My 7 Favourite Things.

I’ve been tagged by lovely Nova

for My 7 Favourite Things tag, yaaay! ๐Ÿ˜Š Thank you very much. ๐Ÿ™‚ The tag was created by Beth,

thanks for providing us with this fun thing. ๐Ÿ™‚

Here are the rules:

 

  1. Link back and thank the person who tagged you.
  2. Link back and thank the blogger who started the tag.
  3. List and picture at least seven of your favorite things.
  4. Tag at least seven people.
  5. List the rules.

I guess most of my readers already know that I’m blind, so I felt a little hesitant about the picture part. I mean I could do it but I’d need a lot of help with it, someone would have to take them for me so I was inclined to just list my favourite things and don’t bother with the photos. But actually I know it would be much more fun for you if there were some pictures and my Mum was able to help me out, and I always wanted to someday make my blog at least a little bit more attractive by adding at least a few pictures, so why not now haha. I just hope I won’t screw up anything while editing them so please if something looks wrong or not quite as it should let me know. ๐Ÿ˜€

Ok here we go:

ย ย  1.

Misha.

My Russian blue cat Misha
Misha
My Russian blue cat Misha
Misha
My Russian blue cat Misha
Misha

2.

This little rascal here, this is my favourite toy to torment.

My sister Zofijka on the beach in her swimsuit.
My sister Zofijka

3.

My gem stones. Here are just a few of many.

Some of my gem stones
My gem stones

4.

My “Purr” T-shirt. I got one T-shirt from my sis for Christmas as you might recall and then another one last month. It’s red, which I don’t like, but other than that I love it so much that I can even tolerate the colour.

 

Me wearing a red T-shirt with a tactile writing of the word "Purr" on it.
Me in my purr T-shirt.

5.

My bed. As long as I have nice dreams.

Mine and Misha's bed
My bed

6.

Plextalk Linio Pocket. This is the thing with which I read books (with speech synthesis or audiobooks), listen to music, radio, podcasts, can record audiofiles etc.

Plextalk Linio Pocket - a device for the visually impaired
Plextalk Linio Pocket

7.

Braille-Sense Plus. My mate of 11 years that I owe a lot to but will be happy to replace with a new one as soon as possible, he’s getting a bit too senile. It has a Braille display so I can read books or anything else on it on my own, which I prefer to speech synthesis, write, use the Internet to some extend, use as a Braille display for the computer, etc.

Braille-Sense - Braille notetaker for the blind
Braille-Sense

I tag:

Paula,

Meg,

Ashley,

Astrid,

Ellen

Carol Anne

and Jay-Lyn

Of course there are no obligations here, so only do this if you feel like it, and if it’s more of a problem for you with pics than for me then I guess you can skip it and that will be OK too. ๐Ÿ™‚ Just have fun. ๐Ÿ™‚

OK, so that would be it, I hope you enjoyed and that I did it right hahaha.

Share Your World.

Share Your World At Cee’s.

 

Again, this week, after a bit of a break, I’m participating in Share Your World.

 

A class you wish you would have taken?

I wish I could take classes from all my languages. I don’t mean at college or anything, just some sort of good courses, that could be relevant to me and accessible to me as a blind person, whether online or somewhere in my area, I don’t care if individual or in a group. I am mentioning this because as much as it isn’t particularly difficult to find an accesible course online in such languages like English, Swedish, Dutch, or even Finnish if you’ll try a bit more, with the rest of my favourites you have to really try hard, be patient and inquiring, and very determined, to actually find something. I find it an absolute miracle that I’ve found that Welsh course I’m doing right now, that it is so accessible, simple and effective and with such a supportive community, and moreover, that the same people also created courses in Cornish, Manx and Dutch, so that I don’t have to look for another place, also I’ve had great friends from Wales outside from that community who helped me a lot particularly at the very beginnings. But if you think of another favourite languages of mine, like Faroese, Sami, or Frisian, or Scottish Gaelic, or Scots or Shetlandic, or Irish… uhhhh things get tougher. The consolation may be that many of the languages I love are more or less related, so maybe it won’t all be that scary, I wouldn’t like to give up just because something isn’t accessible online. So yeah, I just try to not think about that right now, maybe until I’ll start to learn them I’ll find some good place for myself, or someone eager to help with those extremely rare, extincting languages. But other than languages, I’d love to learn about Celtic and Nordic cultures, and I’d love to take classes in playing Celtic harp. And if I were sighted, I’d want to be a neurosurgeon, so anything on that topic too.

Are you scared of heights?

Yes. I used to be very very very like VERY scared of heights, now it lessened kinda on its own so it’s easier, but I still am.

Are you a good cook? If so, do you consider yourself a chef?

