Mystery Blogger Award.

Hi people! 🙂

I was nominated by the fantastic Astrid of

A Multitude Of Musings

for the Mystery Blogger Award! Thank you so very much, Astrid! 😍 Also thanks to

Okoto Enigma

for creating this award. Unfortunately I’m not going to put the award logo with this post as I have completely no idea how to do it.

   Rules:

 

  1. Put the award logo/image on your blog.
  2. List the rules.
  3. Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  4. Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well.
  5. Answer the 5 questions you were asked.
  6. Tell your readers 3 things about yourself.
  7. You have to nominate 10-20 people.
  8. Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog.
  9. Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question (specify).
  10. Share a link to your best post(s).

My answers to Astrid’s questions:

  1. What is your favorite color? – I can’t tell just one. Well I guess I love black the most, but I also love white, blue, green, grey, and some shades of silver, pretty equally.
  2. What is the biggest challenge you face right now? – I’ve been dealing with a lot of anxiety and rumination that I feel has worsened quite a bit over the last few months, especially the rumination part, and some changes in different areas of my life, not big, as in very much life-changing, but still significant, and with my fear of changes.
  3. Do you have any pets? – I have a 3.6-year-old Russian blue cat called Misha, who is the most mine. We also have a mixed-breed 1-year-old dog called Jocky who is particularly Zofijka’s, and we have some fish as well, which are mostly my Dad’s.
  4. (Weird/Funny) Would you want to be the opposite gender for a while if you could? – Meh, not really… Without any offense to the guys (it’s not my intend at all) I don’t think it could be particularly interesting or fun (for me) to be a guy.I think I’m happy being a woman, even though it has its fair share of downsides. That’s why I find it quite hard to personally relate to the issues transgender people face, and I feel it must be horribly daunting not to feel like you are the right gender. Haha, actually, thinking about this question reminded me about the time when I was a little girl, perhaps 6 or 7, and wanted to be a boy just because I wanted to be like my Dad and be named Jacek. 😀 I still love the name Jacek and will probably always will, but I wouldn’t like to be a Jacek myself. That just shows that while I’ve never seriously struggled with my gender identity, I had had real name issue since very early on, until I’ve become an Emilia to the world, and I’m glad that now it’s over. One true advantage of being an adult – you can legally change your name. 😀 Well, OK, perhaps I could be the opposite gender just for a little while, just to see what it’s like, sort of get a broader outlook on the world, understand men a little bit better, just like a kind of experience to learn something from it, that could be something interesting. But nothing that I’d genuinely want very much.
  5. What was your major in college? – I’m always sort of confused about the education system in the English-speaking countries. If we’re talking college as in the UK, like sixth form, after secondary school, I was doing a college for adults, on weekends. I was two years behind my peers, first year because that was just some sort of practice at the school for the blind where I was going to that people were starting a year later and were having a sort of preparation year the previous year, and the second time because of some sort of mishmash with my transition from the integration school back to the school for the blind, long and complicated and boring and irrelevant story. So by the time I was about to start college, I was already an adult and made a decision that it will be easier for me in an adult college. And there weren’t really any subjects we were supposed to choose to study more in depth, as majors, as it works in standard schools like that in Poland. We were all having the same classes from general subjects. However, in my last year, I sort of accidentally learnt that our majors formally were geography and history. But that was just a formality, apparently, and didn’t mean anything in practice. As for college as in America, so like almost a university, I didn’t go to college in that sense. After I did my finals at that school – which as my regular and loyal readers know was a painful process because of many things, but primarily emotionally, it turned out, quite as I expected, that I didn’t pass the math exam. Here, if you don’t pass one subject, in practical terms you don’t pass anything (even if you have 100% from two other exams as I did, haha). And, for reasons that I’ve previously written about on here, I decided not to rewrite that exam, perhaps just for now, perhaps not at all, we shall see.

3 things about me:

1. When I was a child, I wrote a book, consisting of quite a few smaller books, about creatures I made up that were called Parpills. They were black and red and fluffy, and the main character of my book, the Parpill called Parpillo, had loads of adventures. I still have my Parpill books, and the illustrations that one of my teachers made for me, and they’re so fun. I still love reading them sometimes, and so does Zofijka, because it’s all written both in Braille and in normal print, though she always laughs and says they’re freaky! 😭 I wonder why… 😉

