the bird from its nest. As the ice when the spring comes. As love when it’s hurt. As luck with no return”. She is dead like all of us will be some day, and with her, his last hope died, whoever the lyrical subject is.

The song had been re-recorded multiple times plus he played it live very often, but the first recording comes from the album called “Tio Vackra Visor Och Personliga Persson”, and I will share this one with you as is is the original. If I remember correctly, the album was recorded around the time when Cornelis played in the film “Svarta Palmkronor” (Black Palm Trees) in Brazil, and spent quite some time in South America, so this album is very much influenced by Brazilian music which you can hear in this song as well.

Marie Fredriksson recorded this song – as well as three others written by Vreeswijk – for the tribute album “Den Flygande Holländaren” (The Flying Dutchman).

So, there you have it, here is Felicia.

Question of the day.

Who was your first crush, celebrity, or non-celebrity?

My answer:

My very first childhood crush was probably my Dad’s friend, I really have no idea why. I only have a vague recollection of him now and can’t see anything interesting about him. 😀 And then there are my famous, intense music crushes, and the first one was Enya. I guess I was about 11-12 when it started. It wasn’t a romantic crush. Enya was someone in between my idol, a kind of soothing presence with her music in my rather chaotic life, a replacement mother figure, like I thought about her that she’s my secret second mummy or something like that, and she was my fascination, like all my music crushes are, and the very first flame which started my whole Celtophilia and all that. She’s no longer my dominant crush since years, but is still there in the background very strongly, like all my music crushes!

How about your first crush? 🙂

Question of the day.

What are you listening to?

My answer:

Well as you may know from one of my recent posts, I’ve just recently got hold of my current music crush’s – Gwilym Bowen Rhys’ – new album. And so, as it’s easy to figure out, I’m listening to it a lot. I couldn’t sleep much last night so I was listening to that album, just as I did last night. It’s so powerful and expressive and full of emotions and zest and, as all Gwilym’s solo albums, is so deliciously acoustic. Not as minimalistic as his previous album – where he was singing either completely acapella or just with the guitar – but it’s still nicely minimalistic, just in a different way, and as much brain melting as everything from Gwilym, and I love it to pieces! Well literally haha, when I was listening to it for the first time, I was so engrossed by it and so overtaken by all the emotions in it that I felt as if my soul and brain and everything was shattered into a million of small pieces and flying around the room, throwing themselves on the walls as if they wanted to fly higher. Don’t know how I picked myself together again. 😀 It is also incredibly flavourful and stimulating from the point of view of my synaesthesia, so, yeah, that was, and still is, amazing. There are also a couple of tracks that I’ve heard before, but didn’t know how they are called or anything, so I’m glad they got published too, as I was very intrigued by them. And many instrumental pieces too. Only when I realised that there are quite a few instrumental pieces on it, as well as some stuff that I”ve already heard, I was really looking forward to one piece – I guess it was a set actually – that I once heard in an interview with both Gwilym and another guy called Gethin Griffiths, and Gwil had such a brilliant guitar solo there, I still have this interview but I had a glimmer of hope that maybe that piece would be there, but never mind, the album is absolutely fabulous, I was craving for some really really really captivating new music for a good while, not necessarily from my crushes even, and finally I am satisfied! 😀 Also I am normally not as spoilt by my other crushes that they would release a new album or anything new as regularly as once a year or so, well Enya creates masterpieces but it takes her years and years, Vreeswijk was a very fertile artist but I guess I’ve reached the point where I’ve discovered all that I could discover living in Poland and having only the Internet as a source, plus he’s no longer alive, Declan seems to be busy with lots of other stuff, so I haven’t been really used to getting fresh music as regularly as it seems to happen with Gwil! 😀 I’m most probably going to share something from this album in the song of the day series some time soon, but first I’d like to listen to it some more, and also get some more info on the background of this album if I can, both because of my own curiosity and just knowing the context of it, as well as for the purpose of the blog post, I won’t be giving you just a song in another language with no context at all. It was such a surprise for me that I don’t know much about it yet. But OK, enough rambling about my Gwilosis.