Absolutely not. My cooking always ends up with a catastrophe. You rather don’t trust me with it. Last time I tried to magnanimously help my Mum make a big family dinner earlier this year, I ended up with two fingers bleeding quite massively, I mean maybe not really bad, but bad enough that you wouldn’t think I’ve just grated them accidentally instead of vegs. I have a rich history of similar and worse cases from the times when I was at the boarding school.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? ย Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Misha, writing, blogging, progress in my languages. Good session with the therapist, and that we got along and have similar opinions on me changing therapists. That I translated my previous music crush’s another poem, I’m still over the moon about that. That I had a beautiful dream the other night involving my current music crush. (God, my crushes, what I’d be without them) That we had a cool day on the beach with Mum and Zofijka. And that I’m doing fairly well emotionally and that my anxiety has lessened a bit more since that dreadful nightmare I had.

 

Friendly Fill-ins.

I’m participating in Friendly Fill-ins, hosted by

15 And Meowing

and

Four-Legged Furballs.

Here are the fill-ins:

1. I have faith in ________________ God.
2. Yesterday, I ____________________ had a long, warm bath with jasmine oil. I haven’t had one in ages, I try to avoid baths because of my skin which decided to suddenly become hypersensitive to almost everything last winter and is always very dry and itchy after too much water. But this time everything is OK and that’s great.
3. My favorite place to be is _________ my room.
4. If I was granted one wish, it would be _________ for Misha to be happy every second in his entire life.

 

Friendly Fill-ins.

I am participating in this week’s Friendly Fill-ins, hosted by

15 And Meowing

and

Four-Legged Furballs.

 

 

  1. I deserve a gold star for _________________ doing my Welsh course despite the heat today.
  2. Right now, I am loving _____________. the fact that my anxiety is lessening noticeably.
  3. The best advice Iโ€™ve ever been given is _________. don’t adjust to others because you’re different from them and don’t fit in their box. DO them the favour and let them adjust to you, it will test their creativity and let them think more. That’s what my Swedish teacher said to me. It’s not always that easy as there are people in this world who don’t even know what creativity is and how to think and always want others to fit in their limited frameworks, just can’t realise there can be anything else outside of them, but it’s funny and I like this approach and use it when I can, however not in every case yet, I’m working on it. ๐Ÿ˜€
    1. If I had to choose a new first name, it would be _________. hm, I guess Eliza… Actually, I am lucky because I already could choose a new first name for myself and I am happy with it and it fits me, so I don’t have any other dream choice that I’d love, that would fit me and be realistic and not troublesome, but when I wanted to change my name legally, along with Emilia I was considering Eliza. The reason why I didn’t choose it finally is that as much as I love it, I don’t feel it really fits my personality, there is a lot that fits but also a lot that doesn’t. and also my confirmation name already is Luiza, so even though you don’t use your confirmation name, I would feel rather weird as an Eliza Anna Luiza. ๐Ÿ˜€ Or maybe I could be Helena. In opposite to Eliza it could be a bit wishy-washy on me, I think, but I love the name itself. In an English-speaking country I would be a Jacqueline. Or maybe not. Maybe not a Jacqueline. I should be a Jill, so that when I finally meet my Jack, we’d be Jack and Jill. ๐Ÿ˜€ No I’m just kidding though, Jill is OK< but I wouldn’t like to be called Jill, I think.

 

Share Your World.

Here are Cee’s questions for this week’sShare Your World

and my answers.

 

In regards to puzzle whatโ€™s your choice: jigsaw, crossword, word search, mazes, logic or numeric puzzles, something else, or nothing?

I have never been a big fan of puzzles, maybe because of my blindness, but I do like word games so sometimes I used to play word search, and I still sometimes happen to play jigsaw puzzles with Zofijka.

List at least five favorite treats and it doesnโ€™t necessarily have to be food.

Chocolate, anything spicy – particularly crisps, listening to my favourite music, buying new gem stones to my collection, Misha, anything to do with Misha.

What is your favorite type of dog? (can be anything from a specific breed, a stuffed animal or character in a movie)

Hm, I have some fondness for Jack Russell terriers just because we were supposed to have one and they seem cute and just because they’re JACK Russell terriers and I love all Jacks unconditionally hahaha. And I like the dog that now lives with my Mum’s family at the place where we lived before, his name is Polar, he is so clever, he just gets humans and what they want from him better than they do themselves.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? ย Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Getting my crush – Gwilym Bowen Rhys’s – new album and listening to it, it’s awesome. Getting in touch with one of the name experts from Nameberry and writing an article about Polish names for Nameberry, that was exciting for me and I enjoyed doing it, I hope something good will come out of it, it’s thrilling. Misha, writing other things and blogging.

 

Share Your World.

A little late this week, I’m catching up on Cee’s

Share Your World.

Since we are approaching the hottest part of our summer in the northern hemisphere, whatโ€™s your favorite ice-cream, frozen yogurt or sorbet flavor? ย (Those of you who live down under Iโ€™m sure you remember what it is like in the hot summer months).

As for ice cream, I love chocolate with mint. I also like berry flavour, chocolate, toffi, many more. I don’t have frozen yoghurt or a classic sorbet very often.

How often do you people watch?

