If We Were Having Coffee… #WeekendCoffeeShare.

Welcome to another

Weekend Coffee Share.

Grab some coffee, or whatever else you prefer, and join in. It’s much cooler now than even yesterday morning, which I am very glad about, and Misha is too. Though his sleeping patterns remain unchanged so far. He’s still asleep. I told you last week that I’ll have almond milk for this weekend’s coffee share to share with you (doesn’t Weekend Almond Milk Share sound way more sophisticated than plain Weekend Coffee Share? πŸ˜‰ ), but I don’t have it. I just ended up not doing any shopping, so yeah, maybe next week. Hope no one feels too disappointed haha.

I wrote a bit of an update a few days ago so you already know a lot about what I’ve been up to this week, if you don’t know and want to catch up just go

Here.

If we were having coffee I’d ask each of you how you’re doing…

If we were having coffee I’d tell you the therapist I contacted on Thursday didn’t write back to me yet but I’m still hopeful. I was a little concerned because I couldn’t find anyone else in my area doing psychodynamic therapy if she wouldn’t respond, but yesterday I found out about a clinic in Gdynia which specialises in it, so I might contact them next week if I’ll need to. Gdynia is further from me, not far but not particularly close either, so I’d also have to ask Mum what she thinks about it, if I would have to have therapy there.

If we were having coffee I’d tell you that yesterday in the afternoon we got a lot of rain and storms and that’s such a huge relief to me, because this heat was really overwhelming. Summer is nice, and warm weather is nice, but oh God, please, 36 C?! Isn’t that crazy?! The question is obviously rhetorical, it’s devastating.

And as we are talking about that, if we were having coffee I’d tell you that due to that weather we had I suspended my Welsh for a while. I mean my Welsh course, if you’re learning a language and doing it for fun you usually learn something every day, no matter if you’re doing your usual lessons or not. At first I wanted to be bold and still do it, despite I usually feel really crappy physically in the heat, but then I decided it doesn’t make much sense to just play a hero for the sake of playing a hero since I won’t learn much this way and I stopped it. Today though there was no reason to prolong it so I did my Welsh challenge, despite the break it went pretty wel. Then I went to show off to our learners’ community and one of the people asked me so why won’t you do another one then? I hesitated for a while, felt lazy and not quite like doing it but decided to do so anyway. So yeah I did another one, it went by even quicker than the first one and it felt like I was even better at it than at the first one lol. My new favourite welsh word is o ddifrif (o THEE-Vree, the dd is pronounced like th in the, the f is pronounced like v and the f at the end is silent), which means seriously, and ddifrifol (thee-VREE-vol) which means serious. It doesn’t sound serious at all, does it? πŸ˜€

If we were having coffee I’d tell you I had a brilliant, lovely dream last night, involving my current music crush Gwilym. And OMG it was so vivid. Well, all my dreams are vivid, most of them at least, which can be both fantastic and shitty, but it was just so… I don’t even know how to call it haha, let’s just say wonderful anyway. It made me feel really good, as my crush dreams always do, but it didn’t stop the anxiety that I still feel somewhat since that last sleep paralysis to creep into my mind again pretty soon after I woke up. I try to not care though, or pretend I don’t so that it won’t get the satisfaction at least, and despite the anxiety I feel pretty positive today.

