Going out for a day tomorrow.

Wanted to let you know guys I’m going away tomorrow, will be back late in the evening, but most probably will not be online at all. I’m going with Mum and Zofijka for a pilgrimage. It’s organised by my gramma, there are also lots of other people going and we are going there in a touring car. The place where we’re going to is called Obory, which is a very funny name because it literally means Cowsheds in Polish. I don’t think though it has much to do with cows, there is a sanctuary and we’re going there, having a sort of day for prayer and some spiritual growth. I am a bit anxious about that because I hate being away from home even for a day, and there will be so many people around me, but I am also very curious and actually I think I am looking forward to it, because I feel it might help me to settle again after what happened to me recently, I still feel sort of out of tune after that.

So I hope you’ll be all having a great day tomorrow, and I’ll be leaving you with two posts that I’ve scheduled for tomorrow, they’re the usual song of the day and question of the day posts and they’ll be published early in the morning my time.

Will get back to ya on Thursday. 馃檪 Oh yeah, and I’m going horse riding on Thursday, it’s gonna be great!

Probably going private soon.

Hey guys. 馃檪

Wanted to quickly notify you about one thing.

I am most probably going to make this blog private. It is just what I feel I need to do, to have some more control, over who is able to see my scribbles. I’ll do this tomorrow, and when I’ll figure it out, I’ll be sending invitations to you my readers so that you can access my blog, although you can also request an invite when the site is already private, or email me at jackie . ysbiwr @ gmail . com (without spaces of course 馃榾 ), or in the comments, if you want to be included. I’m going to give the access only to those whom I already know either because they’ve been commenting or from their own blogs, and only those whom I feel I can trust.

Hope you’ll understand and stick with me. 馃檪

A short announcement.

Hey guys! 馃檪
I’m sorry if this post looks weird like has odd typos or is not formatted as it should or whatever – blame my trashy, 11-year-old Braille-Sense, not me! 馃榾 Though I hope it’ll look just fine, and I guess I shouldn’t complain about my Braille-Sense because it’s the only thing I’m left with now.
I’m popping in for a while just to tell you I screwed my computer, then the IT specialist came and saved me – and screwed my screen-reader, or the sound, or whatever, I dunno! whatever it was, it’s screwed up now, and I am a nervous wreck because I don’t know what to do! no one knows what to do and it looks very bizarre if I’m honest, but if oh well isn’t pretty much everything that happensto me more or less bizarre?
Due to this, I have no fricken idea when things will change, what I know though is that until things won’t change, my activity online(if any)will be severely limited. I am actually pretty surprised that my Braille-Sense is still brainy enough to get along with WordPress.
I can’t do much on it though, as the Web browser in it is really very simple and outdated, plus it’s not very comfortable to write lengthy posts on it because it freezes easily and the keyboard is slowly falling apart. Sheesh I can’t wait to get funding for a new one.
So as you see, until I’ll get back my laptop working, thisblog probably won’t be very active,I might only post small updates or (perhaps) question of the day posts, though with the latter it would be rather hard because I’ve planned some questions about music and I can’t add links to posts from here. And I will do my best to answer any comments, but that’s it for now. I’m happy though that I can post at least something from here, that changes things a bit.
So pleeease keep your fingers crossed, send prayers and positive thoughts my and my computer’s way, cus it’s awfully important for me to get it back, as you know I’m pretty much non functional, dependent and isolated without it in my daily life, and writing myself out is as essential for my wellbeing as food.
Have a nice rest of the weekend. 馃檪
PS: Misha is very disappointed he couldn’t write his post yesterday so he sends Mishhugs and Mishpurrs to anyone who may need them and wants to say he tried to escape through the roof once again yesterday, but now promises to berave better. 馃槈

Question of the day.

Hi guys. 馃檪

Here’s the last question from our little series about various people we know, and it’s inspired by the thread on Behind The Name message board. It’s to do strictly with names, and I realise not everyone has their own list of favourite names, the more other people to talk with them about it, but still I don’t think that the topic of names isn’t so very uncommon even for those who aren’t name geeks, so I decided to ask this question. So here it is, and my answer to it.

