Time for G2K
which is a weekly series at Revenge Of Eve.
Here are this week’s questions and my answers.
Do you have a secret crush? Famous or not
I do, I’ve had many crushes for most of my life, famous, less famous or completely not famous. They were usually pretty intensive, I’d actually say it’s often more than a crush, not fully love, but yet not just crush. As for the famous ones, they have always been music crushes. My current music crush is Gwilym Bowen Rhys, who, actually, doesn’t seem to be very famous besides his home country, which is Wales, because his music is entirely in Welsh. When it comes to a not famous crush that I know in real life, at the moment, it’s Misha – my Russian blue cat.
What is their code name? (pet name)
I often refer to Gwilym as Gwil, since it’s his diminutive, or when I think about him or write about him in Polish and am in a particularly crushy mood I call him Gwiluś (-uś is a common masculine diminutive suffix in Polish). 😀 Sometimes he’s Gwillie. 😀 As for Misha, he has tones of pet names – Mishka, Mishunia, Teddy Bear, Miszmasz, Miska, Misa, The Grey Brother, Michelle, Saakashvili, Putin, Misha Pisha…
Are they aware of your crush or existence?
Existence – yes, in fact we’d been corresponding for quite a while in the past soon after my crush has started, that was I guess one of the craziest and spontaneous things I’ve ever done in my life and don’t regret, I may write more about it in the future, but that’s a little complicated. Crush – don’t think so, and hope not, but he knows I like his music and admire him for his versatility. Misha, oh, sometimes, it feels like even if he is aware of my existence, he doesn’t care a bugger, or barely notices anyone’s existence. My crush on him, he either does see and is so cruel he doesn’t care about it either, or is completely unaware. 😦 ( 😀 )
How do you act or feel when they are around?
Well I haven’t ever been physically around Gwil, but at the time we were writing, I had experienced a severe episode of pseudo-OCD, checking my email every five minutes (at least). 😀 When I got the first email from him I could’ve swore I forgot how to actually breathe for a while. When I hear any of my music crushes’ – current or past – music, I feel just absolutely heavenly, I often call it that my brain is melting because it feels quite exact haha. I like to hear my crushes talking, or even more laughing, it works better for me than any ASMR triggers. Actually I am very sensitive to music and sounds, no matter if they’re crush related or not, which can be both good and bad to experience, I think I sometimes get that weird but fantastic feeling that people call eargasm. I am an incurable and most deviated of all the linguophiles on the Earth, or so I like to think, so the same that applies to Gwilym’s music, also applies to his accent in both languages, I am always obsessed about my crushes’ accents. As for Misha, I love his purrs, and all the humming, hhrrruing and gurgling sounds inside of him. I like to lie close beside him and listen to all his inner sounds. I like all his meows, even those most annoying, I like to immerse in his fur, feel his baby-like smell, even though I’m not that good at feeling smells as I am with sounds. I feel always at least a little bit more relaxed than when I’m without him.
Would you pursue a relationship if it were possible? What holds you back?
Hmm, that’s interesting. Hard to say. With Gwil, if it were possible, I think I’d try, because then I’d feel like I missed out and even when my crush would become less intense, I would probably more or less regret. That could be a very interesting experience since he’s very interesting and, at least intellectually and as for our likes, we seem to have quite a lot in common, although we’re completely different characterologically. Yeah that could surely be interesting, even if it wouldn’t work out long term. As for Misha, we often joke with Zofijka that we three – Misha, her and me – are in a triangle relationship, lol, however silly and sick it sounds in reference to a cat. But seriously, no, I think our current level of the relationship is perfectly enough, although he could be a bit more emotional at times, but hey we’re both lacking in this sphere. But other than being more emotional I think our relationship should rather stay as it is, it’s fine, and I am not a zoophile. 😀 But, if Misha was a guy… gawd, I’d love to be with him!But Zofijka says he’d be an awful egoist, and would only need a girl to be his housewife and care for his food and clean socks, so, if so, no, thanks. 😀