As often as I am around other people. I love people watching, I like to learn more about people, observe their behaviours and personalities, analyse them, etc. so much so that as I often mentioned before my grandad often calls me x-ray, for that I apparently scan people hahaha. Sometimes I’m better at it, sometimes worse, depending on a person, but I like doing it. You just have to always remember there is always an option you may be wrong in what you expect a person to be like, so that you don’t judge them too quickly, as it’s hard to change your mind about them afterwards. So I try to be an open-minded people watcher. I also like to people watch simply when I’m bored and have nothing more interesting to do, funny things you can see sometimes.

If you had a choice which would be your preference salt water beaches, fresh water lakes, ocean cruise, hot tub, ski resort or desert?

Hm, I think salt water beaches. Ocean cruise and hot tub sound very interesting as well, but because of all my motion issues and others alike I don’t think I’d decide on an ocean cruise, and hot tub may be a nice option from time to time, but isn’t very healthy for me on a more regular basis, as my skin gets dry and itchy with too much contact with water, and it couldn’t be too hot ’cause I often get freakin’ dizzy and faint after long hot baths, such a pity.But I really love the sea, so salt water beaches would be just right for me.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? ย Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

It was an almost all alone week for me. My parents had gone to Szczecin for a few days trip last week, and I stayed home with Misha and Olek, but Olek was mainly out at work or with friends. Zofijka was at grandparents’. It was a cool and very productive week for me. Also I got to know that my music crush, Gwilym Bowen Rhys, will be releasing his new album in September which makes me so excited.

 

Currently – July.

Inspired by Astrid at Blogging Astrid, I’m taking part in Currently – hosted by Anne of

In Residence

and Shelly of

The Queen In Between.

Celebrating: a lot of things this month. My grandparents’ 50th wedding anniversary is on Saturday and they’re having a big party with dancing. My aunt has her 40th birthday on 23rd and knowing her I think she’ll also like to make a huge celebration. My Mum is having her nameday on 26th. Ah, and I am celebrating my exam results, particularly English.

Visiting: my grandparents on Saturday as I said. Well actually not them, they’re making it in a restaurant, but still.

Baking: nothing. Most days are pretty warm/hot here now so I don’t think it’s really time for a lot of baking. We have a lot of gooseberry in our garden and Mum has recently made a gooseberry pie, but that’s all. Usually though, my Mum bakes something pretty regularly. Oh, of course she’ll make some cake for her nameday, but it’s still some time until that.

Wearing: lots of airy dresses and skirts.

Loving: Misha. He shows me his attachment all the time lately, and it’s so sweet. I am just so happy I have him.

 

Share Your World.

A bit late this week, I’m joining Cee’s

Share Your World

Tell us about your first bicycle or car?
For obvious reasons I don’t own a car, but I had a tandem bicycle which my Dad bought me and sometimes when it was warm weather and I was at home for longer we were riding. I was never a particular fan of cycling, but it could be fun at times.

What fictional world or place would you like to visit?
Avalon, or Valhalla, or Asgard, or any of the fictional places in L. M. Montgomery’s books. There could be more possibilities if I thought more about it, I’m sure there are tons of fictional places I’d like to visit.

If you could have someone follow you around all the time, like a personal assistant, what would you have them do?
Doing all the smalltalk with people on my behalf, ๐Ÿ˜€ making my favourite meals for me, keeping me company when I need it or am bored or can’t sleep, read books for me, those that I myself can’t, clearing Misha’s litterbox, driving me places, helping me do stuff around the house, helping me with not accessible language courses or booksย  – I think there would be always something they could do. But first and foremost, leaving me alone when I need it, I think it would drive me crazy sooner or later if someone literally followed me everywhere. It could be cool having such an assistant, but it should be a really good person knowing their job and I would have to really trust them, which’s often not that easy process for me nowadays.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? ย Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Misha, progress in my languages, writing, reading, blogging. The fourth anniversary since I got out of the boarding school, I’m so happy and grateful about it, it was 27th June. On 26th six months have passed since I’ve created my blog and I am also happy because of it. It was my nameday on Saturday and I spent a very nice day doing lots of stuff I liked. Zofijka has gone for swimmig camp on Saturday which gave all of us some relief ’cause as I mentioned multiple times she’s a very absorbing kid and we all needed a bit of a break, she’s having fun as far as I know. Misha seems to more outgoing now when Zofijka’s not here and he spends a lot of time with me and seems in a very sociable mood. I even have made a little, but for me very big success with him, namely I was able to convince him that nothing bad will happen if he’ll try to sleep throughout the night with me. And we slept together for the whole Sunday night, he lied beside me on the pillow and was very calm and purring quite loudly as for him when awake, and seemed content. I am proud of Misha that he did it, he never slept with no one for the whole night before, only in his basket on my bed or with a big big distance, or just for a while and then ran away, despite being two years with us. and now he slept through the entire night beside me. And I am proud of myself that I was able to show him it’s not that scary and convince him it can be very nice for both of us. On Sunday I spent a lot of time with my parents and it was very nice.

 

Share Your World.