If we were having coffee I’d tell you tomorrow is a sort of our parish church’s day, it is a thing in Catholic churches in Poland – each one has its patron saint and the day that is this saint’s feast day, they celebrate it with a lot of splendor, but also in a kind of rustic way, even in the cities, and to be honest, I usually don’t like all those celebrations, they feel very trashy to me. One of our patron saints is saint Roch, his feast day will be soon, but the celebrations are tomorrow for us, he is also a patron saint of animals, as far as I can remember there was some sort of legend that after his death he went to heaven with his dog. And because of it, among all the usual trashy stuff, there is also an interesting tradition in our church, namely pets are blessed and consecrated. Mum and me were last year with Misha (we were joking it was his christening hahaha), and I think we will go this year too. It always makes him a bit nervous because he doesn’t go out much and there are lots of other animals and he doesn’t have much contact with other animals, but also it is one of the few opportunities for him to get out and be safe with us, and he still likes to go out, as he often manifests very clearly. πŸ˜€ Plus I think it is a cool habit. Some people tend to think animals are some sort of worse kind of creatures, my Dad even thinks it’s a profanity to pray for a pet for example when it’s sick, and yes there certainly are some limits and I don’t say we should do with pets or allow them to do just the same things humans do, but they’re also God’s creations, good natured and often much more innocent than humans, so why such little things as praying or blessing them could be a profanity? I’d rather agree with Lucy Maud Montgomery who said something like that we can pray for anything we love, I guess Judy Plum said it in “Pat Of The Silverbush”. She was Presbyterian but I don’t think it makes much difference in this case, actually I think that Catholic faith is more emotional and stuff so we should think so and practice it as well. I am sure that God also created Misha with some sort of purrpose and loves him, it wasn’t just an accident that Misha appeared in the world, otherwise He wouldn’t make him so beautiful, so He must care about him. Plus I am strongly convinced that God has a sense of humour, a very good one, though a bit too ironical at times, and if someone has a good sense of humour they can’t have such stiff rules as my Dad does, don’t you think? πŸ˜€

OK, I think I’ll go now, I think I’ll turn on some music and go to Dreamland for a while, I’mΒ  feeling like it and don’t have anything much better to do today, and that seems to be a cool idea anytime.

What would you tell me if we were having coffee?

 

6 thoughts on “If We Were Having Coffee… #WeekendCoffeeShare.”

  1. I really hope that you can find a therapist. What type of psychodynamic therapy are you looking at and why? I have no idea even whether psychodynamic therapy is still covered by health Insurance here, since at least Freudian-style therapy isn’t.

    You are so right about you learning everyday even if you’re not in formal lessons. I haven’t taken a course in years but learn new things each day. I hope to start on some poetry-writing course someday soon, but it will be just an introduction through OpenLearn or the like, nothing I will pay for, or at least not much.

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    1. I would like to try Jungian therapy, the therapist I wrote to is doing it, also that other place I found does primarily Jungian therapy, but what I particularly liked about them from what I read is that there are also some Christian therapists, who do psychodynamic therapy, but adjusting it to Christian beliefs, which particularly suits me, also what sounds good is that they also work with other models of therapy so it is not just only psychodynamic stuff, it looks a bit more eclectic. I’m interested to see how it works.
      As for why, I’ve been wondering a lot lately whether my current therapy is really helping me. I’m doing CBT now, and it worked well for me for years in like crisis situations or stuff, but now I feel like I am actually regressing a bit and maybe I’d benefit from some more processing of the past, I feel like I’m ready for it. And my therapist says it’s not a bad thought, and that if it won’t work out, I can go back to her.
      A poetry writing course sounds very cool, good luck with it, I’m sure it will give you a lot of interesting experience in writing. πŸ™‚

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  2. Hi Emilia, I am glad you had a nice dream. That’s sort of fair, don’t you think, after the nightmares? I agree with you that God has lots of humor and I am sure he has no problem with blessing animals or listening to a prayer for a ill pet. After all, didn’t he put the whole flora and fauna into the garden of Eden and made us the stewards of the whole earth??? Never mind πŸ˜ΊπŸΆπŸ™ˆπŸπŸΈ. If we had coffee I’d tell you I am glad I could manage to change a huge burden around. Today is the anniversary of my mums passing and its always been a troublesome day for me. But in conversation with Carol Ann I decided to stop all that feeling bad and instead celebrate her life and the time both if us were given and I now feel rather good. They say I am much like her and I think that’s a good thing. I just wish I had her self-confidence and her green eyes 😁. Oh, I don’t mind what milk is in my coffee. I had cream and cinnamon this morning because of the mum celebration β˜•. Hope you have a lively evening and a good night!

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    1. Yeah, I also think it’s very fair, luckily when I have nice dreams, they can be as nice, as those scary can be scary. Completely agree with you about God, that’s really true. πŸ˜€ I’m sorry about your mum and that it’s been so hard for you, but it’s brilliant that you are now able to move on and celebrate her life. πŸ™‚ And your coffee sounds delicious. Have a great evening and sleep well too. πŸ™‚

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