Other than that, today I haven’t listened to much music yet, am planning to do it soon, I only listened a bit to a Northern Irish BBC radiostation, I like to listen to different BBC radiostations just to be in touch with a lot of diverse English.

And you? 🙂

Question of the day (29th April).

What are you feeling?

My answer:

Ooooooh lots of things now. First, as I wrote with my last question of the day post, I’m a bit sleepy and tired from all the steam that my brain has produced absorbing Welsh language for 2 and a half hours. I’m also a little bit frustrated that it’s going so damn slowly and that I can’t seem to understand much without reading the English translation first. I’m also hopeful though, that it’s going to change if I’m going to be determined enough. I’ve been feeling slightly anxious, that is slightly more than my baseline is, I’m fairly anxious on my baseline already I guess compared with most people, but never mind, it’s not a big deal at this point. But, all that is vague and unimportant now!… Just a few minutes ago, just as I was preparing to write this post and go off to sleep, I got an email, that changed everything for me today! 😀 It sounds like exaggerated and exalted but I’m serious about that actually. I got an email from Bandcamp, notifying me of a “new release from Gwilym Bowen Rhys”! For those uninitiated/not remembering such a small yet very important detail in my Mishmashy world, Gwilym Bowen Rhys is my current crush, my dominant crush that is. Yyyyyyyyyaaayyyyy! I only wonder how could I miss that?! I mean, usually, when such things are about to happen, I know about them way ahead, not just like this, at the last minute. Maybe it was something spontaneous though it doesn’t look like that to me. Well that’s not important now but if not Bandcamp being so kind, I’d probably miss it… and that would be a tragedy! So, OK, how do I feel about it? my crushes always make me feel more positive, more creative, ’cause in a way they’re a bit more than my crushes, they’re like my inspirations, fascinations, they are very important to me, even if it’s ridiculous because I don’t know them personally, I don’t think though that’s a good indicator of who/what should be important to anyone so I don’t know if it really is that ridiculous, they keep me afloat on many of my bad days, help me indirectly to develop myself. I feel very intrigued, and much less sleepy now, and am really looking forward to hearing that album. I believe though that if you’re listening to some piece of music for the first time, and it is important to you, you need the right atmosphere for that if you want to be a good listener and a fair critic. Plus I’ve always had a hint of masochistic tendencies, ( just kidding). But I’m thinking whether maybe I should wait with listening to this album, when I have time to really get into it and when I am fully focused and not sleepy and tired. Some actually say that waiting for something nice is actually more pleasurable than the thing itself… The question is whether I can survive so long, with such an overwhelming curiosity. 😀 We shall see. OK but I’m off to sleep now, it’s past midnight already. ANother thing I’m surprised about, didn’t think it’s that late, i had an honest intention of going to sleep early today. Well hope at least I can sleep well. And going to find Misha to accompany me for the night.

OK so, how about your feelings right now? 🙂

Question of the day.

What’s the oddest crush you’ve ever had?

My answer:

The oddest?… All my crushes are odd, to say the least, particularly my musical crushes, though, truth be told, I didn’t have many other, I mean, most of my crushes that I’ve ever had are music crushes. Well not crushes really, but as most of you may already know, I think the word crush is closest to describe it, though it feels sort of shallow. But… the oddest… I’d have to make some ranking with the different criteria for what’s classified as odd, and then maybe I’d be able to find the one who was more odd than all the rest. Well, but, I guess from my music crushes the oddest would be the one on Vreeswijk, as it was so intense, and… just… odd… Hm.