Cee’s Share Your World

If aliens landed on earth tomorrow and offered to take you home with them, would you go?ย (remember this is SYW, they are friendly aliens)

I’ve never been particularly interested in other planets, or cosmos in general, or anything like this and I’ve always felt like the idea of flying somewhere on a different planet is a bit scary, you know, all those anxieties I have related to motion, doesn’t seem like a pleasant thing. However – I’ve thought about it more now, and I think I would be keen to take a risk. One of my online friends has invented an interesting term a few years ago – namely “alien syndrome” ๐Ÿ˜€ – so literally that you feel like an alien in your environment, and people may perceive you a bit like an alien, etc. all for fun, but I immediately felt like – OH, that’s me. So, being an alien with “alien syndrome”, I shouldn’t waste a chance and I definitely should go with them. And maybe I wouldn’t be an alien then. Yes, it could be very interesting for sure. So I would go with them. Although I think I would miss my earthly family sometimes. Oh! And how I could forget! There’s no way I could go anywhere without Misha, so I’m only going if they let me take him with me. But if they’re “my” aliens, they sure would. ๐Ÿ˜€

How tall are you? Are you satisfied with your height?

I’m 168 cm, so I think something in the middle. I could be a few centimetres taller, but it’s just fine as it is. The more that I actually could end up much worse. I have hypopituitarism and apparently hypothyroidism, so I have growth hormone deficiency and by default I would stop at 140 cm. Grrrrrrrrrr!!! Scary!!! I mean very scary, because my family is rather tall, my brother is 190 cm or maybe more. but of course I was taking hormones so that I would grow more. But then I got an endocrynologist who was a small, corpulent lady and always in awe of my Mum’s height and she wanted me to be as high as my Mum, who is 180, and you just couldn’t persuade her I don’t need to be so tall, I’mย  not gonna be a cheerleader or anything. I wasn’t that happy with it because… well, why the heck do I need to be so tall? But luckily then I changed the endocrynologist suddenly and she was OK with stopping it and understood me and my Mum that such height as 180 cm would be only a hindrance for me, so I stopped taking it, grew a little more by myself and so I’m 168, and happy with it. So maybe I could be something like, 170 cm or maybe even 172, but I’m lucky enough that I’m not too short and not too tall and could almost choose the height I wanted. The benefits of having growth hormone deficiency hahaha.Still though I meet people who say I’m tall, my horse riding instructor actually says it all the time, I guess it’s because I’m slim, the impression my instructor gets is probably because I’ve long legs and she always has to lengthen the stirrups for me no matter who rode before me lol.

Do you think you could live without your smartphone (or other technology item) for 24 hours?

Without my phone, why not? I can even longer. Without my laptop – hard and boring, but manageable if necessary, plus I still have my Braille-Sense that can somehow replace the computer for me, although there are so many things I only do online that whenever I don’t have the Internet for long it can be challenging. But without my reading devices, on which I also have music, particularly without Plextalk, it would be very hard.And very boring. And hardly manageable. I carry my Plextalk everywhere when I go out of the house. ๐Ÿ˜€ I guess I might be a bit addicted, but it’s not PlexTalk I’m addicted to but books and music and sometimes, particularly when I’m on the way to somewheere it’s the only way for me to practice my languages.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? ย Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Misha, starting new level of my Welsh language course, blogging, writing, support from my friends, massage on Friday, which seemed a very hard experience for various and complex reasons which I talked about before, but turned ut to be cool and very relaxing.

 

Friendly Fill-Ins.

I’m participating again in Friendly Fill-ins, hosted by 15 And Meowing

and Four-legged Furballs

  1. My favorite scent is ________________. jasmine, I think. And cofee too, and Misha’s smell when he’s asleep, or just awake.
  2. I hope to __________________ get more sleep this weekend.
  3. Every sound in Misha _________ is music to my ears.
  4. Home is where _________. I feel secure

 

 

Share Your World.

Share Your World

 

You can have an unlimited supply of one thing for the rest of your life, what is it? Sushi? Scotch Tape?

KEFIR!!! There’s never too much kefir.

Teleportation or flying?

Definitely teleportation. I’ve never flew but the prospect of it seems a little bit scary for me. If even riding by car for longer distances makes me dizzy then what it would be like to fly? Teleportation definitely feels safer and more pleasant.

Would you rather live where it only snows or the temperature never falls below 100 degrees?

I think I’m gonna pick snow. It can be annoying, but I much prefer colder temps to the heat. I mean it’s nice when it’s warm for a while, but long term it can make me pretty sick, so the snows sound much better. You can still turn the heating on or wrap up in as many blankets as you wish. When you’re hot, there’s not much you can do to really cool down.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? ย Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Last week was really good for me. As always, I’m thankful for Misha, and I appreciated all the opportunities I had to blog, read, write, and any progress in my languages I’ve made, particularly in Swedish. On Sunday I was on the trip to the Hel Peninsula with my family, which went really well. We were on the beach and just hanging around, also had ice cream enjoyed ourselves.

Friendly Fill-ins.

