About me.

Welcome to My Inner MishMash! 😍

First of all, thanks for visiting. It’s a pure pleasure for me to see you here, whoever you are, because if you are here, it surely is for a reason and if so, it’s highly likely thatΒ  we have at least one thing in common. Who doesn’t like to meet like-minded people? πŸ˜‰ Also I appreciate that you are so inquiring and decided to get to know me a bit.

I think I should put a little warning, this may be a little lengthy, but being such a complicated creature as me, it’d be a real achievement to describe myself in five words or so:

 

My name is Emilia, I am a Polish girl in my early twenties, with a whole lot of fascinations, ideas, fears, dreams and thoughts. I am an introvert, an (overly) proud and doting cat mummy. My sweet baby is called Misha, comes from the breed of the Russian Blue which originates in Arkhangelsk, that’s why his family is called “Archangelic cats” and Misha is undoubtedly my personal guardian archangel. He’ll be 3 on 30th January, but I am in total denial of his adulthood which he seems to be OK with, most of the time. So Misha is my best friend and my everything, depending on the occassion and situation.

 

My interests are quite diverse. I’m very much into linguistics in general, but also some languages in particular (mainly Celtic and Scandinavian. Currently I canΒ  only speak Polish, and am learning English, Swedish and Welsh, and I love all of them, but I would also like to learn all the other languages I love which are: Finnish, Sami, Dutch, Frisian, Faroese, Scots, and all the Celtic languages, at least all that are still alive (Irish, Scottish Gaelic, Manx and Cornish). I hope that with time I’ll be able to publish posts in other of “my” languages. I love playing with words and use them sometimes not in very obvious ways. I like to think about myself, that, at least in Polish, I have quite a remarkable and quirky writing style. IN other languages I think I’m still not that very experienced writer, and therefore not as much expressive, but in Polish I love to for example mix colloquialisms or even vulgarisms at times with very beautiful or even a bit archaic language. Just love mixing styles. I really really love to develop in this area and always jump on any chance to do so, so hope that I’m going to develop my ENglish through blogging. Feel free to let me know if you’ll see any mistakes on here or will have any linguistic suggestions. I won’t be offended if you’ll correct me and won’t bite, I promise, quite the opposite, will be very grateful for any linguistical suggestions as I love to develop in this field! πŸ˜€ I’m always happy to chat about linguistic stuff.

 

Also I am into given names, their meanings, origins, popularity across the world, baby name trends, I love baby name games or naming other people’s kids. I am also into such a controversial thing as how our names can potentially shape our personalities.

 

I am also into human brain, medicine, psychology, mental health stuff, Celtic and Scandinavian folklore… well, actually everything Celtic and Nordic and folklore in general, so I love myths, legends and fairytales. I am a keen rider and try to horse ride once a week. Also I have quite a big collection of gem stones, both precious and semi-precious, they’re also my big big passion.

 

If I’m not busy with studying or working or not on a family gathering or not in bed with a migraine, then most probably you can catch me reading or writing (something as lengthy as it is only possible), being online, talking to Misha (or just to myself, cuz why not), listening to music (mainly folk and rock, but not only), doing something with my languages or out in the forest horse riding.

 

I am blind since birth and also struggle with some mental illnesses, which I’m going to write a little about because I would like to be open about it on my blog and I often write about things in my life in the context of my mental health. I had recurrent depressive episodes since I was 9, I was depressive some time before, but that’s when I got diagnosed with depression for the first time, then with reactive depression when I was 17 and out of the boarding school for the blind, where I was since the age of 5 and while I learned there a lot, emotionally it definitely wasn’t a good experience for me. I was quite neurotic as a kid. I struggle with anxiety – generalised anxiety, social anxiety and some more speciffic phobias, – and last year have been diagnosed with AVPD (stands for avoidant personality disorder) and dysthymia. I’d been in therapy for years, but I quit seeing my last therapist last December and now am in a bit of a limbo in this sphere. I was assessed for Asperger’s syndrome in childhood, which I definitely didn’t like and didn’t want to, and while I didn’t get the diagnosis at that point, my Mum and IΒ  were wondering a lot much later on whether I could be autistic. While many of the traits are very strongly pronounced in me, there are also many that I don’t have at all or don’t think so. So far I haven’t been professionally re-assessed as there aren’t really any possibilities for it in my area, but it is very likely and would explain many things that I am on the autism spectrum, maybe atypical autism as someone suggested to me, but so far I haven’t digged deeper into that.

OK, that’s all about me for now.

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I wish you a really nice time in my Mishmashy world.

Thanks for reading. πŸ™‚ Especially if you reached the end. πŸ˜€

 

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30 thoughts on “About me.”

