Question of the day.

So the actual question for today I have for you is:

What type of music do you listen to? What are some bands/artists you have liked for a long time? What are some bands/artists you would like to listen to? Who have you seen in concert?

My answer:

I think my music taste is quite wide. Most often I listen to either folk or rock or just folkrock, but I also like a lot of pop stuff, recently a lot of electro, Gothic music, metal, but as for Gothic music and all kinds of metal I will listen to it as long as it isn’t against my faith in any way as I am a practicing Christian. I listen to quite a lot of indie recently. Sometimes, when I’m in a special mood for it, I might listen to trance, like armin van Buuren, but rather his older tracks, or when I’m rather high I’ll listen to Polish reggae. I listen to a lot of alternative stuff. I love music in various languages which some may think is weird, it also happens that I listen to songs that have a bit odd topics. We have a radio programme in Polish public radio where there is a lot of weird music in all the languages you can imagine other than English and Polish, most often it’s rock, but really not only. I have lots of my favourite music from there. My favourite languages though occupy a special place in my music collection.

The band I’ve liked for a really long time, about 11 years I think, is Vavamuffin. It is a Polish reggae band. I’ll surely show it to you sometime later on. I had quite a weird music taste as for a kid, I started to listen to them when I was 10 and it was rather sad period in my life and their music kinda boosted my mood and this discovery led to finding many other Polish reggae bands. As I grew older I lost a lot of my enthusiasm for reggae, now I think this positive energy you can find in this kind of music is a bit too optimistic, it’s just superficial for me, but sometimes I still like to come back to Vavamuffin. But I don’t rather listen to any other reggae than Polish. My long time fascination is also Enya. I’ve loved her for years and she was my first musical crush. My other crushes I’ve had for some time are Declan Galbraith and Cornelis Vreeswijk. Ooh and Emilie Autumn, not my actual crush, but I really loved her as a teen when I loved everything Gothic, now not as much as I find lots of things in her music that are completely opposite to my views, but she still has some charm to me. And I have a lot of Celtic music which I discovered years ago and still love, so bands like Clannad, Celtic Woman, this kind of stuff.

Despite my love to music of various kinds, I haven’t been to that many concerts. I’ve never seen any of my really favourite musicians live. I’ve seen some Polish musicians when I was at boarding school and we had some outings as a group, but it wasn’t anything really exciting, I don’t even remember who they were now. πŸ˜€

How about your music taste? πŸ™‚ Would love to hear about it!

Question of the day (1st March).

Where do you buy groceries? What do you like to eat/drink? Do you collect coupons? Do you look for things on sale?

My answer:

I don’t rather buy groceries for myself, I live with my family and usually my Dad does groceries for us all, sometimes when I need or want something special I just give him money so he gets it for me. Most often we get our groceries in the Polish shop called Biedronka (literally “Ladybug” in English) it’s a network of supermarkets, or in Lidl, sometimes in other nearby shops or supermarkets.

as for what I eat and drink regularly, I eat a lot of vegetables, I mostly like them raw, I generally love Mediterranean, Mexican and Asian food, I love spicy things. I eat a lot of dairy, my favourite drink, or almost favourite is kefir, but I rarely drink milk on its own, there are many views as for whether milk is good or not for people older than toddlers and I am one of those who think it isn’t. I love fruits as well. Meat, with some exceptions, might as well not exist for me, I eat it just because my Dad and brother are very carnivorous so the rest has to adjust at least for dinners. But I like some white meat from time to time. Sometimes I’ll eat bacon too, and my favourite way of preparing meat is baked meat. And I like some of my Dad’s smoked meat, and our Polish kabanosy, and sometimes Polish sausage, but only when it’s well drained, if drained is actually a proper word in this context. I am not a big fan of fish or eggs but it’s not like I don’t like them at all, just not an enthusiast. And I love salty things, and sweet things too. And all kinds of nuts I know of. Oh, and all kinds of pasta, and all kinds of our Polish dumplings and pierogi, but especially Silesian dumplings. And some junk food is great as well, especially chips and spicy chicken wings from KFC. I am not so addicted to potatoes as so many people here are so that they must have them every time for dinner, I rather prefer pasta or rice or groats. Other than kefir, I drink quite a lot of water nowadays and can’t imagine it otherwise, I love black coffee, without any sugar, and recently I’ve discovered raspberry tea, Pepsi is great as well, and Pepsi with some whisky. And recently me and my Mum are in love in almond milk, it tastes just heavenly. And there are much more things I love to eat and drink.

I don’t really care about coupons, mostly just because as for now I don’t have much experience with doing lots of groceries completely on my own, I personally don’t collect any. My Mum does sometimes.