If you too would like to participate in this week’s Friendly Fill-ins, go over to 15 and Meowing

or to

Four-Legged Furballs

  1. My neighbors_____________________.
  2. The last thing I purchased online was __________________.
  3. I have never _________.
  4. Anything is possible if _________.

My answers:

 

  1. My neighbors_____________________. a middle-aged couple, they are as different from each other as it can only be possible.
  2. The last thing I purchased online was __________________. a pair of skunk slippers for Zofijka.
  3. I have never _________. eaten sushi, but I don’t think there’s something to regret about it, I don’t think I’d like it.
  4. Anything is possible if _________. your autosuggestion and imagination work properly.

 

 

3.2.1 Quote Me!

Ashley over at Mental Health @ Home

has tagged me for the new game – 3.2.1 Quote Me! created by Rory at A Guy Called Bloke & K9 Doodlepip

Here’s what he has to say about it:

 

Everyone loves quotes right?

So l figured to introduce a bit of light hearted fun with this series. Itโ€™s simple:

Every day l will pick a topic, post 2 quotes and nominate 3 bloggers, who in turn will post 2 quotes on that topic and nominate 3 bloggers of their own and letโ€™s see how far we can take that topic for the day.

Rules:

Thank the Selector
Post 2 quotes for the dedicated Topic of the Day.
Select 3 bloggers to take part in โ€˜3.2.1 Quote Me!โ€™

Topic For Today: Age โ€“ Age, Ageing, Aged.

 

Aging can be fun if you lay back and enjoy it.

Clint Eastwood

There’s no such thing as aging, but maturing and knowledge. It’s beautiful, I call that beauty.

Celine Dion

I tag:

Laura at

All The Shoes I Wear

Chocolate Hun at

Chocolate Vybz

and Cyranny at

Cyranny’s Cove

Share Your World.

Here are this week’s questions for Cee’s Share Your World and my answers. If you’d like to participate in SYW, too, you can go over to Cee’s post here.

https://ceenphotography.com/2018/05/14/share-your-world-may-14-2018/

Complete this sentence: This sandwich could really use some โ€ฆ
…spices. Well it depends on the kind of this sandwich, I am not this sort of person who likes really weird tasting things and mixing up honey with chilli or anything like this, but if we are talking about cheese sandwiches, or any other that go well with spices, I need some spices on it. I love spicy food. It tastes weird when your sandwich is all covered with spices though. I like adding chilli pepper, black pepper or Cayenne pepper the most. I am not a big fan of sauces. My Dad is though, and he also likes spicy sandwiches, and you can find everything and anything on his. He likes making sandwiches for himself and for others and he usually pours them lavishly with a sauce, be it a dressing, mayo, ketchup, or even a chilli sauce, to the extend that sometimes the bread actually absorbs it and all you feel is sauce. I’ve been eating a lot of sprouts with my sandwiches lately and believe me, adding them makes a difference, the food feels like… dunno, fresher, or more concrete. I hate ham though, or salami, or stuff like that and it is because when I was at school we had sandwiches with ham for almost every breakfast and supper. I can’t stand it nowadays, unless baked or homemade.

What is your least favorite candy?
I don’t like most of those candies with gooey feelings, I like some toffi candies, but generally I don’t like the gooey fillings. I hate marshmallows and anything marshmallow-ish in texture. And anything that pretends to be chocolate. I also don’t like candies filled with alcohol and the kinds that are sooo incredibly sour, although I like some moderately sour candies. But what I hate the most are chocolate truffles. Ughhh I really don’t know why I hate them so much, but I also really don’t know how anyone can like them and why. Some say they are such luxurious candies, but for me they’re just… ew… can’t find an adequate word. Of course no offense to those who like them, who seems to be many, just because I hate them doesn’t mean you have too or that I hate you too because you like truffles lol.

What sign are you? Do you believe in astrology?