2. Apart from my languages, that I am talking all the time on my blog, I was learning German and Italian at some point as well. German was at school, and I do like it, just not love it as my languages, andI was decent at it but nothing more, and then I courageously tried to do something with it on my own too because I sort of felt I should, but lacked motivation terribly. I have to many languages for now, maybe later, but I’ll have to live a really long life to learn all my languages and then have time and space for some others. Italian was my generous attempt to help out Mum who wanted to learn this language, but she doesn’t speak English so doesn’t have that many resources as she would have learning through the medium of English, and she said she needed some help. It was one big shit and a failure for both of us! But oh well, I am just not a fan of Italian, too many people love it. I also speak some Kashubian and i am half Kashubian, but it’s not much and, perhaps it’s hypocritical of me, but I don’t feel much of a connection with this language, I don’t even truly like it, I definitely love Polish way more, even though Kashubian is an extincting language and I’m all for saving extincting languages.

I am an auditory-tactile and auditory-taste synaesthete, which I love, and have some other sensory quirks, and some that are a bit resembling of some kind of synaesthesia as well, but aren’t that exactly. I love my brain for that.

I nominate:

This time, anyone who feels like participating and would like to feel awarded. Feel free to join in, and let me know if you do. 🙂

   My questions for you:

1. If you could choose any material thing in the world to have, but only one, what would you like to get?

2. What trait do you most dislike about yourself and do you think other people dislike it to, or is it just your opinion?

3. When was the last time you laughed really hard?

4. What typ(es) of situations are the most distressing for you?

5. Weird/funny, inspired by Astrid’s question and my Jacek quirk, if you were born the opposite gender and were given a chance to pick a name for yourself, how would you name yourself?

   The best post:

No idea if it’s really my “best post”, or if it’s objectively very good, guess it’s average, but I think, as for my debut short story in English, it was pretty good. But you’d have to judge, if you haven’t read it yet.

The Power Of Food And Music

Liebster Award.

I’ve been nominated for the Liebster Award by Carol Anne at

Therapy Bits.

Thank you so much, Carol Anne, it means really a lot to me and it is hugely appreciated. 🙂

The rules are to answer 11 questions from the blogger who nominated you, post on your blog, nominate seven more and make up 11 new questions for them to answer.

Questions from Carol Anne:

1 who made you smile lately?
Zofijka, we always laugh from the silliest things. Even just her laugh makes me laugh.

2 what types of videos do you like to watch on youtube?
I watch a lot of videos about languages and language learning, Youtube is an important resource for me in learning languages. Also I watch Youtube channels about names, above all Tulip By Any Name, but also others. Sometimes I watch some Youtubers vlogging about their mental illness, I try to regularly watch bloggers I follow if they have their channels, also I listen to a lot of music on Youtube. And lots of videos in my target languages, about anything. Sometimes I may also watch good quality ASMR videos if I feel like it, but it’s rather rarely nowadays, I know my ASMR triggers myself well enough to be able to surround myself with the pleasant and relaxing sounds that just work for me, and ASMR videos most often don’t work, even though I definitely do have ASMR.

3 Do you like quotes?

I do. Particularly from my favourite books. I also like learning about proverbs in other languages or remember quotes to make my vocabulary wider.

4 Spring or summer and why?
Nowadays, rather spring. I hate too much heat and don’t tolerate it too well. For years I loved summer because it meant holidays so that I’d be at home, but now I don’t have to care about it.

5 What were you hoping for when you started your blog?
To find like-minded people, maybe some friends, get an outlet for my feelings and thoughts, have some support network, share my passions with others and maybe infect someone with any, challenge my English skills and develop them, and maybe other languages in future.

6 Hot or cold drinks and why?
Depends on the weather, I guess. Right now only cold. Icy!

7 Bath or shower and why?
I prefer taking baths, but my skin definitely prefers quick showers.

8 If you had a wish any wish what would it be?
Uh, very very tricky. Hm, maybe for my best friend to get back in touch with me? Maybe sounds a bit selfish, so at least I’d like to know why is he so silent for months now, no matter how serious or ridiculous the reason is, I much prefer to know it even if it’s terrible than to not know anything and not hear from him at all for months. and I wish I could do something about it and change things, whatever went wrong.

9 Kids or animals? Who are your favourite?
Misha. 😀

10 What are the qualities you like in a friend?
Similar sense of humour, intelligence, some similar interests, rather introversion than extraversion, creativity, good listening skills, sensitivity, loyalty.

11 What is the worst thing about your depression?

I guess the worst is when my energy is so low I can’t do just anything and it’s hard to even pretend you’re OK. I also hate it when I get overwhelmed by feelings and that expressing them is always so tricky for me.