Have you ever known anyone who hates your very favourite names?

My answer:

Yeah, my Mum. I don’t know why actually, because pretty often we seem to have a bit similar styles in many things, but definitely not in names. We both like traditional names, but I also like some very original names and a lot of names from other cultures, and even the traditional Polish names which we like or some vintage ones are different in their feel. Sheesh, she even hates the name Jacek, despite it’s her husband’s name. I don’t think I could live for 20-ish years with someone whose name I’d hate. He’d have to be really really perfect in all other regards. And by the way, I think if I’d have a husband, and wanted to have kids, I’d also have to look for someone with the exact same taste with names as mine, or not colliding too much with mine haha. I can be a very conciliatory person usually, but I just can’t imagine naming my child a name I really dislike – even for a middle name – just because my husband likes it, and so many mums I know seem to do it. My Mum says my name tastes are to quirky and sophisticated for her. Whereas I can agree for sophisticated somewhat, because I like a lot of quite classy names, particularly for girls, but for boys too, I don’t think my tastes in names are really very quirky. Like I am quirky, and many things I like are quirky, but not necessarily names, I don’t like too much originality with them. Just a bit is OK. Also there are lots of name lovers I know, and I know quite a few whose tastes seem to be definitely different than mine.

How about you?


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Question of the day.

Have you ever known anyone whose house has caught fire?

My answer:

My Polish teacher at the integration school where I was for two years in primary. She had terrible scars after that and I remember she once told me that since then she’s deadly afraid of anything to do with fire. Also at the time when I was in the primary school the boarding part for girls of the school for the blind where I was going to has caught fire. I also know about my Dad’s friend to whom it happened, but I don’t know him personally.

How about you? 馃檪


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Question of the day.

Have you ever known anyone who has written something that was published? My answer:
Yes, quite a lot of people actually. One of my Polish blind friends is regularly publishing short stories, well I haven’t had any contact with her in a while but she was at the time we were talking regularly. I had a chance to meet my favourite writer, Ma艂gorzata Musierowicz, and talk to her, and I was in her house, and we hugged, so I guess I can say I know her somewhat. I know some people I was going to school with ended up as writers and I knew them to a varying degree. And one of my school tutors was one of the authors of a few specialised books on typhlopedagogy as far as I know.


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Share Your World.

Cee’s Share Your World.

 

Which tastes better: black or green olives?
I love olives in general, olives are one of my favourite foods. It doesn’t matter whether black or green.

What鈥檚 your favorite room in your home?
My own.

What fictional family would you be a member of?
There’s such a Polish series I’ve talked about probably more than I can count on this blog, it’s called “Je偶ycjada”, and it’s written by Ma艂gorzata Musierowicz. It is generally perceived as a series for teens, or for girls, or women, but my personal opinion is that it is suitable just for everyone, unless you really crave for a very fast and changeable plot in a book. It’s full of warmth and humour, yummy food, very fascinating characters that at the same time are also just nice to be around. All that with the witty style and erudition of Musierowicz’s on top which make these books way too good to just classify them as your typical books for teens, in fact I don’t thik many of the typical Polish teens would actually read themwith pleasure because of a bit difficult vocabulary at times, for example my Zofijka says they’re boring because she doesn’t understand a lot of words, which in my opinion is weird, but that’s how many teens seem to be nowadays, though Zofijka is maybe just a bit too young because she’s actually 11. And what’s very characteristic to this series is that there is a lot of focus on family life. In the central place we have the Borejko family, living in Pozna艅, and then all their friends and further relatives, so quite a lot of families we can come across. Each book in the series is particularly dedicated to one of the characters (preferably a teenage girl or a young woman, though not always), so we can have a deeper insight into a particular heroine’s family. That being said, I have lots of interesting, loving and cool families to choose from in my favourite series. But I’ll go with the Borejko family, I’d love to be the fifth of the Borejko daughters (there are four), or I could replace Natalia, with whom I strongly identify. This is such a great family and I already feel like a part of it. And OMG I’d love for Mila Borejko to be my Mum, or even just anyone whom I’d know in real life, she has very many traits that I have, so I can understand her and identify with her, but she also has a lot of ones that I don’t have and which I always admire in people and respect them for.And boy wouldn’t it be cool to聽 have four sisters? Or even just three, if I’d be Natalia? 馃榾 One of my other favourite families is the 呕ak family, they’re so funny and witty and always make me laugh when I read the book that is particularly about them, but I am not sure whether I’d actually fit in there, I feel like the Borejko family are a bit more of my kind of people.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? 聽Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Misha, a lot of progress in my languages, particularly Welsh, but also English, writing, blogging. Starting therapy with the new therapist, whatever will come out of it, our first session was pretty good. Getting rid of the anxiety after the nightmares I had a few weeks ago and the anxiety afterwards was hard to overcome fully, it would come back happily in the evenings and at night and I hated it, and now it seems to be gone, I hope I’m not jinxing it.

