Question of the day.

When was the last time you laughed, and why?

My answer:

Despite having dysthymia and feeling more or less depressed 99% of the time, I do laugh a lot, for all sorts of reasons. Because sometimes it’s the best way of masking that works for me, and because generally even when I feel anything but happy I don’t lose the ability to laugh or even the impulse/desire to laugh, unless when it’s like really reeeally shitty, in fact I think it’s a lot easier than smiling for me because while laughter conveys stronger emotions than a smile, at the same time it is kind of more diverse. Like, to be able to smile convincingly, I need to feel at least neutral moodwise, meanwhile I don’t need to feel neutral or above to be able to laugh genuinely, or even just convincingly, because for me laughter is not only about feeling happy. I can feel amused by something without needing to feel happy or even close to happy. It’s just not about happiness. I can have a super shitty day but still find something worth laughing at, even if just sarcastically. But a smile has to be happy. A sarcastic smile just doesn’t do, right? πŸ˜€ A sad smile makes you feel more miserable, well it does make me feel miserable and I guess look miserable too, so I don’t bother with smiling when I’m sad unless I think someone is really going to think I am rude because I didn’t smile at them. Also laughter is a coping skill for me some of the time, plus it’s the Bibiel part of me who just is this way that she always sees the funny or absurd side of a lot of situations. Considering that, regarding the latter, Sofi is exactly the same, well maybe not exactly but her way of seeing things is very similar and at the same time we complement each other so that makes that together we can find even more humour of different kinds in things, we have a lot of laughs together. And so, I think the last time I laughed must have been some time last night, as I was spending time withh Sofi, and yeah, we usually laugh together at this thing or another, at least a little bit. And yesterday we both were in a bit of a crazy mood so we were laughing a lot and with Misha too.

You? Also, just out of curiosity (well, this whole series is just out of curiosity but anyway) what do you find easier, smiling or laughing, especially if you have any kind of a mood disorder? πŸ™‚

12 thoughts on “Question of the day.”

  1. My kid informed me she read in the bible that short people do not go to Heaven. I laughed. Not an expert on the Bible but I am 99.9 percent sure she is incorrect. It was just such a random thing for her to throw out there,I had to laugh.

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    1. Oh yeah, I laugh a lot at Misha too, even when he isn’t doing anything specific. Just everything about him makes me laugh sometimes, and sometimes everything about him makes me feel like crying, he just works like that I guess.

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  2. Laughter is definitely stronger, it’s a release of energy. A smile is more controlled and contained. Lately, I’ve burst into laughter a lot as I sort my life. I look at my past, let out the emotions I pent up and afterwards realize how truly irrelevant it is now and that makes me laugh in appreciation for my past and the journey I’ve accomplished.

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  3. I laugh (aloud too) daily at the funny things I see on WordPress. Bluebird of Bitterness (aka B.O.B.) had a “Simon’s Cat” video clip yesterday that was hysterical. Laughter really IS the best medicine!

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  4. I’m sad that you’ve been struggling with disthymia!! 😦

    Your question is interesting about laughing versus smiling, because I laugh all the time, but I struggle to smile. Go figure. If I’m asked to smile on command, or if I’m just passing a mirror and try to smile for the sake of it, it comes out all wrong. Like, hideous looking. Like, my muscles can’t be forced. I could probably smile nice for my web cam to take a selfie, which I do sometimes, but for whatever reason, it takes a lot of effort to smile.

    Laughter comes much more naturally to me. I think the last time I laughed was last night while watching The Golden Girls. But I can’t remember the funny parts now!!

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    1. Yeah, really, smile is… I don’t know, I guess I just don’t like plain smiling in general. Maybe because there’s such a smile propaganda in our society hahaha. And yes, I’m the same with my smile being all wrong when I try to force it for photos and the like. Sofi says it looks as if something was rather wrong with my face. πŸ˜€

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