My nominees:

Alice at That Girl Called Alice

Jess at RubiksCat

Kat at From The Wings

Sunshine For Your Sorrow

Depressed Mermaids

Take A Ride On My Mood Swing

Michelle at

Bella’s Babbles

Rosie at

Rosie Blogs

Samantha at

My Bipolar Mind

Lauren at

A Gentlewoman And A Scholar

Lydia at

On The Borderline

Questions for my nominees:

1. What is one quirk about you that you particularly like?

2. Were you popular at school?

3. Do you have any tattoos?

4. What would be the title of your autobiography?

5. How would you describe your childhood in three adjectives?

6. What is your favourite vegetable and what dish do you like with it the most?

7. What one thing would you change about your past if you could?

8. What is your all time favourite book?

9. What/who is your biggest inspiration?

10. Do you think you’re likeable? Why, or why not?

11. What is your favourite post on your blog?

Remember you’re not obliged to do an award post yourself, it’s just to let you know I appreciate you and your writing.

Thanks once again, Carol Anne. 🙂

 

The Mystery Blogger Award and The Liebster Award.

A few days ago I was nominated by the fabulous Laura at All The Shoes I Wear

for both The MysTERY blogger award anD thE Liebster Award. Thank you so much, Laura, for so much appreciation, it means A LOT to me.

“The Mystery Blogger Award” is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging; and they do it with so much love and passion.

Okoto Enigma

The Rules:

1) Thank whoever nominated you and include link to their blog

2) Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well

3) Answer the questions from the person who nominated you

4) personally Nominate 5- 10 bloggers you feel deserve the award. Please don’t blanket nominate…it diminishes it’s value in honoring the blogger.

6) Ask your nominees 5 questions of your choice with one weird or funny one

7) Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog

Laura’s questions:

 

Is their a special place or process that helps you feel inspired to write?

I love to write at night. There’s something special about it. I feel like my mind is more open at night, more sensitive for some details I barely notice at the daytime, the perspective on things is different, plus it’s just quieter around. The only place that I write in nowadays is my room.

Whats the most outrageous thing you’ve done?

Drinking whisky at the age of 16 with my friends at night in the boarding school. There may be many outrageous things I’ve done at that time and I regret many of them but that one was fabulous!

What has made you laugh so hard ,you cried?

It was a bit silly thing. We were talking with my Mum about how it looks glaring when a wife is much taller then her husband and how it is sometimes funny. Then we talked about one couple we know who are like that and I wondered saying out loud something like how does this woman feel having such a “minihusband” and does it actually bother her at all. Because in my opinion it’s not that important in the grand scheme of things. And then my Mum said “Minihusband, it sounds so cool”. “Like a device, or a phone app” – I said. And then the discussion started, about an application designed for women who hate the male population and who still want someone, or something, to be there for them in any aspect of life they want. And it was a very long and fruitful discussion. How this app would imitate a man in many many different ways and aspects, if someone listened to it I think we’d be currently locked somewhere safe and lobotomised. Anyway, it started to be just so funny I couldn’t stop laughing and crying as well.

What is the most sentimental item you own?

Quite many things. But I think one of most sentimental ones would be my teddy bear Pimpuś.

Whats the best things you’ve done for others?

Hm I think those for whom I’ve done something would be able to answer this question more constructively, but what I always try to do for people I care about is to help them in any way I can, when they need it.

My nominees:

A Remarkable Mind

Brenda at

Beautifully Cracked

Beauty And Bipolar

Behcet’s And Borderline

Julie at

Day By Day

My questions:

1. What is the book that has shaped you the most?

2. What is something you’d like to do, but are afraid of doing?

3. What’s the weirdest thing about you?

4. Do you have a song that always makes you cry?

5. What’s your biggest strength?

The Liebster Award

 

The Liebster is an award that is given to bloggers by other bloggers. Liebster in German means sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcome.

 

THE RULES

Thank the person who nominated you

Answer the questions about yourself provided by your nominator

Nominate 5-11 fellow bloggers with fewer than 1000 followers who you think deserve the award

Create a new list of questions for your nominees

List the rules in your post

Let your nominees know of your nomination personally

Laura’s questions:

 

Name an instance where you laughed at yourself.

Today, doing my Welsh lesson, when I declared that I would like to eat someone, instead of something.

what song would you dedicate to someone that you don’t care for?

If I don’t care for them, then it could be whatever that doesn’t have any special meaning for me.

what’s the first book you ever loved?

“The Six Bullerby Children” by Astrid Lindgren.

which of your posts would you love to share? post link here.