As for sales, we don’t look for things on sale speciffically, but my Mum has an app for Biedronka so she always knows when there’s anything on sale and if it’s something we really like or need currently, we can even go on purpose just there to get that speciffic thing, but it rarely happens. We don’t buy things just because they’re on sale, as so many people over here do, like they are fighting for a piece of carp before Christmas Eve just because it’s cheap lol.

Now it’s your turn. I’m curious what are your preferences and habits as for these things.

The Versatile Blogger Award.

Thanks again to Carol Anne from Therapy Bits

for nominating me, this time for The Versatile Blogger Award. πŸ™‚ It means a lot to me.

The rules are as follows:

Thank the person who gave you this award and include a link to their blog.

Nominate blogs that you’ve recently discovered or follow regularly.

Share 7 things about yourself that people may not know.

My nominees:

Astrid from Blogging Astrid

, Realities from

Journey With DID

and Michelle from

Musings Of Meandering Spirits

. The 7 facts about me:

I love olives.

I had a cat before Misha named Kiki. He wasn’t officially mine as Misha is because my parents bought him, I don’t remember him very well as I was at the boarding school most of the time then, but I wasn’t very emotionally close to him.

3. I don’t like cosmetics smelling like food.

4. I have about 15 km to the seaside.

5. When I was born, there was a massive storm or other weather phenomenon, anyway our house was out of electricity, hence my Dad says I got used to the darkness and hence I can’t see. πŸ˜€

6. I don’t want to have children, but because I love names I like naming or helping with naming other people’s kids or playing baby name games.

7. I am a night owl.

 

The TMI tag.

Today I was tagged by absolutely great Carol Anne who blogs at Therapy Bits

to do the TMI tag. Here goes:

What are you currently wearing?

I got out of the shower a few minutes ago and now I’m in my pj’s and dressing gown.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE?

Yes, multiple times.

DID YOU EVER HAD A TERRIBLE BREAKUP?

No.

HOW OLD ARE YOU?

21.

HOW TALL ARE YOU?

168 cm, or 5 feet 6 inches.

HOW MUCH DO YOU WEIGH?

45 kg, 7,09 stone.

DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS?

NoNe.

DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS?

None, I’d like to have one, but don’t have any creative ideas as for now.

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK?

Mm, I like many things, but let’s pick kefir. I love kefir.

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE SONG?

Again, very many, but currently I’ve listened a lot to “Olivia” by Canyon City and it has somehow stuck in my head.

WHATS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?

Aquarius.

HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE YOU TO SHOWER?

Now, as I know I have skin issues and they get worse when I take longer showers, it is very quickly, like three minutes, max five, but I used to take pretty long showers before, even like 20 minutes. Although I’ve never measured the time precisely. πŸ˜€

whats favorite show?

I don’t watch a lot of TV so don’t really have any very favourite shows.

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE BAND?

As for now, Plu, I think, is my most favourite, but I have many bands I love.

SOMETHING YOU REALLY MISS?

My best friend, well now I don’t know if he still is my best friend as he suddenly stopped writing back to me or contacting me and it lasts this way for quite a long time but I still miss him, but stopped trying to contact him as whatever is the reason, he certainly doesn’t want to talk to me anymore and being optrusive is what I dislike the most in people and wouldn’t like in myself as I know how pissing off it can be.

WHERE DO YOU GO WHEN YOURE SAD?

To my room.

HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE YOU TO GET READY IN THE MORNING?

Depends on my mood and what I have to do. When I’m going somewhere or someone is coming to me, it’s no more than 20 minutes I think, but if I don’t have any plans, it can be even half an hour or if I’m very depressed then even more.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A PHYSICAL FIGHT?

Many times with my siblings. πŸ˜€ But nothing too serious.

WHAT TURNS YOU ON?

Sense of humour, intelligence, people named Jack or Jacek, people speaking my favourite languages, many things, too many maybe. πŸ˜€

WHAT TURNS YOU OFF?

Thoughtlessness, shallowness, optrusiveness, ignorance.

QUALITY YOU LOOK FOR IN A PARtner?

Caring, with similar values, intelligent, with a good sense of humour, passionate, versatile, emotional, enthusiastic, introverted.

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?

Black, white, grey, blue, green. And silver.

LOUD MUSIC OR SOFT?

When I’m low, I usually listen to loud music, some rock or metal or Gothic stuff sometimes, I also like to listen to loud music when I’m very happy. But when I’m not toolow I mostly listen to soft music, or when I’m anxious.

FAVOURITE QUOTE?

“If you can sit in silence with a person for half an hour and yet be entirely comfortable, you and that person can be friends. If you cannot, friends you’ll never be and you need not waste time in trying” L. M. Montgomery “Blue Castle”.

