Question of the day.

Hi people! 🙂

A quirky name related question for you today:

Has anyone ever told you that you don’t look like your name? Like: “You’re Mary? You don’t look like a Mary!” and if so, did they suggest what name you did look like?

My answer:

Don’t know if it was more about looks, or character/personality/behaviour, or perhaps both, but yes, my own mother, who gave me my birth name, told me that. 😀 Isn’t it a bit ironic?! When I told my Mum for the first time that I really liked the name Emilia, she told me that actually, she doesn’t feel like my birth name suits me, and if she was to make that decision again, she wouldn’t give it to me, and that Emilia did feel kind of better though she didn’t know what she’d rename me if she could and had to make her own choice. She said a strange thing, that when she mentions me or talks about me with someone and uses my name, it feels like she’s talking and thinking about two different people. 😀 That sounded weird, but felt even more weird for me because it corresponded with my feeling when people talked to me using my birth name. It felt as if they thought I am someone different, like I need to change my behaviour and the way I act to suit their expectations and their view of me. And there are still people who call me my birth name, and in most cases I get it because it’s family and if you’d always known someone by a certain name it’s hard to suddenly change it, and I still get this feeling when they call me my birth name, I didn’t know why it is so but I always felt a kind of annoyance when someone called me by my birth name, and there was some weird dissonance or something, I guess. Another weird thing here was that apparently when I was born, my gran asked Mum if she’d already picked a name for me. Mum said that she was hesitating, and she suggested Emilia. My gran! I was really surprised when I heard that because, well, my gran has five children, and looking at their names, her naming taste appears to be completely different and I can’t imagine her liking the name Emilia. Of course it was a different time when her children were born, late 50’s-early 70’s, and the name Emilia would be a bit more unusual then, but still… quite unbelievable for me even after a couple years since I learnt about that. Also I’ve never had a particularly close relationship with her, if any at all. That doesn’t mean we don’t like each other or anything, just can’t connect on any deeper level, we’re pretty glaringly different kinds of people, other than that we both seem to like the name Emilia. 😀 She didn’t comment though, or at least not to me directly and not so that I would know, about my name change.

And then there is my aunt, after whom I was named, who says I absolutely don’t fit the name Emilia. And I guess I know why she thinks so. Simply because most of my extended family, who knew me by my birth name, and don’t see me often enough and don’t know me well enough to feel familiar with the change even after about four years, still call me my birth name. And, among them, I don’t feel like an Emilia or not fully. I still feel like I have to play that other girl they want, don’t know why really because I’m not that desperate for their acceptance, maybe it’s just something that I can’t get rid of, or maybe it’s some coping/defensive strategy or whatever. I only feel fully like an Emilia when I’m with people I’m feeling at least a bit of a closer connection and like we get each other, or when I’m on my own, or doing what I love, or with people who don’t know me at all so don’t have any rooted assumptions/prejudices/expectations towards me.

Aside from that, when I was a kid in nursery, I met a woman who constantly called me Anna, and I didn’t correct her, but at some point someone else did, and she was like: “Oh really?! I’m sorry, I must have forgotten. But you look so much like an Anna!”. 😀 I also had a teacher who once renamed me, I assume either on purpose and jokingly or because he forgot my real name but still wanted to call me something, and he called me Maryla. 😀 I am 100% sure he didn’t think that was my real name, because… I don’t know how to explain it really haha… well I guess because it’s one of those names with a really kind of dusty, outdated feel, that aren’t bad or that don’t have any common bad associations but that most people just don’t like. So the likelihood of me or my equal being called Maryla is like if your average kid in an American school was called Muriel for example (I love Muriel but I’ve heard there are also many people in the US who hate it). 😀 A girl standing next to me immediately said in a very serious voice that I am not Maryla, but he was laughing and like: “No? What a pity. But from now on she’ll be. She looks so to me”. That was kinda funny, although, trying to be objective, I couldn’t and still can’t think of anything in myself that could make me seem like an average Maryla. 😀 And the girl beside me was even more confused than me. 😀 The guy was generally quite bizarre though.

Also a girl from our neighbourhood whom I used to play for some time when we were children once said a similar thing, though not exactly that I don’t look like my name. We were playing some make-believe game and I picked the name Helena for myself in it, and she was like: “Oh Helena, you’re really like a Helena!”. I do love Helena to pieces, but I’d go mad if someone called me Hela, if it was my name, and that would be highly likely. And I’m not really convinced Helena would fully suit me, I think you need to be a bit more expressive than I am to be a good example of a Helena and in harmony with this name, not extroverted, but just a bit more expressive, more engaging with other people I’d say, and maybe a bit impulsive too which I’m normally not at all.

OK, so how about you? Have you ever been renamed like that? 😀

6 thoughts on “Question of the day.”

  1. My legal name is Katina. No one has ever said I look like a Katina but probably cos it is only used for legal purposes.
    Now my mom has always called me Niki and I’ve been told the name is too cheerleadery and happy to belong on me. I agree, but legal name changes are expensive so until I can officially become Morgueticia and have a name that fits me…
    Guess I am stuck wearing the name of a person I don’t look ‘like I’d be’.

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    1. A bit sad that you’re not able to change your name. It’s just a formality but for me it did change things for better even more than I supposed, as I wasn’t called Emilia just in my own brain anymore. Morgueticia is a cool name, has a kind of Goth feel to it haha, and I suppose you’d be the only one in the world which is an interesting perspective. But I do like Katina too.

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  2. I’ve been going by “Meg” since 2002, and I still have relatives who insist upon calling me M-word. It makes me really mad, because it’s been, like, 17 years!! Geez.

    Hmmm…. Fun questions! No one’s ever said I seem like a “Meg.” I don’t even think I do. In my mind, “Meg” people have long, straight hair and ride horses. They’re farmgirls who wear jeans and feed the barnyard animals. They’re freckled and cute, perhaps with a button or upturned nose. HA HA HA!

    I think, honestly, you seem like an Emilia to me! You give off an “Emilia” vibe! “Emilia” makes me think of warm sweaters or blankets, cozy by the fireplace, and friendly. (Weird name associations are fun!)

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    1. I try to be understanding for people, but sometimes it also makes me furious when people seem to insist on calling me my birth name. Hahahaha I love your description of a Meg, I think it’s very accurate, though for me the name Meg will always be first and foremost associated with Meg March from “Little Women”, even though her full name was Margaret. My synaesthetic association with Meg is quite different though and very weird – a small, wooden figurine of a girl. Funny how you see the name Emilia. For me the cosiness is not the first thing that comes to mind but there has to be something about it because my synaesthetic association is a soft, smooth fabric, kinda silky like my Misha’s fur, or my most favourite teddy bear when I was a child and the texture of his fur. Yeah I think name associations in general are fun, I love them.

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