I am an Aquarius. Do I believe in astrology, hmm, that’s a complex thing… Generally, I don’t believe in horoscopes that you can find in magazines or online just next to all kinds of news. They are just ridiculous and the only reason I can think of for reading them is to laugh. Also I wouldn’t say that the characteristics of Aquarius you can find on most astrological websites fits me, well there are things that do, but overall it’s nothing that could describe me well and I feel like I could relate to characteristics of other signs much easier, like Pisces, or Gemini, or maybe Cancer in some way. But on the other hand, the descriptions on the popular sites can be very vague, plus it is not only your birth sign involved in it. There are also other astrological factors that make for what you’re like. And there are books on the topic which go deeper into details about the particular signs, their traits, tendencies and such, as well as how the people born in particular decades of the sign can differ etc. And there still are other factors, not astrological, that shape us, lots and lots of them, so we shouldn’t expect from an online, not personalised astrological description to fit us perfectly. I’ve been fascinated in different types of people’s personalities, plus I had a stormy episode in my life when I was interested in everything related to esoterics, and I observed that actually some more detailed characteristics can fit people very often. And that’s why I can say I believe in astrology. “But wait… you told me you are Christian”. Did you think so? Yes, I am Christian and I am a practitioner. I am no longer so very interested in astrology and all things esoteric as I was as a teen. And I don’t want to know my future, it won’t change anything and it is overly audacious in my opinion to want to know it. If we were supposed to know the future, we would live in the future, not in the present, or we would all be seers. But astrology makes sense, if you look at it rationally. After all, in the medieval times, it was common for monks and clergy to be astrologists. Only now, when astrology became commercialised and people make a huge business of it, it looks so ridiculous and superstitious and seems to evolve only around three line love horoscopes for desperate singles. My Mum, who is also a practicing Christian and helped me to kinda re-convert and get out of that spiritual mud I was sinking in, also believes astrology makes a lot of sense. My Mum has a moon calendar and as a lifestyle geek is very interested in how the Moon affects our health, and also growth of plants and similar things. She says that if the Moon can affect our body, if women used to always get period with the full moon, why can’t it affect us on other levels? There is even such a branch of astrology apparently, astrological medicine. I had a book about it, a very old book written in very beautiful, archaic Polish. And there was a whole long chapter on what may particular signs tend to struggle with health wise. ANd I checked it just for fun, whether it is true for me and Mum. And of course it was an old book, so there were stuff that we nowadays don’t suffer from, but there were things that are still actual and that we could relate to, which made us laugh and very surprised. So yeah, I don’t involve in astrology too much, but I do believe in it. As I believe in a few other things considered superstitious, controversial, sinful, foolish or outmoded.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Misha, blogging. Writing my math exam and two English exams. Math exam probably went very badly, but I’ll wait until the results come. I don’t worry too much about it. I mean, it would be fantastic if I passed it, I would love it, I worked so much on it, but I won’t be desperate, and won’t take the exam again if it’ll go wrong. But I’ll actually be surprised if I’d pass it because my brain felt really empty when I was writing it and I actually was writing for the sake of writing, so that the committee wouldn’t think I’m completely clueless, it was pure improvising. But you can’t imagine how happy I was when I got out of the school. It was my last direct meeting with maths. I felt so relieved and free afterwards. I spent a nice afternoon that day, having a huge plate of spaghetti with garlic and pepper at the Italian restaurant nearby and walking around the city with my family. Then we went to the hostel where we were living at the time of my exams and because my stress was huge in the morning and then dropped so suddenly, it left me with a very annoying headache, so althugh it was just 4 PM I went to bed and spent there the rest of that day, but it was still very productive, because I was reading my first book in Welsh. Nooo not Mabinogion yet, a book for children. “Matilda” by Roald Dahl, in Welsh version. And I was laughing a lot with Zofijka. English was easy-peasy, and I also appreciated that. My committee at both English exams couldn’t believe how quickly I wrote both of them. You have 4 h 15 mins in total for each exam, and I did it in 1 hour 45 mins. ๐Ÿ˜€ I was even more happy that I didn’t have any more encounters with the headmistress of the school, as I had last week. And I was very happy to go home. That was the most pleasant thing last week. also I was focusing a lot on my past this week, in terms of whether it is traumatic or not and why etc. and my Mum wanted to talk a lot about it, since it’s not only a deal for me. Emotionally it was a little intense at times this past week. On Sunday we went out to have some ice cream and have a walk by the sea. It was very very windy there so we ended up taking our ice cream and heading back home with them as we weren’t prepared for that windy weather. There are only 15 km from us to the beach we went to and it was a very sunny day where we live, but although there was still sun shining at the beach, the wind was really strong and cold and we were in short sleeves.

G2K.

G2K is a new series at

Revenge Of Eve

and it is a lot of fun. I strongly recommend you to join in if you’d like your readers to learn more about you.

โ€ข Who has always stood by your side?

I’d say my Mum, because she has, even if I didn’t know it or she didn’t express it, but a person about whom I know that always has stood by my side, even if he’s been doing it silently, is my grandad.

โ€ข What year were you born?
1997.

โ€ข Where were you born?
Pretty much in the same area where I live now, just in the town where the closest hospital with a delivery room was, and I live in the north of Poland.

โ€ข When is your birthday?
1st February.

โ€ข How many siblings do you have?
19-year-old brother Olek (Aleksander), currently learning to become a mechanic, exploring all the pleasures of newly gained adulthood, and also finishing this year, and exploring tons of new strategies for how to make money easily, and 10-year-old sis Zofijka (Zofia, or Sophie), a real scary screamy monster, but with a huge and fragile heart, always craving for attention, company, fun, movement and food, and since a few weeks a keen lover of skunks.

โ€ข Why is mental health important?
Because it affects your life on all its levels and it is essential to your overall well-being.

Journal prompt: Write a thank you letter to the person who has stood by your side.

Dear Grandad!

