If We Were Having Coffee… #WeekendCoffeeShare.

The weekend is over, but Weekend Coffee Share at

Eclectic Alli’s

is still open so I thought I’d take part and have a coffee with you guys.

As you know, I don’t really drink coffee now since quite a few months as I discovered it doesn’t agree with my brain, except for some very special occasions, but you can have it, or you can help yourself to some tea, I have a lot of different teas, as well as orange juice, Pepsi, milk, water, or you can take your own drink with you and share it with others as well if you want. For those who – like me – love coffee but don’t drink it, I can offer you some Kopiko candy – Kopiko are Indonesian coffee-flavoured sweets that actually contain caffeine, but not enough to send your brain to Freakland, unless you eat really many, and they do taste like coffee, unlike so many -flavoured things which are not particularly convincing. I also have some chocolate that I can share with you guys (oh, and we have hot chocolate and cocoa as well if you wish), and also I have hazelnuts in chocolate. My Mum is really awesome, because Christmas is over but she made Christmas pierogi for us again. Well, after all Christmas period is actually still lasting until Sunday. Anyway, if you’d like to try them, feel free to do so. I hope everyone is sitting comfortably and has something yummy to drink, and eat if you want. I’ve just had a glass of orange juice and now I’m sucking a Kopiko.

If we were having coffee, I’d ask all of you how you are doing…? ๐Ÿ™‚

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that it’s been quite a tough week for me. I am struggling with a lot of anxiety lately, and my anhedonia has been increasing slowly but steadily since a few months and these days it’s more noticeable for me. It feels strange because, while I’ve been familiar with feeling depressed and struggling with depression and depressive thoughts since forever, I don’t have as much experience with anhedonia. I’m kind of scared that it’ll stay with me, and I’m pretty sure it will if I don’t find myself a faza/crush very soon. Probably the whole transition process to my new computer and having to get used to it doesn’t help as changes hardly help me to feel better. I’m hoping it’s temporary. I’ve also had quite a bit of socialising to do this week.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that there was a bit of a party in our house on Monday. My uncle and his family came. I think I like him the most out of my Mum’s siblings because he’s quite laid back and often looks sort of different at things than the majority of mediocre people, and is funny, although he’s also very noisy and drawing lots of attention to himself, and goodness they all were making soo much noise that I managed to spend only a little while with them and then me and Misha escaped to my room! ๐Ÿ˜€ They were all partying until like 2 AM, which is longer than my family usually does, haha, especially that there were children too.

If we were having coffee I’d tell you that we were visiting all my grandparents last Tuesday, because it was Grandma’s Day, and on Wednesday Grandad’s Day. We couldn’t really break it down somehow because on Grandad’s Day, we were having other plans. So there was a lot of riding around and sitting behind the tables and socialising and eating and that, and I wasn’t really doing well as my blood pressure was very low and my mood definitely not up to socialising, but I was trying my best. Sofi was in an even worse situation, because she had a headache all day long after not a very good night’s sleep and the party, and you know how awful it is to have a headache while having to travel or visit other people, I really felt for her.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that we had a priest’s visit on Wednesday. I don’t think it’s a thing in Catholic parishes in other countries but here it definitely is. It’s like, during the whole period after Christmas, that is until February 2nd, priests visit all houses in their parishes to consecrate them and pray with people, also talk a little bit, get to know the family a little etc. It’s a very short visit, maybe 15 minutes, but, in our case, usually the waiting for it is sooooo long and daunting. They usually start on the neighbouring street to us, go through it, and then along our street but from the opposite end towards where we live. So the visits start, say, at 4 PM, but ours take place at 8 PM or so. And there’s no communication between the houses really and you have to be prepared because you don’t really know how long it will take this time. This year was a pleasant surprise though, because we were one of the first who were visited on our street, so we didn’t have to sit in the living room the whole afternoon and get bored and frustrated. It went very quickly and we were free. Although such events usually stress me a bit, it’s usually quite awkward if I’m honest, no one really knows what to talk about, so it’s good that we have Zofijka.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that I got another computer related scare on Friday. My antivirus informed me that I got some malware and that apparently it was a Trojan, which freaked me out mostly because I’d never had a major infection of a computer before, but also because as I said I’m still not fully used to it. Also I was very suspicious because this computer is still very new, and I had no idea how I could get it, because I haven’t really got to using anything else on it other than the apps I’ve always been using for ages, and same about websites. My antivirus “cured” the thing and then I made a full scan and now there seem to be no dangers, and I haven’t seen any weird behaviours of my computer or any issues that coould be down to a virus or stuff, so I believe it’s okay, and Olek actually says it probably was a false alarm and my antivirus must be just very hypervigilant, although I have no idea if that’s really possible. Anyway, it certainly didn’t help my anxiety as you can imagine.