Favorite actor?

My previous musical crush Cornelis Vreeswijk played also in a few films, so I choose him, or a Swedish actress Catrine Lundell whom I really admire because she’s an actress despite suffering from chronic and rare disease and in my opinion she plays really well.

DO YOUΒ  HAVE ANY FEARS? WHAT THEY ARE?

I could make a whole list of fears, and I might, just to see how many pages it will have. πŸ˜€ To mention a few: anything related to vomiting, interactions with people, heights, wasps, crowds, very large, open spaces, some speciffic sounds and (in some circumstances) silence.

WHATS THE LAST THING THAT MADE YOU CRY?

Being simply overloaded by difficult emotions on my birthday, so a month ago.

MEANING BEHIND YOUR BLOG NAME?

My Inner MishMash relates to my cat’s name Misha and also to the fact that I always have a total mishmash of thoughts, ideas and emotions in my head, but this mishmash is my inner so usually you can feel more or less awarded if you get access to it πŸ˜€ and I like the word mishmash. As for “what plays in my brain” it’s a paraphrase of a Polish idiom which literally goes like “what plays in ones soul”. If someone asks you to tell them what plays in your soul, they encourage you to confide in them. I am very interested in human brain and all about it, hence “brain”, plus this blog is a place for me where I can write down my thoughts and feelings, and also share with you my favourite music, as music “plays in my brain” almost constantly.

LAST TIME YOU SAID YOU LOVED SOMEONE?

To Misha, about ten minutes ago.

LAST BOOK YOU READ?

“War Of Love” by Aleksander Fredro, my obligatory reading for school.

THE BOOK YOURE CURRENTLY READING?

“Treasures Of The Snow” by Patricia St. John.

LAST SHOW YOU WATCHED?

Mmm too long ago to remember. πŸ˜€

LAST PLACE YOU WERE?

Zofijka’s room.

LAST SPORT YOU PLAYED?

Horse riding two months ago.

WHOS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO?

Zofijka.

LAST SONG YOU SANG?

Agnes Obel’s “River Side”.

aFAVORITE CHAT UP LINE?

Don’t have one. πŸ˜€

DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH.

I’ve had lots of very intensive crushes and so called musical crushes, as for now I don’t have any crush that I know in real life, but I have a musical crush called Gwilym Bowen Rhys and it is also a very intensive crush.

THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN YOU AND THE PERSON YOU LAST TEXTED?

My Mum.

FAVORITE FOOD?

Anything spicy.

PLACE YOU WANT TO VISIT?

Sweden once again, UK, Ireland, Finland, Netherlands, Faroe Islands.

WHATS THE LAST TIME YOU KISSED SOMEONe?

Misha about 15 minutes ago.

LAST TIME YOU WERE INSULTED?

Can’t remember really. πŸ˜€

FAVORITE FLAVOR OF SWEET?

Chocolate I think. But it really depends what kind of sweet stuff it is.

WHAT INSTRUMENT DO YOU PLAY?

I’ve played piano at school and learned guitar for a while but didn’t play for ages and don’t think I remember anything from that. I feel much better as a listener than creator of music and I didn’t like the pressure on music we had at school but now I think it wasn’t that bad because I know something more about music than an average person can know which helps me in understanding and valuing it. I don’t know as much as fully musically educated person as I didn’t finish music school, but was attending to it for a couple years which gave me some understanding of things.

FAVORITE PIECE OF JEWELRY?

My ring made of agate.

LAST TIME YOU HUNG OUT WITH ANYONE?

IRL it had to be very long ago, as I can’t remember. πŸ˜€

I tag just anyone who’d like to participate. :

 

Share Your World – February 26, 2018.

What are you reading right now?
We have so called obligatory readings in all the schools in Poland and I’m now reading one of those which are obligatory for our term, it is a comedy called in English “War Of Love” written by ALeksander Fredro. I love reading, but obligatory readings are usually fairly boring and this one isn’t an exception.

What was your first adult job?
My first and current job is being an office worker in my Dad’s company. There are only two of us in it, he had to register his own company to be employed in the company he’s working for now. He’s a tank driver. I don’t have my work to do, practically what I do is helping Dad with some tech stuff as even things like typing are like black magic for him. Also I answer to emails send to him. It isn’t anything exciting, but I earn some money which I can either spend on anything I want for myself, as I live with my family and don’t have to buy basic things like food for my own money, or I can save them for the future as I still don’t know what I will/want to do later in life. I appreciate it a lot and my Dad does too as because I’m disabled, he doesn’t lose any money when he pays me, he gets the same amount back from the fund for disabled people or however it should be called in English.