Oh, but, other than that, I did have a very odd and a very short-lasting crush when I was a kid, and when I say crush, in this regard I do mean a crush. I could be like 7-9 years old, can’t remember exactly, we were building a new house, we lived in the countryside back then and had a very small house on the same backyard as my Mum’s family – her sisters and parents – and we wanted to build a new house, in pretty much the same location, but on my grandparents’ roof and we wanted it to be bigger. This whole building thing lasted for years, and at one point there was my uncle’s friend helping out with it. I just don’t know when or, what’s much more enigmatic and odd, why, but boy did I get a crush on that guy. I really, REALLy don’t know why! He was just such a simpleton, just nothing special about him at all, he couldn’t even speak properly gramatically and was a bit smelly because he was smoking heavily. He was overall nice, that’s for sure, and had fairly decent sense of humour, and that would be all that I could say both positive and at least somehow remarkable about him. So, yeah, I don’t know why I had that crush, what I do know is that the only person who knew about it was my brother, though I don’t think he can still remember it, even I had to really think before it came to my mind haha. I wonder what was so special that I was seeing in him back then. 😀 And this crush was, especially as for my standards, very shortlasting. Can’t say exactly how much it lasted but I’d say maximum 2-3 weeks. I guess for most kids at that age or slightly older such a shortlasting, intense crush on whoever happens to be new and in the eyesight would be a typical thing, our Zofijka have had like three such crushes if I remember well since the start of this school year, however I don’t think I could call myself typical and such things weren’t and aren’t typical for me, I rarely crushed on anyone in my surroundings and if I did I had to have a good reason behind it, so, in my case, something like this was extremely odd. 😀 Also he was much older than me which especially in childhood I think does make a difference. So yeah, that would be my oddest crush I guess. 😀

How about you? 🙂

Gwilym Bowen Rhys – Galargan Dŵr Tryweryn (Lament For Tryweryn’s Water).

Hi. 🙂

so as I told you recently, Gwilym Bowen Rhys’ new album has come out in digital version a few days ago, and I’m still so excited about it. I’ve listened to all the songs for a few times very carefully already and has made a review in my diary as I always do with any music by my crushes.

and I thought I’d share one of the songs on this album with you guys. I’ve actually known it before I even knew this album will come out because Gwilym has sung it on various gigs before and there is some earlier version of this song he sang, on Youtube as well.

But this album version is maybe even better, I really like it.

The album itself is of course very folky, as all Gwilym’s solo work, and, what’s interesting, it’s entirely acoustic. It has been apparently recorded over a three-hour session with only one microphone, and there’s only Gwilym and his guitar, or just acapella. The whole album is a set of old, traditional Welsh songs, and its called “Detholiad O Hen Faledi I”, simply Collection Of Old Ballads I. It’s absolutely brilliant and charismatic and energetic. Actually the only potential reservation I could have is that it is so so short (my crushes always make so very short albums lately :/ ), just 9 tracks, while it was a 3 hour session, but hey, you couldn’t contain a 3-hour long live session into one album, and since it’s called “Detholiad O Hen Faledi I”, it suggests that we can expect a “Detholiad O Hen Faledi II” as well. 😀

The song I want to show you is called “Galargan Dŵr
Tryweryn” and was written by Wmffre Ll. Wmffres. It is about Welsh whisky. Wales, just like other Celtic countries has had a rich and long tradition of distilling whisky, although things have changed in 19th century when Welsh whisky wasn’t produced almost at all. Then a guy called R. J. Price Lloyd decided to change it and established his own distillery, producing “Welsh Royal Whisky”, though it turned out to be unsuccessful and didn’t exist for too long. One of the rivers from where the water for the whisky was distilled was Afon Tryweryn (Tryweryn River), hence Tryweryn’s water of course.

So this song is the author’s tribute to that whisky and an expression of his disappointment that it ceased to exist. The melody comes from Brittany. That’s what I got to know about the song from Gwilym’s

BandCamp page.

I thought I’d share this song since in my opinion it’s one of the best on this album, but also to manifest my own appreciation of whisky, which is actually the only alcohol beverage I ever drink nowadays, even though I’ve never had any other Welsh whisky than Penderyn, which is actually I guess the only one Welsh whisky nowadays.

Since, at least as of yet, the song isn’t available on Youtube or Spotify or SoundCloud, I’ll share it via Dropbox with you and the link will expire after 30 days.

https://www.dropbox.com/s/qg0gacmgwt00neb/Gwilym%20Bowen%20Rhys%20-%20Detholiad%20o%20Hen%20Faledi%20I%20-%2002%20Galargan%20Dwr%20Tryweryn.mp3?dl=0