Question of the day.

Is there some insider knowledge that only people in your line of work have?

My answer:

Haha, surely, but I don’t have it. My work situation is a little bit odd, at least I see it this way. For those of you who don’t know I work at my Dad’s company, because it is lucrative for both of us, for me mainly because I can have some money I can either save for the future or use for just my own needs – since we all live together as a family I don’t need to buy myself basic stuff like food etc. so just the things I want/need just for myself, and I save the rest, so most of it. My Dad is a tank driver, he delivers fuel, and I’m officially something like his secretary, unofficially I help him out with everything he can do that I can do, so mostly techy stuff because he can barely type and is not willing to learn, or language stuff because there are people from different countries he delivers fuel to, so English comes in handy, and even Swedish sometimes too.

I can sure tell you there is a lot of stuff tank drivers know that no one else on Earth would even care about or be interested in, while they – tank drivers – assume you’re just utterly stupid to not know all those things. The thing is I don’t have a clue about them, don’t have to know much about that stuff, and don’t want to cus it’s just boring.

I wouldn’t suppose though there can be much things that are known exclusively to office workers, no offence to office workers or anything, but it’s just not a very niche thing, I mean, or maybe I don’t see anything enigmatic about this job.

But I can also say that lots of environments that I am a part of have a lot of such insider knowledge. It’s not because it’s some “professional secrecy” or anything, just other people don’t ask us, and we assume it all is obvious.

As a language geek I know a lot of things that could be completely useless for anyone who isn’t a language geek, about linguistics, or some particular languages, or dialects, or other related stuff, and it all just circulates among the language geeks, not going anywhere outside cus who would care how are Finnish and Hungarian related to each other and what they have in common practically, or what are mutations in Celtic languages, or how does it feel to have wet dreams dreaming in Zulu etc.

I think the same regards blind people community although in a bit different way because in contrast to language geeks, there’s definitely a point in exchanging information between sighted and blind people so that the two groups can understand each other better and avoid many issues, conflicts etc. Likewise I would say about the community of people struggling with mental illnesses. It may feel annoying to explain things to people all the time and there are some people who will never be able to understand some things, but they’re a minority and still I think we should educate others about how it feels to be us, to struggle with our conditions, we should give them a chance to see it not just assume they should know it. And healthy/ablebodied people should be empathetic and open-minded, and then it would be just ideally.

As for my own very insider knowledge as a blind person with mental illnesses and other odds and quirks, I can say that what intrigues people if I decide to reveal it to them is my sleep paralysis and all the related stuff. There haven’t been many people in my surroundings that I told about it, in details I only talked about it with my Mum and it was still very hard to actually describe what it’s like, firstly because I just couldn’t find words for it and secondly because sometimes even talking about it may feel scary in a way, anyway whoever I wouldn’t talk about it too, they always seem intrigued, and can’t hide it. I don’t have nothing against, well it intrigued me too for years until I just got used to it. Those dreams I have are certainly anything but normal.

My – as I call it – “silence anxiety”, as well as the “sound anxiety”, if I decide to mention about it to anyone, also seems to be of interest. but it’s even harder to talk to people about it.

Also my synesthesia and related stuff are very interesting for people and for me too – like the fact that I can link sounds with factures or tastes or that whole thing with names I wrote about not so long ago.

Some are very excited when I need to mention I’d been using Doses or doing stuff like OOBE, and often ask how it feels, which in this case is very embarrassing for me because I simply hate that part of my life very deeply and it’s just all… let’s say complicated, I’m too sleepy to come out with something more adequate and creative. 😀 Although I’m not surprised that people want to know how it feels, it can be certainly interesting in a way, if it wouldn’t, I wouldn’t ever do it, I guess.

and of course like (I guess) all the blind people I get tons of questions like how I dream, how I type, can I feel colours, do I use echolocation, why I am not like other blind people they know, why I don’t have a guide dog, whether I’ve had any surgeries for my eyes, how I imagine their faces, do I need to touch every single thing while I’m shopping to know what it is, are my other senses supersharp because I can’t see, and so on and so forth.

Sometimes you can doubt in everything but I guess if people ask, they truly want to know and truly want to learn, although sometimes really wish they could also think a bit on their own before they ask, and if they really want to ask, be more constructive, because sometimes it’s hard to not snort with laugh at someone asking “Oh, how did you know I am here if you can’t see?” 😀

Mental healthwise I’ve had much more serious situations, some even kinda traumatising I’d say, with completely ignorant people at the boarding school and other places like that, who, to give you a short and sweet example, wanted to diagnose me with schizophrenia because I wasn’t meeting their expectations – was different than other kids basically –
and created my own imaginary creatures called Parpills about whom I was writing a book and they accused me that I think that they exist. But with this kind of situations it wasn’t only me going through similar stuff, also kids who didn’t have any mental health issues.

What is some insider knowledge in your environment? 🙂

If it’s a bit embroiled or not very logical or stylistical then I’m very sorry, I’m having a Zombie day and am going to soon go off to sleep, but just wanted to write something constructive today, will look at it and edit tomorrow, but suppose it’s quite consistent. 😀

4 thoughts on “Question of the day.”

  1. Hi! I work for my dad, too, but not to a huge extent. He and I live together, and I do legal docs for him, because he doesn’t know how to use a computer. (He can’t learn, either–he has some sort of mental block in that regard! He actually uses a typewriter!!) So, he’s a lawyer and I format his docs to make them pretty when he has to do a legal brief for a case. 🙂

    Zombie days are good! Maybe you’ll have fun dreams!!

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    1. Your Dad sounds just like mine. 😀 My Dad generally refuses to learn new things that appear very dificult at a first glance, and that’s annoying at times, but at least I have a job thanks to it. 😀
      Yeah you can look at Zombie days this way, I have more fun or interesting dreams after a Zombie day indeed. Last night I didn’t have any though, but at least I caught up on sleep which can really change a lot. 😀


    1. Yeah I know quite a few nurses, I have a few in my family for example, and they never seem to particularly hide their knowledge, in opposite to some doctors I know, so it doesn’t look like something very secret.

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