I’d like to tell you something I’ve actually never told you in a direct way, and which I now see really needs to be said. There’s so much I can thank you for – your love, acceptance, wisdom, strength, all these loads and loads of useful and not useful at all but interesting things, all the traits I have inherited after you, Mum says I have all your advantages and flaws, and although I think it is a little exaggeration, I still think we share a lot and I’m proud that I am similar to you because I admire you for so much…

But what I want to thank you for particularly now is that you’ve always stood by my side. Silently, but confidently, consistently and loyally. I love my family, I think I am lucky because I get along somehow with at least the maternal side of my family and I know they all love me each in their own ways and I love all of them in my own ways, but often there were times when I felt like I’m rejected by them or just not understood at all, like I am not one of them. But you have always believed in me. I think because we are so similar, it was easier for you to step into my shoes and feel what I feel in a certain situation, which wsn’t always what the rest of the family expected from me. Other people had their expectations towards me, often too high for me to meet, but you’ve always accepted me as I am and believed in me, maybe were even a little too uncritical, but well that’s what grandparents are for sometimes. Even if standing by my side meant to oppose all the others, even your most favourite daughter, you never hesitated. And that means so much to me because you could as well stand with them and be just expecting things. But you were always so understanding.

If someone knows me well, they know I hardly ever feel fully safe and secure. But anytime I’m with you, I feel more safe. ‘Cause I know you care about me more that I could expect, even if you never told me about it directly. Words are needless, if someone is a man of action. You’ve never used words more than you have to. And you taught me it’s nothing wrong when you can’t find words for what you feel. I remember all those moments when I was coming home from boarding school for a break and was struggling with something, and I always came to you with it. Not in search for advice, or to talk it through. Just to sit with you in silence, feel the warmth and strength of your hands. If we talked, it was either very brief, ’cause you always seemed to know what I feel, or on a completely different topic. I actually don’t remember talking to you about my struggles a lot or you asking me about them. But that was OK, that’s how our relationship is, and that’s how we both are, it would feel weird and kinda overly sentimental to talk with you about that, imagining it actually makes me laugh. I could describe to you different awful situations, or other bad stuff than happened, but never my feelings in detail,

Thank you for all the support, particularly in the years when no one else was truly and consistently supportive.

Thank you for your humourous approach to all the difficult stuff. You’ve never been overly positive or even optimistic about things, which annoyed me so much in my teen years in other people, but you taught me to laugh off sad things.

There are many more things I want to thank you for, but I’ll just say, thank you for being for me in every sense of this word. You were always somewhere in the background of my life, I even didn’t realise for a long time how much you help me and support me, but I believe so many things would be much more harder to go through without your presence or you thinking about me hundreds of miles away from me.

Mila

 

Friendly Fill-ins.

I haven’t participated in Friendly Fill-ins for a few weeks already, so let’s get back to it.

From now on, Ellen of 15AndMeowing

is collaborating on them with Lorianne of Four-Legged Furballs.

1. I spend… about 7 hours per day online.

2. When I go online, I use my… laptop, or for some things I use my Braille-Sense.

3. Mother’s Day… is on 26th here.

4. I wish… all my finals were over.

 

Share Your World.

So finally time to answer Cee’squestions.

If you were given $22 million tax free dollars (any currency), what is the first thing you would do? (This is just a dream question, remember anything can happen in SYW.)

Oh wow, that sounds so fabulous! I’d share some amount with my immediate family, some amount I would use to help or just make happy some of my friends, maybe would also support some charities. Then I’d buy a brother for Misha and lots of toys and other stuff for them. Not like I crave so much for another cat, but Misha does very clearly. I’d probably buy myself a house, or at least a vacation house, somewhere in the British countryside. And the rest would most probably go to the bank.

In what do you find the simplest of joys?

Misha, his purring, hhrrruing, when he wants to be close with me, which isn’t so very often as he is a reserved creature, blogging and interacting with my readers, laughing at silly things with Zofijka, writing almost whatever, doing stuff with my languages, spending quality time with my Mum, writing with my online friends, reading interesting or funny books, listening to music, particularly my music crushes’, horse riding, developing any of my interests in any way, yummy food/drinks, any achievements in learning languages or in horse riding, sleeping.

What would be your ideal birthday present, and why?

Um, I always have a problem with presents. Whenever I need something small, I always buy it for myself, well I know the best what I want and no one knows me as well as I know myself. So then when people ask me what I want to get for birthday I just don’t know because I have everything I need. Currently there aren’t any things that I can’t get for myself that others could get me as a present. Well I would always appreciate anything that someone bought or made thinking about me and especially for me even just because of the effort they put in it, plus if they put so much effort in it usually it is something I just like because they know what I like.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? ย Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Last week was very stressful for me because of the finals coming. On Thursday we had a little family gathering and it was very nice. On Friday I had to go to that school for the blind to write my finals there. I couldn’t sleep that night and we had to get up at 4 so it was an awful Zombie day. The exam itself went well though, or so I think, because I’ll get the result on 3rd July. Afterwards though there was a very unpleasant incident with the headmistress of that school who not only was incredibly rude to both me and my Mum, but also actually triggered me and the very stormy meeting with her brought memories to my brain of which I actually wasn’t aware before that I have such memories. This was very tough and left me very unsettled so that I couldn’t pick myself up for days, but my family was very supportive which I really appreciate, as well as the support of my friends. I am also glad that I wrote that exam, no matter what the outcome will be. The weekend was rough too, I was just blah and still very triggered, but had some nice time with my Mum and talked through lots of stuff we never talked about before. In some way I also appreciate what happened to me on Friday, because it opened my eyes that I’ve really come through some kind of trauma, which I desperately denied for years as well as I could, and as I said it let to me and my Mum discussing plenty of important things that were, and in some way still are, standing between us.