 

Question of the day.

Hi guys. 馃檪

Here’s today’s question for us all. 馃檪

Have you ever known anyone who has hunted for their own food?

My answer:

Yes, one of my uncles, who is a farmer, does it. As far as I know, hunting is his greatest passion.

How about you? 馃檪


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Question of the day.

Hi people. 馃檪

Here’s another question for you in this little series about people we know.

Have you ever known anyone who had a birthmark in a place people could see?

My answer:

My Mum has quite a big mole on her decolletage so it maybe isn’t visible all the time but when it’s summer so you’re not completely covered up in clothes it is visible, but it’s not like particularly gross or anything or at least she doesn’t make a lot of fuss around it or isn’t uncomfortable with it so I don’t think it makes any difference for her. I have a lot of small moles all over my face, I guess it’s because my skin is like very light, which aren’t very nasty but I don’t really like it, and as far as I know my uncle on Mum’s side, who is also actually my Mum’s uncle so I don’t know whether that’s still called uncle in English, or some sort of grand uncle or whatever, anyway Olek, who is always making fun of people and seeing some embarrassing details about them, he says that that uncle has like an extremely visible and unappealing birthmark next to his lip. Well I don’t know if that’s true that it is really so so bad, but it definitely doesn’t sound cool. I also believe some people on my Dad’s side have some freckles or stuff as they are Kashubians with German descent and some even say Nordic however I don’t know where they got it from, anyway they’re still generally rather light-skinned.

How about you? 馃檪


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Question of the day.

Have you ever known anyone who ran a marathon, or runs marathons?

My answer:

I don’t know him very well, just passed him a few times i the past and heard this and that, but my classmate’s dad was running marathons. He, my classmate, was very proud of him in this regard and often talked about it.

How about you? 馃檪


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Question of the day.

Have you ever known anyone who named their child after a living relative?

My answer:

Plenty of people. I have two cousins who got their middle names after their grandmas, my another cousin has both his names after his grandads, my other cousin’s middle name is also after his grandads, who bear the same name, and my another cousin’s first name is also after our grandad. My another cousin on Dad’s side is named after one of his uncles. One of my aunts is named after her grandmother, who was living at the time she was born. Not to mention all those in my family who have their middle names after their parents’ first names, it’s a common thing in our region and so is with me and my siblings, my Dad’s middle name is also after his dad. And also lots of other people who aren’t my family, I guess most people call their children after someone from their family, which in my opinion is not always good.

How about you? Have those people you know got just the same name as their family member or is it a variation or something that honours them otherwise? Are you also named after any of your relatives? What do you think about doing so? Would you also name your child after a living relative? 馃檪


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Question of the day.

Have you ever known anyone who named their child after a historical figure?

My answer:

Honestly I don’t think so, or just no one comes to mind.

How about you?


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Question of the day.

Have you ever known anyone who named their child after a place?