If we were having coffee, I’d tell you that yesterday was my grandpa’s 16th death anniversary, and because of that, on Saturday we went to the Mass for him and after that, we had another family gathering, that was for some reason even more difficult for me to go through although I’m not sure why. Perhaps just because I don’t get along with my gran and the whole Dad’s side of family, or perhaps because of all the anxiety bubbling in my brain. Anyway, it was very difficult for me and there was a lot of food. I always find it more or less difficult to eat among many people or people I don’t know, but on the other hand I feel like it’s awful not to ever do it because someone may just feel offended or something, and it’s awkward when everyone else is eating. But this time round it was really difficult for me to eat anything at all. I caught up on that though when we got back home and I devoured a whole packet of crisps right away. It’s funny how much stress can impact you. For me it’s always like this. When I feel very stressed, I virtually can’t eat, but then when it passes away, I become ravenously hungry. ๐Ÿ˜€

I think that would be all from me for now in this coffee share. It’s not much, because I wrote a sort of smaller update post not long ago, and also because apart from some chaos in my brain and what I’ve already told you about, right now not much is happening.

Oh, Misha’s birthday is coming on Thursday! Hope things will be looking a bit better by then, although on the other hand I don’t suppose they will.

What would YOU tell me if we were having coffee? ๐Ÿ™‚


11 thoughts on “If We Were Having Coffee… #WeekendCoffeeShare.”

    1. Thanks, I hope I will. ๐Ÿ™‚
      Hmmm, Jack Johnson. I didn’t even know the guy, but I just listened to some of his music and read about him. It’s really nice, but I don’t think he could be my next crush. Thanks so much for the suggestion anyway. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  1. I only add pink lemonade when I got up with Spook and the pitcher was empty so I went back to bed. When I got back up at 11, I flew out the door so fast to get soda I gave my cat whiplash. Now that nicotine and caffeine levels are nearing ‘human-like’ status…
    I would ask you and Misha how you are and not fall asleep during your reply ๐Ÿ˜‰

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    1. I’m glad you were able to get your caffeine levels up and thus function a bit better. ๐Ÿ™‚ We would both tell you that we’re excited about Misha’s upcoming birthday, and Misha would say that he’s just recently discovered that it’s so much nicer to sleep under a blanket rather than on it. ๐Ÿ˜€

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  2. Oh wow, you’ve been a busy beaver! You’ve been on the go, go, go! There’s a lot going on! I never knew that grandparents had a day, or that priests traveled to visit everyone in the neighborhood! Fascinating customs! Oh, since we’re having coffee, I’ll take some cocoa with some added vanilla flavor syrup, a candy stick stirrer, and some rainbow marshmallows. Quite pleasant indeed!

    I was up all night due to sleeping all day yesterday, but I finally buckled down and got loads done on my find-an-agent spreadsheet, so go me! I guess I figured if I had to be up all night, I might as well be productive. And in better news, I woke up today just after 1:00, so hopefully I won’t be up all night again!

    I’m so glad you’re back online! I’ve missed having coffee with you!!

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    1. Yummy! ๐Ÿ™‚
      I hate having such a jet lag when my brain decides it’s more fun to sleep during the day and being up all night, so I hope yours will go back to normal for good now. It’s good though that you used your time productively, I too like being productive at night when I’m not sleeping. I so hope you can find an agent! I missed the coffee shares badly too! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  3. Hi Alli,
    Okay, I’m sorry to be so late this week. Somehow, Sun – Wed, just disappeared in a blurr of things that just had to be done which left me completely forgetting to circle back to visit with those who posted after I did.

    Also, you lost me at use of the word, anhedonia. I had to look that one up and while interesting, I hope you are not beginning a path with this batch of distresses. It looks like a dark place to live and I just don’t see you living like that. You’re writing has never really sounded consistent with what I’m reading about it. I want to stay within appropriate boundaries here but since I know from your post that you are involved in the catholic church, I hope you don’t mind if this Protestant guy adds you to his prayer list for a while.

    My sense is that there are not many church-goers in our coffee share team, but I also can’t imagine any of them would resent being prayed for either. Don’t be afraid to ask not to be prayed for. I won’t take it badly but just want to be a good friend here.

    Also, if you’d like a fun quick read about what happened to me once while working in a local church – you should take less than 10 minutes to read my story at: https://garyawilsonstories.wordpress.com/suffer-not-the-children/ . It has left everyone else who read it with a smile.

    Hope you’re already feeling much better.
    Talk with you this weekend – I hope.

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words. ๐Ÿ™‚
      Of course I don’t mind you praying for me, quite the opposite, I’ll be very grateful for it and I’ll be happy to return the favour. ๐Ÿ™‚ We’re all Christians after all and that’s what matters the most in the end, in my view at least.
      I’ll have a look at your story in a minute, and yes, I am feeling a bit better.
      Just for the sake of accuracy – I am not Eclectic Alli who is the host of Weekend Coffee Share, my name is Emilia. – ๐Ÿ™‚


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