 

G2K.

Although it’s actually the weekend already, thought I’d catch up on Revenge Of Eve’s new series.

Eve over at Revenge of Eve has launched a new series, G2K,replacing the previous one called WYF.

 

Who does the cleaning in your home?

My Mum, usually.

What pets do you have?

A narcissistic creature that claims to be a Russian blue cat called Misha whom everyone of you already knows because it’s impossible to not know him. Also, my Dad has some aquarium fishes, which Misha is crazy about and still hopes he’ll one day be able to catch one.

When did you have your first boyfriend/girlfriend?

Never actually. I’ve been in love or had various kinds of crushes multiple times, but have never been in an actual relationship.

Where do you live?

Northern Poland.

How did you decide on your career?

My Dad’s accountant suggested to him that he could employ me, since I was studying only part time, so I could earn some money and he would have them returned because so it is here when you employ a disabled person, so he wouldn’t lose anything on it and I could either have some money for some things I want or can save them for the future, which I really appreciate as not many disabled young people are as lucky.

Why do you blog?

For very various reasons. Because I love writing, because I prefer writing than speaking, because having just my own diary started to be not enough for me, because I want to have some more outlet for my emotions and start to share them with others, at least through writing for now, because I want to have some more outlet for what’s going on in my brain, because I started to feel kinda isolated and wanted to get in touch with some more people and find some like-minded ones and maybe make friends with some, because I felt like I need to be more open about my mental health issues, because I wanted to share with someone what’s going on in my life, my fascinations and anything that matters to me, and finally because I want to improve my English skills or maybe also start to communicate more in other languages.

 

Share Your World.

Time to answer Cee’s questions for this week.

Do you use paper money? If so is your money organised sequentially according to denomination?

I use paper money very rarely, most of the time when I do any of my shopping on my own I do it online, and if not, I rather prefer to use coins because it’s easier to distinguish them if you can’t see. But no matter if I use coins or paper money, I always try to have them organised by denomination so I don’t have to spend too much time searching for the one I need, even though nowadays my Mum usually goes with me so she can help me.

You are comfortable doing nothing? For long stretches of time?

Not really. Although I’m not like hyperactive, I am not good at just sitting still and staring on the walls and thinking/meditating. I’m a kind of multi-tasker, at least intellectually, and my brain gets bored easily when I have to just sit still not having anything to really focus on. Unless I have a lot of interesting things to think about.

What is your greatest strength?

Hmm, don’t really know, maybe my empathy? Although it doesn’t always feel like a strength. Hard to say.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Misha, progress in my languages, reading lots of interesting books, finishing school year (yaaaaaaaayyyyy!) and finishing with my Maths lessons. I still can’t quite believe it’s over, probably because I have my final exams yet to pass, but yeah, it’s over, I’ve been so fed up with school and education, well not in education in general, I’m still learning Welsh and stuff, but all that shitty school stuff around which there is always much more fuss than it’s really needed. Although I’ve never cared a lot about marks, it is always nice to hear that you have the highest average among all the classes for adults, which happened to me, much to my surprise, so yeah, I was happy about that. Althoug I felt like it’s a bit unfair – I know there were so many people learning much harder than I did, and caring much more about their results, and for me it all was relatively easy and didn’t crave much work, even despite I was learning mostly on my own, apart from maths.

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TMI Tuesday.

Tell us…
1. The problem with you in 5 words.
I’m too complex and conflicting.
2. 5 things you want in life.
Learn all my languages and do lots of interesting and useful things with them, have something to do as a job which would be satisfactory and not too much anxiety provoking, experience at least one real friendship and romantic relationship, not live too long, be happy. 3. 5 things you need to quit.
Overthinking, escapism, pessimism other than defensive, people pleasing, sleeping or not sleeping at not civilised hours. 4. 5 things you require in a lover.
Creativeness, intelligence, sense of humour, sensitiveness, protectiveness. 5. 5 things you are tired of.
School, anxiety, nightmares, my Dad’s constant ranting, anything to do with mathematics. Bonus: What 5 things will you never share on social media?
My first name before I legally changed it, my phone number, my address, my mental health issues in detail, my pictures other than in profile or something like this. It also depends what kind of social media it is, whether are there any people I know and from where I know them, and how public the information is, but these are things I wouldn’t share completely publically in places like Facebook or Twitter or other big social medias. https://tmituesdayblog.wordpress.com/2018/04/23/tmi-tuesday-april-24-2018/