My answer:

I must have known some name nerds whodid that, I am sure, but I can’t recall anyone at the moment. In real life I don’t know anyone who would do this, because in Poland it’s still rather rare to give children geographic names, it wasn’t allowed for years and I guess it’s one of those kinds of abstractive names for our nation. There are names like Karolina, Florencja, Wirginia, but they are names in the first place, only after they’ve become names, they were used for a place, so it’s more normal, and no one calls their daughter Karolina after South or North Carolina in the US, or Florencja because they had a nice holiday in Florence, although Florencja is a very very rare name.

How about you? Would you yourself consider giving your child a place name? Which? 馃檪


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Share Your World.

Share Your World At Cee’s.

 

Again, this week, after a bit of a break, I’m participating in Share Your World.

 

A class you wish you would have taken?

I wish I could take classes from all my languages. I don’t mean at college or anything, just some sort of good courses, that could be relevant to me and accessible to me as a blind person, whether online or somewhere in my area, I don’t care if individual or in a group. I am mentioning this because as much as it isn’t particularly difficult to find an accesible course online in such languages like English, Swedish, Dutch, or even Finnish if you’ll try a bit more, with the rest of my favourites you have to really try hard, be patient and inquiring, and very determined, to actually find something. I find it an absolute miracle that I’ve found that Welsh course I’m doing right now, that it is so accessible, simple and effective and with such a supportive community, and moreover, that the same people also created courses in Cornish, Manx and Dutch, so that I don’t have to look for another place, also I’ve had great friends from Wales outside from that community who helped me a lot particularly at the very beginnings. But if you think of another favourite languages of mine, like Faroese, Sami, or Frisian, or Scottish Gaelic, or Scots or Shetlandic, or Irish… uhhhh things get tougher. The consolation may be that many of the languages I love are more or less related, so maybe it won’t all be that scary, I wouldn’t like to give up just because something isn’t accessible online. So yeah, I just try to not think about that right now, maybe until I’ll start to learn them I’ll find some good place for myself, or someone eager to help with those extremely rare, extincting languages. But other than languages, I’d love to learn about Celtic and Nordic cultures, and I’d love to take classes in playing Celtic harp. And if I were sighted, I’d want to be a neurosurgeon, so anything on that topic too.

Are you scared of heights?

Yes. I used to be very very very like VERY scared of heights, now it lessened kinda on its own so it’s easier, but I still am.

Are you a good cook? If so, do you consider yourself a chef?

Absolutely not. My cooking always ends up with a catastrophe. You rather don’t trust me with it. Last time I tried to magnanimously help my Mum make a big family dinner earlier this year, I ended up with two fingers bleeding quite massively, I mean maybe not really bad, but bad enough that you wouldn’t think I’ve just grated them accidentally instead of vegs. I have a rich history of similar and worse cases from the times when I was at the boarding school.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? 聽Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Misha, writing, blogging, progress in my languages. Good session with the therapist, and that we got along and have similar opinions on me changing therapists. That I translated my previous music crush’s another poem, I’m still over the moon about that. That I had a beautiful dream the other night involving my current music crush. (God, my crushes, what I’d be without them) That we had a cool day on the beach with Mum and Zofijka. And that I’m doing fairly well emotionally and that my anxiety has lessened a bit more since that dreadful nightmare I had.

 

Question of the day.

Have you ever known anyone who dated, or was friends with someone famous?

My answer:

My school friend’s cousin dated a pretty famous Polish rapper. My another school friend’s dad is a friend of a guy who is a presenter in one of the local radio stations in our region, and he’s quite well known, the presenter I mean, not the girl’s dad. Also, as some of you may remember, I was writing for quite a while with one of my music crushes – Gwilym Bowen Rhys – sadly we don’t write to each other any longer, but I have lots of great memories from that time and I loved it, I think he liked me and it turned out we had quite a lot in common regarding our likes/dislikes. It was a very spontaneous thing to do for me to write to him, but I never regreted it and I think of Gwil as my friend, because our conversations were always rather friendly. I don’t know whether you’d classify him as famous, but he is somewhat famous in Wales, so I guess that may count. I’ve been thinking on writing some longer post on that since a long time already, but I’m still hesitating for many reasons.