How To Figure Out People’s Personalities Fairly Easily?

What was the worse holiday you ever had and why?

Last Easter, because of my Dad’s moodiness.

My nominees:

Katie at

Her Patchwork Heart

Ellen at

15 And Meowing

Christine at

In This Ordinary Time

Life, Love, Adventure

My questions:

1. Do you like milk?

2. What is the thing people love you for the most?

Who do you respect the most in your life?

4. If you were a singer, which music genre would you sing most likely?

5.   Would you rather go to Egypt or Iceland?

6. Do you have any food textures you hate or love?

7. Do you like baking?

8. Do you think you are attractive?

9. Do you like wearing black clothes?

10. Are you more sporty, brainy or artsy?

11. If you were your own best friend, do you think you both would get ALONG?

For those whom I’ve nominated for any of these awards, please don’t feel obliged or pressured to do an award post yourself, just if you feel like doing it. 🙂

 

Liebster Award.

So just a while ago I was nominated for a Liebster Award by lovely Carol Anne at

Therapy BitsThank you so much, Carol Anne. 🙂

   Rules:

 

• Thank the person who nominated you
• Answer 11 questions about yourself provided by your nominatoror 11 random facts
• Nominate 5-11 fellow bloggers with fewer than 1000 followers who you think deserve the award
• Create a new list of questions for your nominees
• List the rules in your post
• Let your nominees know of your nomination personally

Questions from Carol Anne

1 what is the longest you’ve gone without sleep?
Completely without sleep it would be around 72 hours when I was 10.

2 do you like icecream?
Sure, but it also depends what kind of ice cream it is.

3 what is your favourite type of food?
Oooh lots of things. But to narrow it down possibly I’ll say lots of spicy, salty, and sweet things – but maybe not together lol – Italian, Mexican, Indian, French and Moroccan food.

4 are you a fast reader?
Yeah, too fast I guess. 😀 I wish I could just relish a book, but it always goes by so quickly.

5 what is your favourite kinda weather?
I like when it’s warm, but not too hot. And I have nothing against reasonable amounts of rain. I love ice! I’ve been obsessively fascinated with ice since early childhood, don’t ask me why, I have no idea.

6 do you have netflix?
Not I myself, but my Mum does and sometimes we watch stuff, but rather rarely.

7 are you glad to have th e internet or could you do without it?
Without the Internet? Is it possible? :O Quite shocking. But pointless. 😀 Well at least I can’t imagine how I could do without the Internet.

8 do you own an amazon echo?
Nope.

9 where do you see yourself in 5 years from now?
Ugh, I’ve had so many ideas over the last three years. But I still have no clear and realistic idea. And no matter how much I think about it and whether it’s 5 or 10 years it feels always very scary to think about it.

10 do you have a best friend?
Complicated thing. Practically I don’t think I could say that I’ve ever had one, although nowadays I have many good friends online, not sure though whether I can call any of them my best friends or whether they would like it.There was one guy whom I still consider my friend and thought he’s my best friend for a long time, but now I really don’t know what to think about it since he seems like he doesn’t want to keep in touch with me any longer. I didn’t want to pressure anything on him as I’ve known very well what it means to have an intrusive and clingy friend so didn’t want to appear this way to him, but when he didn’t even answer when I sent him Christmas wishes I had no other choice than to realise that for some reason he doesn’t want us to be friends anymore, and I respect it, although some part of me still believes it is just a horrible mistake or something and he will get back to me, even though soon it will be a year since we last talked. 😀

11 what is your favourite personality trait in your friends?

There are many personality traits I like/appreciate/admire/value in people and would like to see them in my friends. Like sense of humour, intelligence, sensitivity, and all those traits that generally a good friend should have

This time, I’m not going to nominate anyone, although if you’d like to be nominated, just consider yourself nominated and you can make a post and answer my questions which are here.

   My questions:

1. Do you have any song/book or any other piece of art which speaks to you so much that you have an impression it’s especially for you, or about you? What is it, and  why?

2. When you think about the word comfy, what association comes first to your mind?

3. If you could be a mythical character, be it a god/goddess or any other creature, from any mythology, who would you be and why?

4. Which crisps/potato chips flavour is your favourite?

5. DO you have any favourite English accent/dialect?

6. What is your most favourite sound?

7. What MBTI personality type are you?

8. If you had to change your name, but keep your initials, how would you name yourself?

9. What personality trait do you like the most in yourself?

10. Is there any famous person you’d like to be friends with? Why?

11. Are you a heavy sleeper?