When you talk to yourself, who is the real you? The speaker or the listener?
Aint that an interesting and weird question? 😀 Will have to ask my Mum that when she comes back from her trip. I think for me it kind of depends. Mostly it’s so that I have several different ways in which I talk to myself, or even how my inner monologue goes. For example, if I’m criticising myself or being kind of harsh with myself, be it out loud or in my brain, I’d say the real me is the listener. Similarly if I’m telling myself what to do or not to do, motivate myself, comfort myself etc. the real me is the listener. The more that, as far as thinking is concerned, I often actually hear these thoughts in other people’s voices. Be it real people or people/beings who exist in any of my brainworlds. In other situations, when my self-talk isn’t quite as directly to myself but more neutral or just, as my Mum calls it, “spilling my thoughts out” I am the speaker. Sometimes I feel that the speaker is what I call Bibiel, and the rather disengaged listener is what I refer to as “I” as opposed to Bibiel when talking to people, but I wouldn’t really say that the “I” is any realer me than than Bibiel, nor is Bibiel any realer or authentic me than the “I”. Not sure if it even makes sense to people, but that’s more or less how it feels. 😀
How about you? If you don’t talk to yourself, feel free to apply this question to the way you think.