How about you? 馃檪


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Question of the day.

Have you ever known anyone who has been on any kind of reality TV show/competition?

My answer:

Yes. The school for the blind where I was going to was pretty much set on music, there was a music school and even many of those students who didn’t have any particular talent for music were attending it, to a point that it felt more than a bit like pressuring for many, not only those without a talent. But there also were lots of people who thanks to this discovered their passion for music, usually singing but often also playing different instruments and many people were participating in different kind of competitions, also sometimes TV competitions. Some of them I knew better, some just a little bit – the school was generally pretty small so people at least heard about each other. Other than reality shows and talent competitions, I had a friend who played in a series as a kid, and became quite known for this, and when I was in nursery – the same place where the school for the blind was practically – they were making a film about it which was once on the TV, and as I mentioned some time ago I was also in it, and a lot of other kids whom I know and with whom I went to schol later on.

How about you? 馃檪


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Friendly Fill-ins.

I’m participating in Friendly Fill-ins, hosted by

15 And Meowing

and

Four-Legged Furballs.

Here are the fill-ins:

1. I have faith in ________________ God.
2. Yesterday, I ____________________ had a long, warm bath with jasmine oil. I haven’t had one in ages, I try to avoid baths because of my skin which decided to suddenly become hypersensitive to almost everything last winter and is always very dry and itchy after too much water. But this time everything is OK and that’s great.
3. My favorite place to be is _________ my room.
4. If I was granted one wish, it would be _________ for Misha to be happy every second in his entire life.

 

Question of the day.

When was the last time you were moved to tears??

My answer:

Hard to say, as I told you a few times on this blog it’s not easy for me to be moved to tears, I may quite often feel at the verge or just be very moved but still not cry, first because still crying is an issue and second because I think that’s simply how I am. And even if I do cry, it’s rarely like fountains of tears, in opposite lots of people in my family on Mum’s side. 馃榾

So I guess the last time I was moved to tears was when I was reading “Battered, Broken, Healed” by Maggie Hartley – Maggie Hartley is a UK foster carer and in this book she describes the story of Jasmine who is an infant and as it turns out later on she was taken into care because her father was abusive. I cried when I was reading about her mum’s experiences, about her abusive relationship, and particularly about how her husband wouldn’t allow her to take care of Jasmine. It somehow moved me, I found it very weird because normally I don’t cry when hearing about people’s sad stories, or it has to be really really really tough or there has to be something that particularly speaks to me for any reason. I am not someone who particularly loves children in general, but I found that really sad, for whatever reason.

The last time I was moved and felt like I’m gonna cry and wanted to, but couldn’t, was when I was listening to my current crush Gwilym Bowen Rhys’s latest album a few days ago, and that’s not very weird, I often feel very moved listening to my crushes’ music, even if it’s not particularly sad, but just when it’s expressive and/or beautiful. I was listening to this album as a whole for third time, this time just to immerse in it, but it still speaks to me.

How about you? What was the thing that moved you so strongly? 馃檪


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Friendly Fill-ins.

Again, I am taking part in Friendly Fill-ins, hosted by

15 And Meowing

and

Four-Legged Furballs.

 

  1. I would like tickets to _____________________. any of my crushes gigs or concerts. Or to the theatre maybe, I haven’t been in theatre for ages.

2 Please don鈥檛 ask me to _______________________. take care of you, keep you company or clean up ifyou’re sick with a norovirus, stomach flu, or anything like this, or even if you’d eaten something poisonous, to watch weird movies with you while people vomit, and don’t ask me to eat something I don’t want to eat because it’s likely then that it will trigger my emetophobia, and don’t do ask me to do anything else that can be potentially associated with vomiting.

  1. I鈥檇 rather _________ be mute, than _________. blind, if I had to choose between these things before birth, though both would be rather frustrating. That’s what my Dad asked me recently. 馃榾 I’d rather be blind than deaf though.

By this time next year, _________. I will be able to read at least books for children in Welsh without feeling like my brain is drained, and will be learning Cornish.