What’s your favorite breakfast cereal?
Cini Miiiiniiiis!!! πŸ˜€ I’m crazy for them and my siblings are too. I like them both with milk and dry. I like Chocapic too, I most often eat them with yoghurt, as well as those cereal that look like pillows and have different fillings, I forgot how they’re called. I love Cheerios too but rarely have them.

What did you appreciate or what made you smile this past week? Β Feel free to use a quote, a photo, a story, or even a combination.

Misha, progress in my languages, blogging, writing more of my book, a self care evening I had on Friday with a long hot bath and Jack Daniels with Pepsi, listening to lots of good music, testing my Mum’s new electrostimulator which was funny and I’ve never used it before and didn’t have the slightest idea about how it works, trying some yummy food.

Thanks for hosting to Cee’s Photography

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What’s your favourite?

Today is #WYF day at Revenge Of Eve

and the question is about your favourite colour.

Well when I was blogging in Polish on the platform for the blind I once asked people this question and it started a long discussion about how strange it is when people ask the blind about their fav colours. I’m totally blind since birth and I don’t see anything strange in it. I’ve always had my favourite colour, or, as it is now, even a few colours. What is really strange is that although I’ve never seen any colours obviously, I have some things I associate with them or imagine when I think about them and according to many sighted people I talked about it to, they are pretty accurate to how these colours really look. I know which fit with which, which are lively or calm, can distinguish some shades in my imagination and some blind people who have seen my stories say that my descriptions of people’s appearance are too detailed to be written by a blind person. πŸ˜€ I don’t know any other congenitally blind people who can’t see colours who have it like that but that’s how it is. for me and I think I’m glad of it. I suppose it may be somehow distantly related to the fact I’m synesthetic.

When I was a little girl, I loved red. Now red is my least favourite colour. I dislike very bright colours and don’t wear them or don’t have them in my room. I would feel awfully with the consciousness I am wearing something brightly red. πŸ˜€ It’s absolutely weird but I find this colour somewhat… anxiety provoking? Really hard to explain it.

Now, my favourite colours are: black, white, blue (all shades, or all I’ve heard of), green (excluding some shades) and grey.

I like to be surrounded by these colours, have lots of objects inn these colours or wear clothes in these colours. My favourite flowers – which I believe are called muscari in English – are blue and so many beautiful things are blue. As my favourite colour to be surrounded with I would pick green, my current room is dominated by green, while the colour I love to wear the most, feel the best wearing and people say I look good in is black. I am rather girly and love wearing dresses and almost all of them are black, except one.

ah, and I like silver too, but mostly just in jewellery.

So that’s it about my fav colours.

 

Question of the day.

If you could know the absolute and total truth to one question, what question would you ask?

My answer:

First thought I had – is there really any afterlife after we die? This may seem strange since I’m a practicing Christian so should be sure that there is, and I believe in it, but I suppose everyone of us, no matter what we believe in or if we don’t believe in the existence of any God, ask it sometimes, ’cause many of us would like to be sure. Is it all true or is it just a bullshit and we will just die and nothing will happen afterwards? That’s interesting. DO you guys ask yourselves this question sometimes too? But then I had another thought and I think I would prefer to get answer for this one, as I wonder really often about that and sometimes get quite frustrated about it:

Why actually was it so hard for me to go through that long period of time when I was at the boarding school? Or maybe not why it was so hard, but why did it affect me, my emotions and my mental health so much? Why I felt like it was so challenging if I wasn’t abused there, besides one year when I was emotionally abused by some of the staff, but then it finished. Why did I have such big issues with adapting there and why was it so overwhelming in so many different ways, for so many different reasons? Did other kids feel it too, but they were such great actors that I didn’t notice anything? They had to be really great, because I think I’m pretty good at “feeling” other people and I always thought they are happy there, well as happy as kids may be when they aren’t with their families. I know only one girl who I know that reacted to being there like me and ended up with generaised anxiety. Luckily she was much younger than me when people started to see what’s going on and it was my Mum who told her mum that she should take her home. Her issues looked very familiar for me. Is it the matter of high sensitivity? Coincidence of too many hard things put together? Emotional weakness? My Mum thinks so, but then why do a few other people said they think I’m strong? Is actually such thing like emotional strength a thing that can be objectively measured? Or maybe I was already freaky when I got there? Would I struggle less nowadays with my mental health if I wouldn’t go there? Or maybe I wouldn’t struggle at all? Why I am so afraid of processing my emotions and reacting so weirdly, emotionally and physically, to different, apparently normal stuff that all the other people are indifferent about and don’t think much about?

Well it is certainly more than one question. πŸ˜€ But it’s all swirling around one thing, so I look at it as one, big question. It all really makes me wonder.

What would be your questions. πŸ™‚