Hi people! 🙂
What is something that is makiing you feel bad?
My answer:
One thing that makes me feel perhaps not like super bad, but a little anxious and uncomfortable, is that I have a doctor appointment tomorrow to have a thyroid ultrasound done. I’m not particularly enthusiastic about having to interact with people there so while it’s not a super challenging or unusual situation that would paralyse me, I also have my Mum to help out as my spokesperson, it’s just a bit uncomfortable and it’s been in the back of my brain all the time for a while. As you may know, I’d been treated for hypothyroidism since I was a very little child, I was taking thyroid hormone and growth hormone. At some point I went off the thyroid hormone though, which most people have to take throughout their entire life, as I seemed not to have neither any specific symptoms anymore when off it, nor any special improvement in anything while taking it. Probably the only symptom of hypothyroidism I can strongly relate to these days is low mood, for which I have a separate diagnosis these days though and no doctor has ever said that I have the mood difficulties that I do because of hypothyroidism, and low energy which is a common thing in womenn on my Mum’s side of the family because of low blood pressure, and my Mum has the same thing. Anyway, recently I had some blood tests and it turned out I still do have my TSH (thyroid stimulating hormone) levels elevated, so my GP thought she’d refer me for the ultrasound, just in case there’s something else going on. I’ve never had anything particularly wrong going on on ultrasounds as far as I know, except for my thyroid being a little bit too small, but it’s always better to check it out once in a while I guess, especially that I didn’t have it in like over 5 years. So I am also a little bit stressed in case something may have changed, even though rationally I know it’s not super likely.
Also the Dad thing is still affecting me a bit.
My Mood has been very much up and down lately, but I don’t think there are any more clear, external reasons right now for the downs, or can’t think of any, so it’s probably just mostly my brain.
How about you? 🙂
My Inner MishMash 
What is something that is making me feel bad? The sheer nastiness that has made up the whole year (so far) of 2020. Usually some folks have a bad year here and there (it’s expected I suppose..that’s life) BUT this year? EVERYONE is having an awful year. More bad news keeps poppin’ up too. If it’s not the virus, it’s the weather or someone’s health or the economy. I say stop already. When is January going to finally come?
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Yeah, this year’s been massively shitty and weird, I do hope that once January comes it’ll get better for everyone.
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I didn’t know you had thyroid issues!! Please keep us posted!! An ultrasound sound nasty!!
Something making me feel bad? Hmm…. Well, I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. Writing? Woodworking? Looking for a job? No clue. I’m not sure how to orient myself, and I’ve been a bit… undirected and unfocused.
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Such a limbo feeling is awful. I hope you can find some more purpose, actually I’m sure you will.
No, the ultrasound itself – at least of the thyroid, I don’t know how with other organs – isn’t particularly nasty, if a little bit uncomfortable, but this time round it went well and super quickly, compared with what I’m used to. 😀 And the results were normal, well, I mean, normal for me, so nothing has changed since the last ultrasound, and except that my thyroid is smaller than it should be, it’s all good.
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YAY!! That’s great news!!!
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