Question of the day.

What is the last thing you cried about?

My answer:

Cried like cried or just felt like crying? I have issues with crying and with expressing emotions generally, so, although I’ve learned to cry, it’s still really hard to do for me and I am rarely able to really let my emotions out through crying. I can feel like crying, or like I would really really like to cry very often, but I don’t cry often at all. I guess the last time I cried was in May, after one of my finals, and then I literally cried all the way back home and even afterwards and couldn’t stop, it was all scary! But the last time I felt like crying was last week on Tuesday, and it was also in some part related to my finals. But generally I felt like crying because I was just overwhelmed by lots of emotions and triggered, but just couldn’t let it out in any way, or figure out what’s actually ging on inn my brain, I was also extremely angry at that time and when I feel angry I often feel on the verge of tears, just like my Mum. In most situations I am glad I am not an easy cryer, like many women in my family are, but sometimes I would really like to be able to relieve myself through tears but it just seems impossible nowadays after all those years of bottling things up.

How about you? 🙂

7 thoughts on “Question of the day.”

  1. I used to cry when I was on my own. Then I could let it out. Today I don’t seem able to keep my tears back. Those boys in Thailand who got saved made me cry. Even though I am not sure if that has to do with my age and menopause looming or already being in full swing 😊. It’s good that crying is easier for you now. But I think once you taught yourself to bottle it up you never fully get rid of it. It just gets too deep because it being a survival tool. But healing its a process and you never know where it leads you. 😚

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    1. I can usually also only cry on my own, although it also sometimes happens when I am very overwhelmed that I cry or am close to it in quite inappropriate situations. My Mum also cried hearing about those boys being saved, she’s generally moved very easily. And yeah, I think you’re right as for the healing thing.

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  2. I think the last time I cried was last week, I was really overwhelmed with children, the future, and what I was going to do about the baby… And no money… It wasn’t pretty I promise.

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