When was the last time you did something you really didn’t want to do?
Today early in the morning. Misha slept with me, which has been less often than usual the last few months, he prefers to sleep in here during the day, and I guess I really fell out of the habit of waking up quite early – like 4-5 AM, sometimes even 3, occasionally a bit later than that – to his “Hhrrru?”-ing because he wants to be let out. I would just get up almost on autopilot and open the door for him so he could go out when he wasn’t sleepy anymore. I’m generally a pretty heavy sleeper once I fall asleep properly, but my brain got so used to Misha’s hhrru?s that this was the sound which would wake me up right away. I guess kind of like when you have a baby and you hear it crying, after some time you automatically wake up when you hear this sound. Of course, I could just not have the problem at all and always leave the door to my room open so he could go in and out as he pleased, but I really dislike sleeping with the door open, it’s not enough privacy for me, and, really, I never minded him waking me up like that. It was really pleasant to hear and see him first thing in the morning, cuddle him a little if he was up to it and I wasn’t too sleepy, and I love this little “Hhrrru?” sound, it’s a perfect start to the day. After all, I can just let him out and fall right back to sleep again, it’s such a short time that it doesn’t throw me out of my sleep completely.
But, now that like I said he’s been sleeping less regularly here and not very frequently, my brain is no longer so used to it I guess and it really takes him time to get through to me, and it feels a lot more unpleasant than previously to actually get out of bed and do it, even though I know I can go right back to it afterwards. And also today I’ve been feeling kind of low, as my mood appears to be slowly going down after being really good for such a long time, as you may recall. I’m not what I would call properly depressed, but just a bit low for no apparent reason, and I guess that made it more difficult for me too, to actually get going.
How about you? 🙂
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