  1. First, you already scared me just by mentioning Celtic and Scandinavian (did I get the spelling right?). lol! I’m afraid of words I seldom hear! πŸ˜ƒ

    Second, I also read your About this blog page, and you mentioned there again that you are blind. How do you do all these?

    Last, I like this blog. And I appreciate you being responsive to your readers. You have a very interesting About pages too.

    Keep it up! God bless!

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  2. Thanks for your kind words. πŸ™‚ I appreciate them and I’m glad you like my blog. πŸ™‚
    Yeah, so I thought, that it would scare people, but as it is a huge, scary part of my life, I needed to at least mention about it, and those scary groups of scarily sounding languages were also important to mention as it isn’t so that just any language is so extremely interesting to me. Yes, well done, you spelled them both right. πŸ˜€ You sound like my Mum, she is also scared by words she seldom hears, especially long words of Latin or Greek origin. πŸ˜€
    You mean how I do languages? Generally it doesn’t differ that much from how sighted people do it, although of course I get much more through hearing than it usually is with other people, but that is actually an advantage in this case. The problem is usually with getting apropriate and accessible resources. It can be hard firstly because my languages are so niche and scary that other people would rather prefer to forget they exist and secondly because while creating a course, be it online or an exercise book or something, people not always think about making it accessible, and unfortunately often it is so that not accessible =easier to make, especially in the context of making websites/apps. Also sighted people are usually visuals so it’s easier to give them some graphic like flashcards which my screen reader won’t read to me unless they will describe the graphics. Another thing is with people’s narrow-mindedness, ’cause when you are blind and search for a teacher, people usually get very confused or scared, they are convinced that teaching me must be very different and significantly harder than with sighted people. My Swedish teacher, who luckily was a very open-minded guy, said though for him I was the easiest student to teach. Probably because I was eager to learn and the reason for which I learn Swedish is simply my whim and I picked up the phonetics before he started to teach me. He had to put some significant effort in things like rewriting stuff from normal physical books for me, as we didn’t have any alternative, but that was a very speciffic situation, he had a pretty rare book that I couldn’t find anywhere in an accessible version and generally such efforts aren’t needed to work successively with me. So it can be shitty at times and I’m sure that if the world would be more open-minded/I could see, I would be much further now and would be able to speak at least half of my languages, but generally if you are determined enough and can find some helpful, thinking people, then there is actually no difference between sighted and blind people learning languages.

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  3. You are a warrior! πŸ™ You have so many gifts and such resilience that I am in awe! Inner Strength is such a virtue to have, and you, dear one, have it in abundance! Hugs!

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  4. Hi there!! My name’s Meg, which I think means pearl? I love wordplay and name meanings too! (But I’m terrible at other languages.) My main blog isn’t linked to my avatar, but it’s over at whenbadadvicehappens.wordpress
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    I love all things psychological too, and I majored in it in college. πŸ™‚ I’m sorry to hear you’re blind. That makes me sad. I sense you like (or will come to like) the Internet as much as I do–I’m schizophrenic and have difficulty interacting with people in “real life,” but I love interacting online!! Drop me a line sometime, and I’ll follow your blog–looks interesting! πŸ™‚

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    1. Hi Meg. πŸ™‚ It’s nice to meet you. It looks like we have quite a lot in commonn which I’m glad about. πŸ™‚ Yeah, your name does mean pearl, but I’ve also heard a theory that it may be derived from Persian and mean “daughter of light”, I think both these meanings are beautiful. My legal name (which I changed at 18 to Emilia) is from the same family of names. I’ll follow your blog in a minute. It’s great you majored in psychology, I had such plans too when I was younger, but nOW I think I’d rather do something with the language in the first place. For me personally, it isn’t a big deal that I’m blind, I’m blind since birth so it’s just my reality and I just don’t know how it is to not be blind, can only imagine. It does limit you, but there certainly are worse things that people or even I myself have dealt with, and if I had a choice, I’m not very sure whether I’d like to see, just because my world would change so much. Can relate to the interacting thing, it’s incredibly difficult for me in real life, but it’s real fun online and I do spend a lot of time in the Internet. Glad you like my blog. πŸ™‚

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  5. I adore you already! So glad I found you through Bee’s blog. What an amazing about me page, I can see we have a lot in common already. I am amazed regarding you fantastic English writing and the fact that you are blind also is amazing. You are very talented. I look forward to discovering more of your posts and perhaps getting to chat about mythology and writing, two of my passions also.

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  6. Hey emilia,

    That’s a lovely introduction, although I do know most of those things about you still as always it is a pleasure reading your words..

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  7. Nice to meet you Emilia! I read through your about me and it was awesome to hear all of the different things you’re interested in πŸ™‚ I’m very into symbolism, mythology, religious icons, etc. so I also get kind of obsessed with given names and meanings – I think it’s cool.

    Looking forward to reading more of your thoughts!

    Best,
    MB

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